Submissions by VicBathurst (VictoriaAlice)

When your hands first touched me
I coud swear there was no better feeling in the world
When your lips first touched mine
I could swear they were all mine
When your hands held me
I could swear they had the tightest grasp

When seasons changed
Everything changed

This was no longer a romantic summer love
Filled with firsts,
Mistakes,
and most importantly
the undeniable and unwavering feeling of love

Within time
your grip faltered
your lips lost interest
and your hands found another body to hold

I laid my heart down on the table
You stripped me of my innocence so easily
I'm left bare
I'm left with late nights of
"what if's"
and
"if only's"

I am a canvas
You are the paint
You have left your permanent mark
Then tossed me away like I was nothing
Nothing at all to you

You leave me speechless
You make me feel as if
No combination of twenty six letters
Would ever suffice

Nothing could adequately express what I feel

I miss every conversation
every act of spontaneity
every touch

I miss the way your eyes would
gradually close
when you fell asleep

I miss the way you would hold me when I slept

I would take back every fight
Every ill thing I've ever said about you
Every time I was too consumed in my own life
Every time I ignored you
For another chance to be with you ...

Faking smiles
Its been a while
Since I've felt this deserted
Hiding your shame behind thick sunglasses
and long sweaters

Nothing,
Not even yourself
Can protect you from yourself
From the villain that hides away
In the most reserved and protected part of your head

When you've had enough
When it's all become too real
You turn to the malignant spirit

It stays in your mind during your darkest hours
It wont give up till it gets what it wants

And what it wants is
all
of
you