Submissions by Vampyre497
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SONG LYRICS
Published
26th Jan 2023 1:44pm
26th Jan 2023 1:44pm
Un-Awoken
How do I find inner peace
My shakes return with ease
Chest tightens, lights flashing
Bones crack of windy leaves
My voice shutters, open mouth
My tears flutter, blank house
Limb lightens, brain crashing
Dry breath now menial dowse
I can barely hold my pen
My mind as clean as a pig-pen
Ears are clouded even open
Dreams escape un-awoken
My knees quake to give way
Will my mind return, stay
Thought frightens, marks dashing
Nightmares will not fly away
Chest tightens - Limb lightens - Though...
My shakes return with ease
Chest tightens, lights flashing
Bones crack of windy leaves
My voice shutters, open mouth
My tears flutter, blank house
Limb lightens, brain crashing
Dry breath now menial dowse
I can barely hold my pen
My mind as clean as a pig-pen
Ears are clouded even open
Dreams escape un-awoken
My knees quake to give way
Will my mind return, stay
Thought frightens, marks dashing
Nightmares will not fly away
Chest tightens - Limb lightens - Though...
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth #emptiness
#MentalHealth #emptiness
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SONG LYRICS
Published
24th Jan 2023 1:33pm
24th Jan 2023 1:33pm
Eaten
I miss myself when I was whole
Drown myself quicksand of coal
Collapse under pressure-heat
Transfer existence of fleshless meat
Figment of my imagination weak
Mental gymnastics, public feat
Hide myself behind cold lies
Eat my soul as I cannot find
Will I ever be myself
Die again to ring the bells
What shall I say in the future
Tear out all my dirty sutures
I want to be honest with someone
I want my mind to be undone
I want myself to be heard
No longer with plain butchered
Send it all - End...
Drown myself quicksand of coal
Collapse under pressure-heat
Transfer existence of fleshless meat
Figment of my imagination weak
Mental gymnastics, public feat
Hide myself behind cold lies
Eat my soul as I cannot find
Will I ever be myself
Die again to ring the bells
What shall I say in the future
Tear out all my dirty sutures
I want to be honest with someone
I want my mind to be undone
I want myself to be heard
No longer with plain butchered
Send it all - End...
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth
#despair
#emptiness
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SONG LYRICS
Published
21st Jan 2023 1:35pm
21st Jan 2023 1:35pm
Repeated
Mentally stuck in previous pain
Driving incongruous lies insane
Falling internally to divine eyes
Fading for little common lies
I'm afraid of losing you
I hide in my emotional pew
I cannot hide my discontent
I'll pretend to be hell-bent
I am tired of the tension
I am scared to barely mention
I'll avoid all eye contact
I pretend conflict won't be intact
Am I home
Am I safe
Will I hide
In your knife
Am I dead
Am I real
Will I end
Hopeless life
Driving incongruous lies insane
Falling internally to divine eyes
Fading for little common lies
I'm afraid of losing you
I hide in my emotional pew
I cannot hide my discontent
I'll pretend to be hell-bent
I am tired of the tension
I am scared to barely mention
I'll avoid all eye contact
I pretend conflict won't be intact
Am I home
Am I safe
Will I hide
In your knife
Am I dead
Am I real
Will I end
Hopeless life
#sadness
#depression
#dark
#despair
#emptiness
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SONG LYRICS
Published
19th Jan 2023 1:46pm
19th Jan 2023 1:46pm
Trouble Causing
Repeating lessons of history
Mental illness accessory
Hiding plain allegory
Political demagoguery
Fostering a lie of false equivalency
Reliving obvious existent potency
Pretend to fall asleep until you do
Eat your tongue in blood-red hue
My mind is imaginary
My soul, a wishful fairy
My lies, cautionary
The truth, visionary
Death to fading light
Fate for seeking sight
False internal might
Passing eternal night
Mental illness accessory
Hiding plain allegory
Political demagoguery
Fostering a lie of false equivalency
Reliving obvious existent potency
Pretend to fall asleep until you do
Eat your tongue in blood-red hue
My mind is imaginary
My soul, a wishful fairy
My lies, cautionary
The truth, visionary
Death to fading light
Fate for seeking sight
False internal might
Passing eternal night
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfReflection #apathy
#SelfReflection #apathy
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SONG LYRICS
Published
17th Jan 2023 3:17pm
17th Jan 2023 3:17pm
Re-Sick
Walking alone among the bookshelves
Into my soul my mentality delves
I'm numb enough to fall asleep
I want to kill it all to peaceful keep
Time passes cyclically, never-ending pain
Hide behind old and evil beaten name
Fading creativity in blank mind
Who never said my self is fine
I feel sick in my muscles
Fading sea-sick apostles
My body is revolting
My feathers continually molting
My brain is sore from being awake
I'll put on my face, symbolically fake
Breathe through discomfort life
Smiles of dishonesty,...
Into my soul my mentality delves
I'm numb enough to fall asleep
I want to kill it all to peaceful keep
Time passes cyclically, never-ending pain
Hide behind old and evil beaten name
Fading creativity in blank mind
Who never said my self is fine
I feel sick in my muscles
Fading sea-sick apostles
My body is revolting
My feathers continually molting
My brain is sore from being awake
I'll put on my face, symbolically fake
Breathe through discomfort life
Smiles of dishonesty,...
#depression
#SelfReflection
#emotional
#SelfDiscovery
#hurt
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SONG LYRICS
Published
16th Jan 2023 1:26pm
16th Jan 2023 1:26pm
A Handful of Nothing
I'll tell myself to follow actualization
My mind is fuzz, static derealization
Snap to focus, write in waves
My identity whole battle staves
Wear myself just like a sleeve
My mental anguish shall never leave
I don't recognize my funhouse mirror
My fangs have sharpened, I live in fear
What can I do when nothing's wrong
I'm mentally far, I stare along
I worry about losing me
But does it matter, I've never been
Is my mind aware of myself
Or am I hiding mental stealth
I'll never see me unassisted
Am I real,...
My mind is fuzz, static derealization
Snap to focus, write in waves
My identity whole battle staves
Wear myself just like a sleeve
My mental anguish shall never leave
I don't recognize my funhouse mirror
My fangs have sharpened, I live in fear
What can I do when nothing's wrong
I'm mentally far, I stare along
I worry about losing me
But does it matter, I've never been
Is my mind aware of myself
Or am I hiding mental stealth
I'll never see me unassisted
Am I real,...
#SelfReflection
#emotional
#SelfDiscovery #hurt
#SelfDiscovery #hurt
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SONG LYRICS
Published
14th Jan 2023 1:08pm
14th Jan 2023 1:08pm
Forget to Forge Yourself
I'm tired - I feel my mind asleep
I'm tired - My focus I cannot keep
I'm tired - Gasping for air in a yawn
I'm tired - I've got to be awake for my dawn
I'm weak - I've everything to turn
I'm weak - My mind will ultimately burn
I'm weak - Fall away down, to above
I'm weak - I'll listen close to learn real love
Forget yourself - Fly away
Discover identity another way
Leave all behind - Be brand new
Discover a final, brighter view
I'm cold - I'm eating my soul
I'm cold - I'm swallowing whole
I'm cold - My...
I'm tired - My focus I cannot keep
I'm tired - Gasping for air in a yawn
I'm tired - I've got to be awake for my dawn
I'm weak - I've everything to turn
I'm weak - My mind will ultimately burn
I'm weak - Fall away down, to above
I'm weak - I'll listen close to learn real love
Forget yourself - Fly away
Discover identity another way
Leave all behind - Be brand new
Discover a final, brighter view
I'm cold - I'm eating my soul
I'm cold - I'm swallowing whole
I'm cold - My...
#myself
#learning
#SelfReflection
#meditation
#hurt
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SONG LYRICS
Published
13th Jan 2023 1:24pm
13th Jan 2023 1:24pm
Stellar Blanket
I like to pretend I'm sane
A pastime of ever flying shame
I hide behind like eyes of steal
Mental devour of fictional meal
I pretend to lie of childlike wonder
Giver perpetual ignorance ponder
I'm too old for this simile
I'm too young to be scared of me
Listen to the old wind
Echoes of innocence end
Journey along to faraway places
Fill the holes with empty spaces
Have I lost my way yet again
Leaking out lies in the hearts of men
Passing simple windows, seeking retribution
Reflections are lensed, decided...
A pastime of ever flying shame
I hide behind like eyes of steal
Mental devour of fictional meal
I pretend to lie of childlike wonder
Giver perpetual ignorance ponder
I'm too old for this simile
I'm too young to be scared of me
Listen to the old wind
Echoes of innocence end
Journey along to faraway places
Fill the holes with empty spaces
Have I lost my way yet again
Leaking out lies in the hearts of men
Passing simple windows, seeking retribution
Reflections are lensed, decided...
#confessional
#SelfReflection
#emotional
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
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SONG LYRICS
Published
12th Jan 2023 1:21pm
12th Jan 2023 1:21pm
(Kindred)
My passive anxiety spikes surrounding my heart
I want to be aware
I feel my mind fading into the dark
I don't want to care
I write myself as if I could possibly matter
I don't want to leave
I think my brain an imposing tracker
My personality I bereave
Am I too analytical for my own good
Am I your comical for my old food
Am I running away from myself
Am I ignoring emotional stealth
At one point, I thought myself mature
I guess I lied (to myself)
Let it all bleed, freedom from the future
Hands emotion tied...
I want to be aware
I feel my mind fading into the dark
I don't want to care
I write myself as if I could possibly matter
I don't want to leave
I think my brain an imposing tracker
My personality I bereave
Am I too analytical for my own good
Am I your comical for my old food
Am I running away from myself
Am I ignoring emotional stealth
At one point, I thought myself mature
I guess I lied (to myself)
Let it all bleed, freedom from the future
Hands emotion tied...
#identity
#myself
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
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FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
12th Jan 2023 1:20pm
12th Jan 2023 1:20pm
Days Go By
Day 27.2746.107.1]
As I walked into the giant, parabolic shaped hangar, the fading stench of the old blood and uncleaned floors wreaked havoc upon my nostrils. They burned as though someone was taking a match to the inside of my nose. As I walked further into the room it smelled of old sweat and stale and rotting food. The floors were stained with the remains of those that had failed before and the walls were soaked with the screams of pain and suffering. And yet they were sturdy. Firm. Un-resilient in their fight to be nothing more than a structure.
My personification...
As I walked into the giant, parabolic shaped hangar, the fading stench of the old blood and uncleaned floors wreaked havoc upon my nostrils. They burned as though someone was taking a match to the inside of my nose. As I walked further into the room it smelled of old sweat and stale and rotting food. The floors were stained with the remains of those that had failed before and the walls were soaked with the screams of pain and suffering. And yet they were sturdy. Firm. Un-resilient in their fight to be nothing more than a structure.
My personification...
#depression
#identity
#technology #myself
#technology #myself
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SONG LYRICS
Published
10th Jan 2023 2:01pm
10th Jan 2023 2:01pm
Competition for the First-Born
Why should I trust memory
Your voice is made of emery
You claim all is made for you
Think all our stories need your heroism cue
You are not the victim here
I no longer want to live in fear
Why should you deserve an apology
This was my complication sociology
We have our brand donations
Leaking from old generations
You yell when you want to talk
You run when you want to walk
You feast when you want to eat
You defend when you want to be
Simply writing this has me pause
Seems you hide behind comedy laws
...
Your voice is made of emery
You claim all is made for you
Think all our stories need your heroism cue
You are not the victim here
I no longer want to live in fear
Why should you deserve an apology
This was my complication sociology
We have our brand donations
Leaking from old generations
You yell when you want to talk
You run when you want to walk
You feast when you want to eat
You defend when you want to be
Simply writing this has me pause
Seems you hide behind comedy laws
...
#family
#confessional
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
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DARK POEM
Published
10th Jan 2023 2:01pm
10th Jan 2023 2:01pm
A Weeknight Excursion
I shut down my computer and turn off the TV only because I am the last one awake in my house. The light is still on over the center of the kitchen but the rest of the house is engulfed in darkness. The lights flicker once only to signify the transference of energy from my mind into reality. My imagination begins to gear up for true use as my senses begin to dull and forget how to operate. I know what is coming next because it happens every night and every day. It's all a part of my daily life but it still keeps me from sleeping. My heart begins to race because it knows no other method or...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#death
#evil
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