Submissions by kaileah_wingtips
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2016 2:44pm
14th Oct 2016 2:44pm
Past pain
Feeling despondent, My mood so low.
My mind churns up pain from so long ago.
Things I thought I had long put to rest,
Bubble up to the surface and tighten my chest.
Overwhelming my thoughts and making them dark,
What were once hazy memories are suddenly stark.
I wade through the deluge that falls from my eyes
and wonder right now how I'm going to survive.
I try to remember the pain's not as raw.
It's not happening now but it happened before.
Temptation sets in for my old way to cope
But not using my blade is giving me hope
I refuse to break...
My mind churns up pain from so long ago.
Things I thought I had long put to rest,
Bubble up to the surface and tighten my chest.
Overwhelming my thoughts and making them dark,
What were once hazy memories are suddenly stark.
I wade through the deluge that falls from my eyes
and wonder right now how I'm going to survive.
I try to remember the pain's not as raw.
It's not happening now but it happened before.
Temptation sets in for my old way to cope
But not using my blade is giving me hope
I refuse to break...
569 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Jan 2016 1:51pm
14th Jan 2016 1:51pm
Consumed by pain
The pain is unbearable.
Not only physically but emotionally.
It has stolen my youth. My life.
I am a shell of who I once was.
Trapped by my body that has aged more than double its years.
Day in and day out I am cruelly reminded of the simple things I once took for granted. Running. Skating. Standing on tip toes. Showering without a stool. Even walking has become such a chore.
I long to return to work but it's not an option.
Each day I'm just waiting for the next to come. My life is stagnant. I'm scared. Will it ever get any better?
Will I ever be well enough...
Not only physically but emotionally.
It has stolen my youth. My life.
I am a shell of who I once was.
Trapped by my body that has aged more than double its years.
Day in and day out I am cruelly reminded of the simple things I once took for granted. Running. Skating. Standing on tip toes. Showering without a stool. Even walking has become such a chore.
I long to return to work but it's not an option.
Each day I'm just waiting for the next to come. My life is stagnant. I'm scared. Will it ever get any better?
Will I ever be well enough...
616 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
21st Dec 2015 2:31pm
21st Dec 2015 2:31pm
I can't breathe
I can't breathe.
My chest is bursting for air as a single glass jewel escapes the corner of my eye.
The raw mass of emotion in my throat is unbearable.
I can't breathe
As the glistening droplet rolls over my ruby lips I taste the salt.
Another follows and then there is no stopping the downpour.
I can't breathe
Panic stricken, I begin drowning in the tiny diamonds falling from my eyes. Gasping, I swallow another mouthful of shards of my heart.
I can't breathe
My chest is bursting for air as a single glass jewel escapes the corner of my eye.
The raw mass of emotion in my throat is unbearable.
I can't breathe
As the glistening droplet rolls over my ruby lips I taste the salt.
Another follows and then there is no stopping the downpour.
I can't breathe
Panic stricken, I begin drowning in the tiny diamonds falling from my eyes. Gasping, I swallow another mouthful of shards of my heart.
I can't breathe
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EROTIC POEM
Published
4th Mar 2014 8:13pm
4th Mar 2014 8:13pm
First touch
There was no signal so the tv turned itself off at the end of the DVD
It's now pitch black in your room.
We lie facing each other,
closer together than we have been before.
We play our usual game of tracing our fingers up and down each other's arms.
The fear of rejection preventing me from voicing my feelings for you.
I know you feel the same as I do because your breath, hot on my cheek is becoming shorter as you become more aroused.
I slip my hand inside the sleeve of your T-shirt and trace your shoulder from back to front 'accidentally' brushing the side of...
It's now pitch black in your room.
We lie facing each other,
closer together than we have been before.
We play our usual game of tracing our fingers up and down each other's arms.
The fear of rejection preventing me from voicing my feelings for you.
I know you feel the same as I do because your breath, hot on my cheek is becoming shorter as you become more aroused.
I slip my hand inside the sleeve of your T-shirt and trace your shoulder from back to front 'accidentally' brushing the side of...
1246 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Dec 2013 5:19pm
19th Dec 2013 5:19pm
Seventeen years
Seventeen years
To the day
You stole from me something that can never be replaced
My innocence
Viciously.
Violently.
You violated me
in the worst way.
You left me unconscious
Bruised...
Bleeding...
I was so small.
Four days after my eleventh birthday
Screaming...
Scared...
Your face is etched into my mind
The alcohol on your breath
The stubble on your chin
The words you spoke
Torment me in my sleep
Still...
Scarred...
They never caught you
How many others were there?
Was I the only one?...
To the day
You stole from me something that can never be replaced
My innocence
Viciously.
Violently.
You violated me
in the worst way.
You left me unconscious
Bruised...
Bleeding...
I was so small.
Four days after my eleventh birthday
Screaming...
Scared...
Your face is etched into my mind
The alcohol on your breath
The stubble on your chin
The words you spoke
Torment me in my sleep
Still...
Scarred...
They never caught you
How many others were there?
Was I the only one?...
748 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
29th Jul 2013 6:03pm
29th Jul 2013 6:03pm
if my heart had a choice
if my heart had a choice it would stop beating. broken beyond repair, each painful thud smashes the shards further into itself. so deformed, it's no longer recognizable for what it was. something that once glowed with happiness, no longer knows its purpose. barely functioning. it staggers though each day praying for an end. they say time heals all wounds, yet it still lies shattered in exactly the position it was left 11 months ago. involuntary breaths are torture, forcing pain every second of the day
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Jul 2013 6:58pm
20th Jul 2013 6:58pm
slowly giving up...
Tears threaten to spill over, every second of my day.
For any reason.
Happy.
Sad.
Anxious.
They are always so close.
I feel so hopeless.
Aimlessly navigating my way through each day.
My only goal to make it to the next.
Its exhausting.
Unfulfilling
And by no means easy.
I torture myself unwittingly.
Replaying events in my mind.
Longing for something that is no longer there.
Trying to pinpoint the moment I lost it.
Obsessing.
Why didn't I see?
Every minute is a battle to keep my head above water.
To not...
For any reason.
Happy.
Sad.
Anxious.
They are always so close.
I feel so hopeless.
Aimlessly navigating my way through each day.
My only goal to make it to the next.
Its exhausting.
Unfulfilling
And by no means easy.
I torture myself unwittingly.
Replaying events in my mind.
Longing for something that is no longer there.
Trying to pinpoint the moment I lost it.
Obsessing.
Why didn't I see?
Every minute is a battle to keep my head above water.
To not...
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SELF POEM
Published
14th May 2013 5:42pm
14th May 2013 5:42pm
glint of steel
I sit here, alone with my thoughts.
A battle within me taking place, none should have to endure this torment.
I glance to my hand, at what is trapped between my fingers.
So small.
A weapon of mass destruction.
Wrapped in a sheath of waxed paper.
I peel the corner back and stare, mesmerized by the glint of steel. So bright in the darkness. How can something so small have such control over me? A single teardrop splashes onto the skin of my thigh as I realise I am being overpowered.
The waxed paper slips from my fingertips as I turn the blade over. Enticed...
A battle within me taking place, none should have to endure this torment.
I glance to my hand, at what is trapped between my fingers.
So small.
A weapon of mass destruction.
Wrapped in a sheath of waxed paper.
I peel the corner back and stare, mesmerized by the glint of steel. So bright in the darkness. How can something so small have such control over me? A single teardrop splashes onto the skin of my thigh as I realise I am being overpowered.
The waxed paper slips from my fingertips as I turn the blade over. Enticed...
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SELF POEM
Published
14th May 2013 5:42pm
14th May 2013 5:42pm
glint of steel
I sit here, alone with my thoughts.
A battle within me taking place, none should have to endure this torment.
I glance to my hand, at what is trapped between my fingers.
So small.
A weapon of mass destruction.
Wrapped in a sheath of waxed paper.
I peel the corner back and stare, mesmerized by the glint of steel. So bright in the darkness. How can something so small have such control over me? A single teardrop splashes onto the skin of my thigh as I realise I am being overpowered.
The waxed paper slips from my fingertips as I turn the blade over. Enticed...
A battle within me taking place, none should have to endure this torment.
I glance to my hand, at what is trapped between my fingers.
So small.
A weapon of mass destruction.
Wrapped in a sheath of waxed paper.
I peel the corner back and stare, mesmerized by the glint of steel. So bright in the darkness. How can something so small have such control over me? A single teardrop splashes onto the skin of my thigh as I realise I am being overpowered.
The waxed paper slips from my fingertips as I turn the blade over. Enticed...
664 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Feb 2013 7:47pm
20th Feb 2013 7:47pm
unanswered questions
Where did i go wrong?
Why can't things work out?
Do i not deserve to be happy?
Am i such a bad person?
Every night i fantasise about death.
He comes and swallows my pain,
Eases my anguish,
Wipes my tears.
He promises a place where i can forget,
I dont have to feel,
A place of nothingness.
Infinite darkness where i can sleep undisturbed.
Eternal silence where i can escape my thoughts.
So tempting...
Do i believe him?
My life to date has been cruel.
Happiness short lived.
All energy spent on efforts for others....
Why can't things work out?
Do i not deserve to be happy?
Am i such a bad person?
Every night i fantasise about death.
He comes and swallows my pain,
Eases my anguish,
Wipes my tears.
He promises a place where i can forget,
I dont have to feel,
A place of nothingness.
Infinite darkness where i can sleep undisturbed.
Eternal silence where i can escape my thoughts.
So tempting...
Do i believe him?
My life to date has been cruel.
Happiness short lived.
All energy spent on efforts for others....
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Nov 2012 3:59pm
7th Nov 2012 3:59pm
untitled
I can't breathe:
My heart is trapped in a vice that very slowly and painfully tightens around it
I am lost:
I don't know what to do, which direction to turn. Every path feels impossible
I am blind:
No matter where i look, everything is covered in a thick layer of soot from a burning love of nine years so ubrubtly extinguished
I'm in pain:
A pain unlike anything i have experienced in my wretched life
I'm a fool:
For you, for love, for what was and what could have been
i am broken:
In all senses of the word. My spirit has been...
My heart is trapped in a vice that very slowly and painfully tightens around it
I am lost:
I don't know what to do, which direction to turn. Every path feels impossible
I am blind:
No matter where i look, everything is covered in a thick layer of soot from a burning love of nine years so ubrubtly extinguished
I'm in pain:
A pain unlike anything i have experienced in my wretched life
I'm a fool:
For you, for love, for what was and what could have been
i am broken:
In all senses of the word. My spirit has been...
633 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Oct 2012 6:18pm
20th Oct 2012 6:18pm
my heart
You stole my heart so long ago.
You took me by surprise.
The happiest years of my life i recieved in return.
Swept off my feet.
Rendered speechless with emotion
Your laughter, the most wonderful thing i have ever heard, is my favourite song.
The way our bodies melt together.
A perfect fit.
Like a glove.
Your touch shoots electricity through my veins.
Even after so many years.
Your beauty, ferociously snatches the breath from my lungs, every time i see you.
Alas,
I don't know when i will see you next.
You are so far across the...
You took me by surprise.
The happiest years of my life i recieved in return.
Swept off my feet.
Rendered speechless with emotion
Your laughter, the most wonderful thing i have ever heard, is my favourite song.
The way our bodies melt together.
A perfect fit.
Like a glove.
Your touch shoots electricity through my veins.
Even after so many years.
Your beauty, ferociously snatches the breath from my lungs, every time i see you.
Alas,
I don't know when i will see you next.
You are so far across the...
709 reads
2 Comments
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