Submissions by Yeaokae (Iris)

Her smile  
Her kindness  
Her heart    
Her voice    
Her eyes    
But in the inside    
My forced smile    
My sadness   
My aching heart    
My shaky voice    
My eyes full with tears    

Everyone was doing it  
I just needed to try  
I took the first hit    
Trying to stop    
I just kept doing it    
The burn in my throat    
The fairies dancing    
The laughing clowns    
The elf trying to kill me    
And, them    
They make me do it    
They didn’t let me stop    
They are the blame    
I’m lying on the floor of my room    
Blood shot eyes    
Bleeding nose    
   
It was the last time

Lost, I’m so lost, without you
I’m so lost, I don’t know where to go, I don’t know who I am, so I locked myself in my room to smoke the devils lettuce, with the voices getting louder in my head telling me I ain’t goin nowhere and that I’m just gonna end up dead, and now I’m having vodka lying drunk, confused and so lost, so Lost, I’m so lost and you’re the blame, and maybe you not for me even when you held my hand telling me how much I mean to you, you’re still the blame, now I’m higher then the Empire State and drunk with an empty bottle of vodka in my hand.
I’m so lost