Submissions by blep

I was looking for you
I thought you were here
I kept screaming your name
I could not find you.

I believed the promises that others gave me
Forgive me there's too many "I's"
The point isn't me
The point is to find you.

I need to find you
You are a piece of me
A piece that solves the puzzle
But i cannot find you.

So, until the day i die
I will desperately search for you
Until then the darkness reigns
Until the light i'm searching for comes.

What do you see?
Is it light or dark?
How could this be?
It is warm - the death's mark.

What do you feel?
Is it life or death?
Will you take the pill?
It is hard - from your first breath.

What do you want?
Is it peace or war?
Will you take the front?
It is natural to want more.

Look up, look down.
All you see is balance.
But if you fall you'll drown.
Did you notice the life's glance?

I was with you when my life got destroyed.
You told me that i would not have to worry.
You screamed at me when i couldn't hold it together.
Because you knew that i needed that.
You held me when i had doubts for my life.

And then...

You looked at me and said: "Why are you facing this alone? Why don't you drag us into it? Aren't we friends?"
And then - when i observed the look in your eyes - i was shocked, because at that moment i understood that we would be partners forever.
But now when i can't follow you because of my responsibilities i ask...

No matter what, i'll help
The problems of your past belong to it
No matter what, i'll give
Tell me you need me and i'll give you my everything
No matter what, i'll take
All the burdens i can bear
No matter what, i'll scream
I'll scream for your passion
No matter what, i'll stop you
From hurting yourself

Because that's what friends do

That's what friends are for
Drugs, alcohol, money, sex?
No. A friend is a drug that keeps you high for life,
a friend is that bottle of booze that makes you sing so...

Here i go again into nothingness
I cease to exist
Here i go again into the black void
I try to breathe
Here i go again in this familiar place in my mind
That vast space that is depression itself
I cannot escape
Here i go again rushing through memories
                 (I wish i had some to share with you)
I want to scream
Here i go again on a fools errand
I try to "Be Happy"
              (As some might say)
Here i go again doing the same thing over and over without changing anything
    (That is the term of insanity) ...