Submissions by SickSanityJenn (Esoteric)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
8th Dec 2013 11:05am
8th Dec 2013 11:05am
Just Me
I've never been perfect
I've never been alright
The demons inside
Keep me up at night
My eyes are dark
My face a mask
Keeping myself restrained
Is my biggest task
I used to turn to you
But I've started to change
Love barged in
Everything feels strange
I've created this distance
Built a new wall
But it isn't you
It's not your fault
I destroy what i love
It must be true
Everything I've done
Everything I've been through
My emotions are crippled
My heart is behind bars
I sit and stew
Over old wounds and...
I've never been alright
The demons inside
Keep me up at night
My eyes are dark
My face a mask
Keeping myself restrained
Is my biggest task
I used to turn to you
But I've started to change
Love barged in
Everything feels strange
I've created this distance
Built a new wall
But it isn't you
It's not your fault
I destroy what i love
It must be true
Everything I've done
Everything I've been through
My emotions are crippled
My heart is behind bars
I sit and stew
Over old wounds and...
790 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
8th Dec 2013 8:50am
8th Dec 2013 8:50am
Not Weak
A small child dressed in blue
One never given proper tools
Twists and turns in his bed
Monsters leaking out his head
He wants to scream, needs to shout
But his mouth only frowns and pouts
Tears peek out from clenched eyes
But his tiny resolve refuses to cry
He will not wake them in the night
No matter the issue, no matter the fright
He will not cower to their knees
Or else he'll meet with brutal deeds
Hands just harsh, cruel and biting
Voices so loud and dominating
His will is stronger than his age belies
He is not weak though he is...
One never given proper tools
Twists and turns in his bed
Monsters leaking out his head
He wants to scream, needs to shout
But his mouth only frowns and pouts
Tears peek out from clenched eyes
But his tiny resolve refuses to cry
He will not wake them in the night
No matter the issue, no matter the fright
He will not cower to their knees
Or else he'll meet with brutal deeds
Hands just harsh, cruel and biting
Voices so loud and dominating
His will is stronger than his age belies
He is not weak though he is...
762 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Dec 2013 1:33pm
7th Dec 2013 1:33pm
Prisoner of Love? NO not Love...
I brush my hand down your face
What you call love is a disgrace
You're everything I despise
I have nothing left inside
You had no heart, you had no soul
I gave you mine to make you whole
I gave you hope, I gave you trust
Gave you love and spared you lust
But now I'm empty and exposed
This hollow corpse is just for show
The only filled space is in my head
I'm not living but I'm not dead
I gave you the best of me
Tried to spare you the worst
My body is what's left of me
Trapped inside this curse
Now I dont't have a...
What you call love is a disgrace
You're everything I despise
I have nothing left inside
You had no heart, you had no soul
I gave you mine to make you whole
I gave you hope, I gave you trust
Gave you love and spared you lust
But now I'm empty and exposed
This hollow corpse is just for show
The only filled space is in my head
I'm not living but I'm not dead
I gave you the best of me
Tried to spare you the worst
My body is what's left of me
Trapped inside this curse
Now I dont't have a...
657 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
7th Dec 2013 5:58am
7th Dec 2013 5:58am
Bottled
Like glass I am shattered
My nerves are paper thin
Everything that doesn't matter
Is boiling beneath my skin
This anger that cripples
Tears my mind to shreds
My vision starts to ripple
The air in the room has fled
The monster of my thoughts
Turns it's eye to you
All this pain you have caused
Everything you put me through
My tongue is cut and bloody
Biting back on all the pain
You're nothing, a nobody
I say inside my brain
I crumple and I cower
Away from your black sun
You're smug as you glower
At...
My nerves are paper thin
Everything that doesn't matter
Is boiling beneath my skin
This anger that cripples
Tears my mind to shreds
My vision starts to ripple
The air in the room has fled
The monster of my thoughts
Turns it's eye to you
All this pain you have caused
Everything you put me through
My tongue is cut and bloody
Biting back on all the pain
You're nothing, a nobody
I say inside my brain
I crumple and I cower
Away from your black sun
You're smug as you glower
At...
1105 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
6th Dec 2013 10:09pm
6th Dec 2013 10:09pm
Hopeless
Can't hide from a ghost
Truth always finds you
Can't run from the memories
The past always bleeds through
Where are you headed?
You don't even know
Everything you've regretted
Is starting to show
You have bones in your closet
And bloodstains on your breath
Your mentality turned caustic
surrounded by so much death
Try to hide in the shadows
Because scars shine in the light
One foot in the gallows
Drowning in your plight
Smiles crumble into frowns
Everyday so dark and black
With agony worn as a crown
And the devil...
Truth always finds you
Can't run from the memories
The past always bleeds through
Where are you headed?
You don't even know
Everything you've regretted
Is starting to show
You have bones in your closet
And bloodstains on your breath
Your mentality turned caustic
surrounded by so much death
Try to hide in the shadows
Because scars shine in the light
One foot in the gallows
Drowning in your plight
Smiles crumble into frowns
Everyday so dark and black
With agony worn as a crown
And the devil...
795 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
6th Dec 2013 8:34pm
6th Dec 2013 8:34pm
Beauty Skin Deep
You're a real beauty
A fucking bright star
You're a real beauty
Bloody mess of scars
You're a real beauty
Nothing can touch you
Yea you're a real beauty
But your ugly is showing through
You walk around like you don't give a fuck
Scratching itches for just a couple bucks
You take control like you know where to go
But you're just another monster in this creep show
Now you'll take my hand and lead me astray
Tie me up and gag me so I can't plead or beg
Brutalize my skin, beat me black and blue
No safe word, nothing to relent...
A fucking bright star
You're a real beauty
Bloody mess of scars
You're a real beauty
Nothing can touch you
Yea you're a real beauty
But your ugly is showing through
You walk around like you don't give a fuck
Scratching itches for just a couple bucks
You take control like you know where to go
But you're just another monster in this creep show
Now you'll take my hand and lead me astray
Tie me up and gag me so I can't plead or beg
Brutalize my skin, beat me black and blue
No safe word, nothing to relent...
859 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
6th Dec 2013 1:15pm
6th Dec 2013 1:15pm
Imaginary
Eyes close and my link to the world disappears
Sleep is supposed to wash away all worries and fears
I disconnect myself from all the secrets I keep
I try to leave it all behind at night when I sleep
My dreams crack and bruise under pressure
I wear a smile and a frown twisted together
I compress all this pain I feel inside
It's just one of the things I try to hide
I'm running out of words to say
I'm talking but it's just child's play
I'm confused but I'll figure it out in the end
I fall and pick myself back up again
You tell me...
Sleep is supposed to wash away all worries and fears
I disconnect myself from all the secrets I keep
I try to leave it all behind at night when I sleep
My dreams crack and bruise under pressure
I wear a smile and a frown twisted together
I compress all this pain I feel inside
It's just one of the things I try to hide
I'm running out of words to say
I'm talking but it's just child's play
I'm confused but I'll figure it out in the end
I fall and pick myself back up again
You tell me...
690 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
6th Dec 2013 12:06pm
6th Dec 2013 12:06pm
Inner child
A broken child cries within
Slumped shoulders and scarred skin
Emotionless face of self control
A tortured heart with a battered soul
Restless sleep and troubled days
Going through life in a constant haze
Another soul without hope
That turns to alcohol and dope
Just a child of the darkness
Living among the heartless
Forgotten and alone
With nowhere to call home
A bloody razor in each hand
A life without a prayer or plan
One consumed by overwhelming pain
Who's eyes are dry but heart is stained
Just a child of...
Slumped shoulders and scarred skin
Emotionless face of self control
A tortured heart with a battered soul
Restless sleep and troubled days
Going through life in a constant haze
Another soul without hope
That turns to alcohol and dope
Just a child of the darkness
Living among the heartless
Forgotten and alone
With nowhere to call home
A bloody razor in each hand
A life without a prayer or plan
One consumed by overwhelming pain
Who's eyes are dry but heart is stained
Just a child of...
1154 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Dec 2013 10:02am
5th Dec 2013 10:02am
Don't
Don't look at me, I'm barely alive
Struggling not to lose my mind
Don't look at me, I'm confused
Beaten, broken and overused
Don't touch me, I'm barely here
Battling my delusional fear
Don't touch me, I'm fading away
Losing my touch with time and place
Don't say my name, I'm not listening
I'm too busy keeping my heart from breaking
Don't say my name, I'm out of touch
Worrying about everything too fucking much
Don't come closer, I can't hold you tight
These demons torture my mind at night
Don't come closer, I can't have you...
Struggling not to lose my mind
Don't look at me, I'm confused
Beaten, broken and overused
Don't touch me, I'm barely here
Battling my delusional fear
Don't touch me, I'm fading away
Losing my touch with time and place
Don't say my name, I'm not listening
I'm too busy keeping my heart from breaking
Don't say my name, I'm out of touch
Worrying about everything too fucking much
Don't come closer, I can't hold you tight
These demons torture my mind at night
Don't come closer, I can't have you...
747 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
5th Dec 2013 8:17am
5th Dec 2013 8:17am
Stain
In late hours of night I take out my blade
Across my skin I spell your name
But as I dig in the letters spell hate
I consider this as I think about our fate
I press in deep, cut to the meat
Dress my leg in hot ribbons of defeat
Crimson streamers colour my skin
I smile softly as the numbness sets in
I carve out anger, carve out the pain
Relief through harm my only gain
I clean the wound and don my mask
Pretending I'm fine my only task
I'm left with painful thoughts of you
I bury them deep, they sit and stew
They crippled my emotions,...
Across my skin I spell your name
But as I dig in the letters spell hate
I consider this as I think about our fate
I press in deep, cut to the meat
Dress my leg in hot ribbons of defeat
Crimson streamers colour my skin
I smile softly as the numbness sets in
I carve out anger, carve out the pain
Relief through harm my only gain
I clean the wound and don my mask
Pretending I'm fine my only task
I'm left with painful thoughts of you
I bury them deep, they sit and stew
They crippled my emotions,...
654 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2013 10:00pm
3rd Dec 2013 10:00pm
Consume Me
Horrible, guttural, heart wrenching noise
Starts in my soul and erupts without choice
Rips through my lungs and tears out my throat
Brings me to my knees, heart without hope
Terrible, miserable, God awful pain
Fracturing my sanity, leaving me drained
My voice is hollow, I fall to the floor
I lock myself inside, can't take anymore
Vile, repulsive, unspeakable sights
Tear at my thoughts and play out my eyes
Twist in my mind of the things I most dread
My nerves are shattered in this body of lead
Starts in my soul and erupts without choice
Rips through my lungs and tears out my throat
Brings me to my knees, heart without hope
Terrible, miserable, God awful pain
Fracturing my sanity, leaving me drained
My voice is hollow, I fall to the floor
I lock myself inside, can't take anymore
Vile, repulsive, unspeakable sights
Tear at my thoughts and play out my eyes
Twist in my mind of the things I most dread
My nerves are shattered in this body of lead
828 reads
6 Comments
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