Submissions by abused

what falling in love was really like
i some people would dream of outlandish things
i always dreamt for something stable. just being content
building something with someone i trust
with a common goal
instead of only knowing how to struggle or being the only one that cared
the after affects of that have me emotionally stunted
i think i might of experienced real love once or twice
but it was always always destroyed by violence
driving a wedge between heart and my mind
seeing reality for what it was
- nothing-is what i am

as i...

i love them both
i kinda feel bad and a little ashamed
how the hell was i supposed to know they knew each other
kinda sucks
i could see your futures
but couldnt see this
and if i saw them id hug them til their eyes popped out of their sockets
like the old cartoons

and i had nothing to do with rigor mortis blue. that was a
shitty thing for you to say
she didnt deserve that
especially being so young