Submissions by XxJvilleXPoetxX
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Swallowing gulps of dead water. Arms swinging, Legs kicking. Tears leaking into the black, A dying wish to live.
SELF POEM
Published
17th Apr 2014 10:59pm
17th Apr 2014 10:59pm
Finally Seen
Reached to that dead end.
I can see I'm transparent.
Another nook in the brick wall,
Overlooked and virtually useless.
If you had the chance,
Would you take my place?
Words I hear repeatedly,
But I can feel the lying pity.
Yeah,
That's all it is.
Do I really look that pitiful,
And helpless?
I feel as if,
You just choose to look past me.
I've came to terms with it.
Knowing I'm just another face,
Among billions.
Yet when I shed tears,
I have a shoulder for them to land.
On days I...
I can see I'm transparent.
Another nook in the brick wall,
Overlooked and virtually useless.
If you had the chance,
Would you take my place?
Words I hear repeatedly,
But I can feel the lying pity.
Yeah,
That's all it is.
Do I really look that pitiful,
And helpless?
I feel as if,
You just choose to look past me.
I've came to terms with it.
Knowing I'm just another face,
Among billions.
Yet when I shed tears,
I have a shoulder for them to land.
On days I...
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Feb 2014 3:39am
7th Feb 2014 3:39am
Part Of Me.
I write what I can't speak.
What I feel,
And the demons I choose to hide.
I concentrate on the past,
With the tears and the heartache.
Almost like I'm whining.
Though I know better.
It's where I fell apart,
When I lost myself.
I could look in the mirror and find my green eyes,
Though they carry no spark.
I could see how much weight I've lost,
Though I still torture myself to lose more.
Emotions scattered among thoughts.
Part of me longs for a companion,
Someone who can understand this confusion of pain.
The...
What I feel,
And the demons I choose to hide.
I concentrate on the past,
With the tears and the heartache.
Almost like I'm whining.
Though I know better.
It's where I fell apart,
When I lost myself.
I could look in the mirror and find my green eyes,
Though they carry no spark.
I could see how much weight I've lost,
Though I still torture myself to lose more.
Emotions scattered among thoughts.
Part of me longs for a companion,
Someone who can understand this confusion of pain.
The...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
6th Feb 2014 00:51am
6th Feb 2014 00:51am
I'm Getting There.
I linger with those memories,
Vibrating my soul and conscious.
I can feel those tears attempt to make there way,
But I've kept my eyes closed for far too long.
I hide my slivers of happiness and hope,
Making myself believe I don't deserve.
I view the past,
Every time my eyes open,
I let it hold me back.
Let it consume my thoughts,
Waking or sleeping.
I don't see a path with smiles and laughs.
Viewing the future,
My haunting memories black the light desperately flickering.
Yet my eyes aren't sewed and forever closed,
I can feel the...
Vibrating my soul and conscious.
I can feel those tears attempt to make there way,
But I've kept my eyes closed for far too long.
I hide my slivers of happiness and hope,
Making myself believe I don't deserve.
I view the past,
Every time my eyes open,
I let it hold me back.
Let it consume my thoughts,
Waking or sleeping.
I don't see a path with smiles and laughs.
Viewing the future,
My haunting memories black the light desperately flickering.
Yet my eyes aren't sewed and forever closed,
I can feel the...
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DARK POEM
Published
5th Feb 2014 8:08pm
5th Feb 2014 8:08pm
Demons.
I see those eyes,
Foggy with mistrust,
Distance strong in the blank green.
They travel across the room,
Tears rebelling against the restraint.
The time seems to soar by.
Take in the screaming echoes.
As the room spirals and twirls,
Her eyes remained locked.
Locked on the past.
She downs another shot,
The burning a slight satisfaction.
A reminder she's still here,
In the present,
The demons yet to capture.
But she has scars to tell stories.
Oh,
They were so close.
Is this going to be a cat and mouse...
Foggy with mistrust,
Distance strong in the blank green.
They travel across the room,
Tears rebelling against the restraint.
The time seems to soar by.
Take in the screaming echoes.
As the room spirals and twirls,
Her eyes remained locked.
Locked on the past.
She downs another shot,
The burning a slight satisfaction.
A reminder she's still here,
In the present,
The demons yet to capture.
But she has scars to tell stories.
Oh,
They were so close.
Is this going to be a cat and mouse...
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DARK POEM
Published
1st Feb 2014 3:56pm
1st Feb 2014 3:56pm
Just Another Day.
Feel the burn of Vodka pour;
Feel the welcoming sting from the cigarette.
Tears leaking,
I told myself it wouldn't be like this anymore.
Fists bleeding,
I hold back the pain.
Watch as the dead dried leaves blow away.
Listen to the constant bickering,
Ears no longer able to deaf it out.
Loosing grip on reality,
Loosing grip on my sanity.
Lay back on the grass,
And wish for a miracle.
Taking after a monster,
Growing into something I no longer recognize.
Something I can't face in the dull eyes,
Reflecting...
Feel the welcoming sting from the cigarette.
Tears leaking,
I told myself it wouldn't be like this anymore.
Fists bleeding,
I hold back the pain.
Watch as the dead dried leaves blow away.
Listen to the constant bickering,
Ears no longer able to deaf it out.
Loosing grip on reality,
Loosing grip on my sanity.
Lay back on the grass,
And wish for a miracle.
Taking after a monster,
Growing into something I no longer recognize.
Something I can't face in the dull eyes,
Reflecting...
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Feb 2014 3:45pm
1st Feb 2014 3:45pm
I Will Conquer.
I'm standing on this broken road.
Feet so wobbly,
Stomach carving sickening butterflies.
I watch as the feet walk by,
People I used to know.
I can't recognize,
We've chosen different paths.
I came to conquer,
Face the fears I stash and hold tightly.
But these tears,
Are my hidden fears.
They surface as I step,
As I find the anger and pain.
I didn't want to leave,
But it was done,
And I can't press rewind.
You hold me responsible,
That these demons are chasing.
I'm at this dead end,
Yet you taunt me with a locked...
Feet so wobbly,
Stomach carving sickening butterflies.
I watch as the feet walk by,
People I used to know.
I can't recognize,
We've chosen different paths.
I came to conquer,
Face the fears I stash and hold tightly.
But these tears,
Are my hidden fears.
They surface as I step,
As I find the anger and pain.
I didn't want to leave,
But it was done,
And I can't press rewind.
You hold me responsible,
That these demons are chasing.
I'm at this dead end,
Yet you taunt me with a locked...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2013 6:47am
22nd Nov 2013 6:47am
Need You Back.. Inspiration.
I can't find my inspiration.
I'd get up 3am,
Lines jotting down and a light smile.
But I stare at this screen,
My fingers unable,
And my head crying out.
I miss the long nights of writing,
Of my personal reminder,
That everything's okay.
My eyes hold a blank stare,
But my veins carry the excitement of a Poet's.
I crave the ink pen,
The rundown keyboard on a shitty laptop.
The feeling of being blindfolded,
And surrounded by thousands of voices,
Circling and fading.
Lost in a world,
Full of bland and dead.
I need the...
I'd get up 3am,
Lines jotting down and a light smile.
But I stare at this screen,
My fingers unable,
And my head crying out.
I miss the long nights of writing,
Of my personal reminder,
That everything's okay.
My eyes hold a blank stare,
But my veins carry the excitement of a Poet's.
I crave the ink pen,
The rundown keyboard on a shitty laptop.
The feeling of being blindfolded,
And surrounded by thousands of voices,
Circling and fading.
Lost in a world,
Full of bland and dead.
I need the...
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2013 6:44am
22nd Nov 2013 6:44am
Used To Be.
I'm chasing a tail,
Not even mine.
Going in circles.
Hour after day,
Day after hour.
I can see the outline of the exit.
It's out of reach,
Jump over the bodies full of bullshit.
Feel the wanting,
The greedy hands yanking and holding me down.
Back.
Away from the happiness too long,
It does exist?
As my eyes explore the red haze;
I don't remember what it feels like to smile.
To cry;
Unable to breathe with these restrictions,
Tight and binding.
But my hand is stretched,
I want what used to be.
What I used to be..
Not even mine.
Going in circles.
Hour after day,
Day after hour.
I can see the outline of the exit.
It's out of reach,
Jump over the bodies full of bullshit.
Feel the wanting,
The greedy hands yanking and holding me down.
Back.
Away from the happiness too long,
It does exist?
As my eyes explore the red haze;
I don't remember what it feels like to smile.
To cry;
Unable to breathe with these restrictions,
Tight and binding.
But my hand is stretched,
I want what used to be.
What I used to be..
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DARK POEM
Published
1st Nov 2013 1:51pm
1st Nov 2013 1:51pm
I lost. I found.
These hands grow tired,
Numb from the loss.
I can't feel the warmth,
Radiating and glowing,
These fingers paralyze in motion.
Cold from the privation,
Can you hear this heart beating?
Do you hide your justification;
Or is it out of spiting?
Dull orbs hide behind a hoodie,
As the crows of laughter elevate,
And the picking,
The prodding, begins to bloody.
Red colors the grass with humor,
Flooding the creatures below,
Every crevice,
Every nook, filled with silent cries.
Yet they couldn't compare.
The muted...
Numb from the loss.
I can't feel the warmth,
Radiating and glowing,
These fingers paralyze in motion.
Cold from the privation,
Can you hear this heart beating?
Do you hide your justification;
Or is it out of spiting?
Dull orbs hide behind a hoodie,
As the crows of laughter elevate,
And the picking,
The prodding, begins to bloody.
Red colors the grass with humor,
Flooding the creatures below,
Every crevice,
Every nook, filled with silent cries.
Yet they couldn't compare.
The muted...
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LOVE POEM
Published
24th Aug 2013 8:35pm
24th Aug 2013 8:35pm
This Ache.
Do you feel it?
So used to the ache,
That seems to pound louder and louder.
Numb isn't in my dictionary,
How do you pronounce?
I'm tired of these circles we make.
Create,
Erase,
Repeat.
Tears long dried up,
Anger long dispersed.
I want that happy ending,
With you and I.
Just together with no worries,
No doubts.
BUT.
I'm here.
You're there.
We both seem to drift,
Everytime we grow close.
Does that make sense?
Does that mean anything to you?
I wanted to wear the special ring,
That shines even...
So used to the ache,
That seems to pound louder and louder.
Numb isn't in my dictionary,
How do you pronounce?
I'm tired of these circles we make.
Create,
Erase,
Repeat.
Tears long dried up,
Anger long dispersed.
I want that happy ending,
With you and I.
Just together with no worries,
No doubts.
BUT.
I'm here.
You're there.
We both seem to drift,
Everytime we grow close.
Does that make sense?
Does that mean anything to you?
I wanted to wear the special ring,
That shines even...
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Aug 2013 4:31pm
20th Aug 2013 4:31pm
September19Th
Born yet gone. Already.
Flashbacks hitting left,
Hitting right.
Pain so deep,
I'm numb for it.
It's bottled inside,
Too far gone.
On the edge of oblivion,
No echoes as I scream.
In this world all alone.
I'm surrounded by a shell,
A shell of what was.
And can never be..
Flashbacks hitting left,
Hitting right.
Pain so deep,
I'm numb for it.
It's bottled inside,
Too far gone.
On the edge of oblivion,
No echoes as I scream.
In this world all alone.
I'm surrounded by a shell,
A shell of what was.
And can never be..
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DARK POEM
Published
10th Aug 2013 9:54pm
10th Aug 2013 9:54pm
This Cage.
I can feel it surfacing,
But these locks aren't giving.
Day by day,
Hour after hour.
Tears long dried up,
As this anger slowly simmers.
I need to step away,
I want to live that lie.
That beautiful facade,
Shadowing all these faces surrounding.
The ignorance I so desperately crave;
Blind to the rain,
Only to see the gorgeous rainbow left behind.
I watch as you turn your back,
Footsteps walking away.
Just another pair among a crowd.
But I had a dying hope,
Deep and crying out.
Fading,
Clouded,
A...
But these locks aren't giving.
Day by day,
Hour after hour.
Tears long dried up,
As this anger slowly simmers.
I need to step away,
I want to live that lie.
That beautiful facade,
Shadowing all these faces surrounding.
The ignorance I so desperately crave;
Blind to the rain,
Only to see the gorgeous rainbow left behind.
I watch as you turn your back,
Footsteps walking away.
Just another pair among a crowd.
But I had a dying hope,
Deep and crying out.
Fading,
Clouded,
A...
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