Submissions by estrella
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
20th Nov 2009 6:55pm
20th Nov 2009 6:55pm
Just Stay
I've become dependant on you
Every emotion you feel runs through me deeper
If you could only see what this does to me
Maybe you'd stop
But you won't see
You're blind to how I feel about you
How could anyone feel that for you?
I can
I do
And its tearing at every aspect of my being
Im evaporating right before your eyes
Give me something please
Something to hold on to
Stay right here
Hold me tight
I don't know what I'll do without you
The mere thought drowns me in terror
Though you don't make me happy
You always make me...
Every emotion you feel runs through me deeper
If you could only see what this does to me
Maybe you'd stop
But you won't see
You're blind to how I feel about you
How could anyone feel that for you?
I can
I do
And its tearing at every aspect of my being
Im evaporating right before your eyes
Give me something please
Something to hold on to
Stay right here
Hold me tight
I don't know what I'll do without you
The mere thought drowns me in terror
Though you don't make me happy
You always make me...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Nov 2009 00:30am
20th Nov 2009 00:30am
untitled
As black as the night can get
Everything looks perfect now
The only way I start to forget
The only place I find a way out
The stars look down upon me
The only light I need
Reminding me there is still beauty
In this mess we've created
Its easier to breathe when the lighs dim
Easier to see in the dark
All senses become more aware
As I just lay here and stare
If I could stay here forever
I'd never move again
The sky at night, it listens
I just wish you would
Everything looks perfect now
The only way I start to forget
The only place I find a way out
The stars look down upon me
The only light I need
Reminding me there is still beauty
In this mess we've created
Its easier to breathe when the lighs dim
Easier to see in the dark
All senses become more aware
As I just lay here and stare
If I could stay here forever
I'd never move again
The sky at night, it listens
I just wish you would
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DARK POEM
Published
18th Nov 2009 00:29am
18th Nov 2009 00:29am
Dark Out
So alone that it's no longer a feeling
It's a presence
Following you everywhere
Eyes glazed over with apathy
Tape on a plastic smile
You've got everyone fooled
Your only friend is what's inside
He's overstayed his welcome
Echos those thoughts over and over
You're disconnection goes unnoticed
You have no one that cares
It's just you and the darkness
You've never much liked them anyway
Solitude isn't so bad
The constant numb becomes soothing
All you want is everyone gone
To hear them all scream
As loud...
It's a presence
Following you everywhere
Eyes glazed over with apathy
Tape on a plastic smile
You've got everyone fooled
Your only friend is what's inside
He's overstayed his welcome
Echos those thoughts over and over
You're disconnection goes unnoticed
You have no one that cares
It's just you and the darkness
You've never much liked them anyway
Solitude isn't so bad
The constant numb becomes soothing
All you want is everyone gone
To hear them all scream
As loud...
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DARK POEM
Published
17th Nov 2009 11:03pm
17th Nov 2009 11:03pm
Destiny
Leave me alone
I'm all you have, you know
Get out of my head
You'd prefer eternal silence instead?
You don't even exist
The times you've obeyed, shall I list?
I wont do this anymore
Is that our blood on the floor?
No, you're gone, that's just mine
So much for leaving me behind...
As I said, you aren't real
And I suppose you think you're healed
No one will help you, nobody cares
What doesn't exist is all that's out there
Tired of pretending?
It's time you accept your ending
Pre-decided, yes by me
Your final breath will set you...
I'm all you have, you know
Get out of my head
You'd prefer eternal silence instead?
You don't even exist
The times you've obeyed, shall I list?
I wont do this anymore
Is that our blood on the floor?
No, you're gone, that's just mine
So much for leaving me behind...
As I said, you aren't real
And I suppose you think you're healed
No one will help you, nobody cares
What doesn't exist is all that's out there
Tired of pretending?
It's time you accept your ending
Pre-decided, yes by me
Your final breath will set you...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
17th Nov 2009 00:06am
17th Nov 2009 00:06am
Dysthymia
Dysthymia, they told me, is a choronic mood disorder that falls within the depression spectrum. It is when the person diagnosed (me, surprise) esperiences a low or depressive mood for the majourity of days for at least two years. Symptoms are hopelessness, pessimism, poor self image, decrease in appetite. The list goes on. Lets take a moment and tear this apart, though.
All moods can only co-exist amongst eachother. One cannot be without the other. Yes, maybe I do fit this vague criteria for dysthymia. Why say it like it's a bad thing?
If someone can feel so apathetic, angry towards,...
All moods can only co-exist amongst eachother. One cannot be without the other. Yes, maybe I do fit this vague criteria for dysthymia. Why say it like it's a bad thing?
If someone can feel so apathetic, angry towards,...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
16th Nov 2009 11:00pm
16th Nov 2009 11:00pm
Introvert
Perhaps the best way to completely disgust yourself with the society we live in, is to just sit there and watch. Be silent. Just listen.
I do this quite often. I'm not shy really, just introverted. Its arose an extreme hate within me for people in general. When you're quiet you hear what it is that everyone else has to talk about; a whole lot of nothing. Gossip about others unfourtunate lives, "don't tell anyone though". Are they blind? Everybody tells somebody. Every ugly word that escapes peoples mouths disgusts me. Who cares what that girls pants looked like that just walked...
I do this quite often. I'm not shy really, just introverted. Its arose an extreme hate within me for people in general. When you're quiet you hear what it is that everyone else has to talk about; a whole lot of nothing. Gossip about others unfourtunate lives, "don't tell anyone though". Are they blind? Everybody tells somebody. Every ugly word that escapes peoples mouths disgusts me. Who cares what that girls pants looked like that just walked...
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DARK POEM
Published
15th Nov 2009 9:25pm
15th Nov 2009 9:25pm
Forever
Nothing lasts anymore
There's always things to sever
My heart's bleeding on the floor
Spells out "Forever"
"Forever" seems much less appealing
Written in my blood
From within escapes all feeling
With apathy I flood
Flooded with lack of emotion
Love for you subsides
Calming numb replaced devotion
Decaying my insides
Insides splatter everywhere
From that fatal blow
Beside "Forever" I lay there
Maybe now you'll know
Know that "Forever" never isn't real
Nothing ever...
There's always things to sever
My heart's bleeding on the floor
Spells out "Forever"
"Forever" seems much less appealing
Written in my blood
From within escapes all feeling
With apathy I flood
Flooded with lack of emotion
Love for you subsides
Calming numb replaced devotion
Decaying my insides
Insides splatter everywhere
From that fatal blow
Beside "Forever" I lay there
Maybe now you'll know
Know that "Forever" never isn't real
Nothing ever...
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DARK POEM
Published
15th Nov 2009 9:17pm
15th Nov 2009 9:17pm
Feel It Hear It
Feel it scraping at the back of my mind
Hear its screams from deep inside
Can you feel it?
Can you hear it?
I’m begging you, just look at me
Tell me it’s not happening
Creeping up inside my walls
Ripping, tearing, untill they fall
I can feel it (it wont leave)
I can hear it (untill I bleed)
It looks at you through bloodshot eyes
What was always loved, now despised
Take the hate and stab it dead
Silence the voices in my head
Can you feel it?
Can you hear it?
I’m grabbing you, now hold me tight
No, nothing is alright
Apathy...
Hear its screams from deep inside
Can you feel it?
Can you hear it?
I’m begging you, just look at me
Tell me it’s not happening
Creeping up inside my walls
Ripping, tearing, untill they fall
I can feel it (it wont leave)
I can hear it (untill I bleed)
It looks at you through bloodshot eyes
What was always loved, now despised
Take the hate and stab it dead
Silence the voices in my head
Can you feel it?
Can you hear it?
I’m grabbing you, now hold me tight
No, nothing is alright
Apathy...
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DARK POEM
Published
14th Nov 2009 9:23pm
14th Nov 2009 9:23pm
inside, outside
I dont know what's inside
Unaware of all that's outside
All that's left is the other side
Is it my time?
Fearful of the inside
Detached from the outside
All that's clear is the other side
Stop me this time
Screaming on the inside
Forever silenced outside
Hiding from the other side
Will they find me this time?
Darkness from the inside
Tore apart my outside
Took me to the other side
There's no such thing as time.
Unaware of all that's outside
All that's left is the other side
Is it my time?
Fearful of the inside
Detached from the outside
All that's clear is the other side
Stop me this time
Screaming on the inside
Forever silenced outside
Hiding from the other side
Will they find me this time?
Darkness from the inside
Tore apart my outside
Took me to the other side
There's no such thing as time.
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Nov 2009 9:10pm
14th Nov 2009 9:10pm
Sinking
How can this be real
When I can barely feel
The love you claim to have for me
The hate instead you show to me
You know that I love you and how much I care
Yet constantly question if I want you there
Drowning in apathy we both seem to leak
The deeper we go the less we will speak
I can't hear your voice but give me your hand
Together I know that we can withstand
10 feet under you're getting colder
Hand in hand, your head on my shoulder
We've hit the bottom, our pulses slow
As life escapes us I need you to know
How much I...
When I can barely feel
The love you claim to have for me
The hate instead you show to me
You know that I love you and how much I care
Yet constantly question if I want you there
Drowning in apathy we both seem to leak
The deeper we go the less we will speak
I can't hear your voice but give me your hand
Together I know that we can withstand
10 feet under you're getting colder
Hand in hand, your head on my shoulder
We've hit the bottom, our pulses slow
As life escapes us I need you to know
How much I...
1159 reads
4 Comments
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