Submissions by abbigaillynn

I scream for help and beg to be let go,
it has a tight grip on the life and soul I once called mine.
I no longer have feelings or thoughts of my own,
I hate this awful place,
its dark, its cold,
and it feels like it will never let you go.
unfortunately I already know this  all too well,
I thought I had escaped this hell so many times but have only been deceived and before I know it I'm dancing with that demon I thought I had once killed.
I have come to realize that never will I be strong enough to kill this demon alone.
I'm trapped in hell for the very...

you'll feel a slight pinch then start to pull back,
you'll see swirls of red that disappear right in front of your eyes.
you release the tie and let it fly,
it'll pass through you quicker than a flash of light and may take away the very breathe you breathe
There's times where it'll knock you on the ground and put stars in your eyes.
the sound of its hum is the loudest silence you'll ever hear.
you can shut your eyes and let it take over so all you can hear is its humming in your head.
your heart is beating faster than you ever could've possibly imagined and all...

you think I enjoy this?
you think I'm having a good time?
you think I like sticking this needle in my arm.
Boy are you wrong.
I hate this life and what iv become, this is the opposite of fun, this is my own personal hell that I cant seem to escape.
I glance in the mirror and there goes my day, I'm now sick to my stomach.
I live with the fear that ill never be able to escape the life I'm living, ill never be able to be happy with myself or who I am. its like its taken over me and everything I once was, it has a terrifying grip on the person iv become and it wont let...