Submissions by VicBathurst (VictoriaAlice)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
4th Dec 2013 10:24pm
4th Dec 2013 10:24pm
Big Brother
Big brother,
You were supposed to be the one to guide me
To help me pave the path from child to adulthood
I waited
Every day, I waited
For you to help me through the hard times
To hold my hand, lie to me and say "it get's better"
I would have accepted any form of acknowledgement
But brother
You let them change you
You let them tell you how to act,
Who to be
Big Brother,
I want you to know
That with every bump I hit in the road
I looked up with my small innocent eyes at you
I needed your help...
You were supposed to be the one to guide me
To help me pave the path from child to adulthood
I waited
Every day, I waited
For you to help me through the hard times
To hold my hand, lie to me and say "it get's better"
I would have accepted any form of acknowledgement
But brother
You let them change you
You let them tell you how to act,
Who to be
Big Brother,
I want you to know
That with every bump I hit in the road
I looked up with my small innocent eyes at you
I needed your help...
810 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Nov 2013 2:06am
26th Nov 2013 2:06am
Daddy
Daddy,
I need you to know
That the memories
So painfully seared in my mind
Will not leave
They desperately cling to the small shred of sanity I have
Daddy,
I need you to know
That I can't let any man into my life
For fear that they might treat me the way you have
The fence I've built around my heart is the only commitment my heart has
And it reeks of instability
Daddy,
I need you to know
That I'd do anything for you
Anything but accept the fact that the feeling isn't mutual.
I need you to know
That the memories
So painfully seared in my mind
Will not leave
They desperately cling to the small shred of sanity I have
Daddy,
I need you to know
That I can't let any man into my life
For fear that they might treat me the way you have
The fence I've built around my heart is the only commitment my heart has
And it reeks of instability
Daddy,
I need you to know
That I'd do anything for you
Anything but accept the fact that the feeling isn't mutual.
675 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Nov 2013 2:24am
12th Nov 2013 2:24am
Absence of Love
You must know that I will never forget you
You are now an obscure memory
One that I choose to visit occasionally
It no longer pains me to remember the times we spent together
And you must know that I will never forget you
For you were my first love
You were the one who taught my heart how to beat in rhythm with yours
The one who took the air out of my lungs with every breathtaking moment
The one who caused my cheeks pain from smiles spread too wide across my face
When you left
My heart forgot how to beat
My lungs refused to let in air
And...
You are now an obscure memory
One that I choose to visit occasionally
It no longer pains me to remember the times we spent together
And you must know that I will never forget you
For you were my first love
You were the one who taught my heart how to beat in rhythm with yours
The one who took the air out of my lungs with every breathtaking moment
The one who caused my cheeks pain from smiles spread too wide across my face
When you left
My heart forgot how to beat
My lungs refused to let in air
And...
846 reads
7 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
10th Nov 2013 11:57pm
10th Nov 2013 11:57pm
Don't Blink
The morning frost falls upon the trees
Soft and elegantly
Soddening the grass
And leaving the air
With a newfound raw and fresh vibe
That enters your lungs in a cool wave
Everything covered in a thin blanket of snow
Looking around like a newborn seeing the world for the first time
Everything is so serene and lovely at first glance
My lips slowly form into a smile
As my eyes wander slowly around the forest
I think to myself;
Dont blink, I won't miss anymore of this lovely life I have been taking advantage of for far too long
Dont blink
Soft and elegantly
Soddening the grass
And leaving the air
With a newfound raw and fresh vibe
That enters your lungs in a cool wave
Everything covered in a thin blanket of snow
Looking around like a newborn seeing the world for the first time
Everything is so serene and lovely at first glance
My lips slowly form into a smile
As my eyes wander slowly around the forest
I think to myself;
Dont blink, I won't miss anymore of this lovely life I have been taking advantage of for far too long
Dont blink
769 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2013 00:02am
2nd Nov 2013 00:02am
All I want
All I want
Is for your suffering to end
I want my hands to carelessly wrap around yours
To feel your warmth
And love in one sole touch
All I want
Is for your suffering to end
I want to see your eyes to stare deeply into mine
Filling my being with sudden reassurance
That your eyes aren't only looking at me
Your eyes look at me like I am the only one worth looking at
All I want
Is for your suffering to end
I want to see the years go by with you by my side
You, with the ageless face
You, with the soft brown eyes ...
Is for your suffering to end
I want my hands to carelessly wrap around yours
To feel your warmth
And love in one sole touch
All I want
Is for your suffering to end
I want to see your eyes to stare deeply into mine
Filling my being with sudden reassurance
That your eyes aren't only looking at me
Your eyes look at me like I am the only one worth looking at
All I want
Is for your suffering to end
I want to see the years go by with you by my side
You, with the ageless face
You, with the soft brown eyes ...
726 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Oct 2013 2:01am
28th Oct 2013 2:01am
That is beautiful
My eyes
They wander
They seek
Excitement
Tragedy
And bliss
They know no limitations
So when that person steps out of line
Instead of shying away
And accepting it
These curious large blue eyes push forward
They question
They seek answers
They don't believe in limitations
They wonder why not all questions have answers
They search for the best of people
Because even my eyes know
That people can hide
Not only from themselves
But from everyone
It's a constant game of hide and seek
And it's only when you...
They wander
They seek
Excitement
Tragedy
And bliss
They know no limitations
So when that person steps out of line
Instead of shying away
And accepting it
These curious large blue eyes push forward
They question
They seek answers
They don't believe in limitations
They wonder why not all questions have answers
They search for the best of people
Because even my eyes know
That people can hide
Not only from themselves
But from everyone
It's a constant game of hide and seek
And it's only when you...
561 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Oct 2013 4:37pm
27th Oct 2013 4:37pm
For Good This Time
Every time I see you
It sets off a old spark in my body
A spark that I though had died
Or one I thought left when you did
It eats away at my insides
Causes me to remember everything
In an abrupt flashback
That my mind tries to reject
It's a mixture of pain
And pleasure
Pain because I know
You never have
And never will
Feel the same as I do
And it effortlessly tears apart the barriers I've made
To protect myself from my aching and battered heart
Pleasure because it reminds me that
At one point in...
It sets off a old spark in my body
A spark that I though had died
Or one I thought left when you did
It eats away at my insides
Causes me to remember everything
In an abrupt flashback
That my mind tries to reject
It's a mixture of pain
And pleasure
Pain because I know
You never have
And never will
Feel the same as I do
And it effortlessly tears apart the barriers I've made
To protect myself from my aching and battered heart
Pleasure because it reminds me that
At one point in...
655 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
17th Oct 2013 1:04pm
17th Oct 2013 1:04pm
Mentality
It's the same story on repeat
This broken record wont cease
Throwing around words like
'Low life'
and
'Drug Dependant'
When in reality
It's the only thing keeping the shattered parts of my sanity together
You can try to get through to me
But being drug free has more to do with mentality
Than being substance free
As long as I can tie my shoes and count to two
I check out on their charts
I will never be how I was
This broken record wont cease
Throwing around words like
'Low life'
and
'Drug Dependant'
When in reality
It's the only thing keeping the shattered parts of my sanity together
You can try to get through to me
But being drug free has more to do with mentality
Than being substance free
As long as I can tie my shoes and count to two
I check out on their charts
I will never be how I was
701 reads
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DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Oct 2013 00:26am
15th Oct 2013 00:26am
The Best Facade
I wake in a cold sweat
Moaning from the pain pounding in my head
Grasping the covers in hopes of feeling you there
But it's not you
It's a stranger with dark hair and mischievous eyes
Easily mistaken as a business man
But I know that men like this put on the best facade
Of being a family man
Working to get what they have
But those late night calls prove differently
He leans over me
smiles
and says "see ya soon hun"
I force a tight smile across my face
As he walks through the door
He pulls out his...
Moaning from the pain pounding in my head
Grasping the covers in hopes of feeling you there
But it's not you
It's a stranger with dark hair and mischievous eyes
Easily mistaken as a business man
But I know that men like this put on the best facade
Of being a family man
Working to get what they have
But those late night calls prove differently
He leans over me
smiles
and says "see ya soon hun"
I force a tight smile across my face
As he walks through the door
He pulls out his...
663 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
12th Oct 2013 1:57pm
12th Oct 2013 1:57pm
From me, To me
I'm stuck
I'm trapped in this deep gap in my mind
This pit-less gap that strips me bare
of all life and energy I hold
My friends;
gone
My family;
ashamed
The only person supporting me
Is the one getting money from me
As I look up to the only light I've allowed into my tunnel
I scream;
"why can't this all end!"
I've proved over and over to myself
that I don't deserve to be on this planet-
too selfish and unpleasant to hold any value
I've tried escaping from this brutal world that I've built myself
And I realize...
I'm trapped in this deep gap in my mind
This pit-less gap that strips me bare
of all life and energy I hold
My friends;
gone
My family;
ashamed
The only person supporting me
Is the one getting money from me
As I look up to the only light I've allowed into my tunnel
I scream;
"why can't this all end!"
I've proved over and over to myself
that I don't deserve to be on this planet-
too selfish and unpleasant to hold any value
I've tried escaping from this brutal world that I've built myself
And I realize...
768 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
9th Oct 2013 2:35am
9th Oct 2013 2:35am
Insanity Roaring
It was a perpetual battle
Between sanity and instability
My morals and conscience out the door
Just my core self facing the reality
No boundaries
Eventually the insanity took over
It fills every branch of my brain with short lived reassurance
It fuels my being,
my actions
my everything.
When it's gone
It's never truly gone
It stays in your mind
It sticks with you when you've hit rock bottom
It'll speak to you when you're trying to build yourself up
It speaks to you when you're at your strongest
It's with you...
Between sanity and instability
My morals and conscience out the door
Just my core self facing the reality
No boundaries
Eventually the insanity took over
It fills every branch of my brain with short lived reassurance
It fuels my being,
my actions
my everything.
When it's gone
It's never truly gone
It stays in your mind
It sticks with you when you've hit rock bottom
It'll speak to you when you're trying to build yourself up
It speaks to you when you're at your strongest
It's with you...
774 reads
0 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Oct 2013 10:43pm
3rd Oct 2013 10:43pm
This is paradise, This is nirvana
Running through the boundless fields
In nothing but a loose dress and some worn out shoes
Letting the sodden, lengthily grass graze over my mar legs
As I carelessly throw my arms to the soft wind
These are the moments in life that are indescribably perfect
There's nothing particularly amazing about it
Just a small piece of paradise in an otherwise chaotic world
I find myself running with no destination
Hoping to soak up in the perfect moment
With the sun brightening my face
The wind blowing in my hair
I run
I run faster than I...
In nothing but a loose dress and some worn out shoes
Letting the sodden, lengthily grass graze over my mar legs
As I carelessly throw my arms to the soft wind
These are the moments in life that are indescribably perfect
There's nothing particularly amazing about it
Just a small piece of paradise in an otherwise chaotic world
I find myself running with no destination
Hoping to soak up in the perfect moment
With the sun brightening my face
The wind blowing in my hair
I run
I run faster than I...
556 reads
6 Comments
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