Submissions by ShaienneMachale (Ladazia Jackson)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Dark poetry and Erotic Poetry is my forte. It's what I find comfort in. They seem to be my specialty.
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jul 2024 6:41pm
28th Jul 2024 6:41pm
Anticipation
I can look into the sky and notice rain unfallen
I can feel shifts in energy, a miserable calling
When you hurt, I can feel it from forever away
When you snap, it has power to ruin my day
I can sense when the feelings have begun to cease
When I can’t seem to meet your most basic of needs
My chest tightens painfully when things go awry
My only coping skill is to shelter and cry
I’ve been trying forever, I don’t possess the skills
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to heal
But I’m tired of running, it’s not healthy to cower ...
I can feel shifts in energy, a miserable calling
When you hurt, I can feel it from forever away
When you snap, it has power to ruin my day
I can sense when the feelings have begun to cease
When I can’t seem to meet your most basic of needs
My chest tightens painfully when things go awry
My only coping skill is to shelter and cry
I’ve been trying forever, I don’t possess the skills
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to heal
But I’m tired of running, it’s not healthy to cower ...
#anxiety
#earth
#LifeAsAWriter
#rain
#spiritual
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SELF POEM
Published
9th May 2023 3:29am
9th May 2023 3:29am
Pmud Niarb
I used to think that I’d get better
Someday, my mind would let me breathe
The feeling of unburdened bliss
Would let me roam this world with ease
But here I sit, three decades in
Still weighed down by the curse of self
Therapy? She’s done so little
I treat it like everything else
A temporary way to heal
A bandaid for a broken limb
And nothing helps, my mind’s a war
I hate each day I can’t give in
For I am mother, wife, provider
There’s just no time to fix my brain
I wake, I live, I fall asleep
And dream that there are...
Someday, my mind would let me breathe
The feeling of unburdened bliss
Would let me roam this world with ease
But here I sit, three decades in
Still weighed down by the curse of self
Therapy? She’s done so little
I treat it like everything else
A temporary way to heal
A bandaid for a broken limb
And nothing helps, my mind’s a war
I hate each day I can’t give in
For I am mother, wife, provider
There’s just no time to fix my brain
I wake, I live, I fall asleep
And dream that there are...
#depression
173 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Nov 2021 5:15am
12th Nov 2021 5:15am
It’s My Secret To Keep
Beloved
You brighten up my days
Life may seem bleak
But when we speak
It sets my soul ablaze
Beloved
Hard headed, like a bull
You’re nary right
Yet still, you try
You are my favorite fool
Beloved
Your spirit is divine
A simple wink
And my heart sings
Brighter than the sun, you shine
Beloved
I am thankful to call you “friend”
I adore you dear
Always stay near
It’s us until the end
Beloved
I love you thru and thru
I’ll be here forever
No matter the weather
Please know my...
You brighten up my days
Life may seem bleak
But when we speak
It sets my soul ablaze
Beloved
Hard headed, like a bull
You’re nary right
Yet still, you try
You are my favorite fool
Beloved
Your spirit is divine
A simple wink
And my heart sings
Brighter than the sun, you shine
Beloved
I am thankful to call you “friend”
I adore you dear
Always stay near
It’s us until the end
Beloved
I love you thru and thru
I’ll be here forever
No matter the weather
Please know my...
#love
#secrets
#LGBT
409 reads
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EROTIC POEM
Published
12th Nov 2021 5:10am
12th Nov 2021 5:10am
I’m Home
#lust
#lesbian
#erotic #LGBT
#erotic #LGBT
761 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
30th Apr 2019 7:37pm
30th Apr 2019 7:37pm
Growth
36. The most boring of numbers. A meaningless arrangement of digits to most and yet for me, this number meant strength. This number meant the distance between hinderence and happiness on levels one could only fathom in their wildest of dreams. For me, you see, 36 was the number of miles it would take for me start anew; to restore the person I knew I deserved to be again.
I grew up in an average suburb. Life was great. A quiet town, much too quiet on occasion, but peaceful nonetheless. I lived the life, in theory, most could only hope for. A two family home filled with more...
I grew up in an average suburb. Life was great. A quiet town, much too quiet on occasion, but peaceful nonetheless. I lived the life, in theory, most could only hope for. A two family home filled with more...
#anxiety
#depression
#abuse
#illness
#MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2018 4:01am
23rd Oct 2018 4:01am
Ego Autem Her
They burn like gas ignited flames
Dripping down her ebony skin
Releasing themselves, or she'll go insane
There's so much fury held within
Her blood content often .25
And yet, it never seems enough
The twisted truth to her secret life
Is that her liver's got it rough
She sees the warnings, never heeds
Can feel the effects, and yet and still
She presses the bottle to her teeth
There's an emptiness never fulfilled
And here, inside her made up world
Its warm, its here that she feels safe
Friends fight daily for that girl ...
Dripping down her ebony skin
Releasing themselves, or she'll go insane
There's so much fury held within
Her blood content often .25
And yet, it never seems enough
The twisted truth to her secret life
Is that her liver's got it rough
She sees the warnings, never heeds
Can feel the effects, and yet and still
She presses the bottle to her teeth
There's an emptiness never fulfilled
And here, inside her made up world
Its warm, its here that she feels safe
Friends fight daily for that girl ...
#despair
#emptiness
359 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
23rd Sep 2018 8:41pm
23rd Sep 2018 8:41pm
GREYHOUND DELIVERY
30 was too optimistic
Let's shoot for 23
Erase thy soul of dark temptation
Negate the memories
Disrupt the family, the way it runs
To bring eternal bliss
Excited for an immediate departure
There's nothing that you'll miss
The eyes that shine with bleeding rain
Will gloss over once more
The happiness they longed to find
They're finally heading for
Deep breath in, chin up, smile big
It wont be much longer now, sweet child
Don't run, its okay to be afraid
But it only hurts for a short while
Let's shoot for 23
Erase thy soul of dark temptation
Negate the memories
Disrupt the family, the way it runs
To bring eternal bliss
Excited for an immediate departure
There's nothing that you'll miss
The eyes that shine with bleeding rain
Will gloss over once more
The happiness they longed to find
They're finally heading for
Deep breath in, chin up, smile big
It wont be much longer now, sweet child
Don't run, its okay to be afraid
But it only hurts for a short while
#depression
#death
#suicide
396 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Oct 2017 5:43am
20th Oct 2017 5:43am
I love you
She brings serenity to my heart
When my whole world’s falling apart
I didn’t know love until she arrived
Now I see life through Hera’s eyes
I long for the days we lie in bed
Running my fingers through her beautiful head
Staring down into soft brown orbs
I’ve never known happiness like this before
In the beginning you seemed so unattainable
Now I thank the Lord for my beautiful angel
When my whole world’s falling apart
I didn’t know love until she arrived
Now I see life through Hera’s eyes
I long for the days we lie in bed
Running my fingers through her beautiful head
Staring down into soft brown orbs
I’ve never known happiness like this before
In the beginning you seemed so unattainable
Now I thank the Lord for my beautiful angel
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2017 2:36pm
7th Sep 2017 2:36pm
I Am (Therapy Homework)
I am reckless and un-loyal
I wonder if anyone sees
I hear the cries of those so dear
I see their love for me
I want to conquer my inner turmoil
But I am reckless and un-loyal
I pretend to listen, I force a smile
But I feel like there's a sea around me
I touch the souls of a thousand creatures
But only in my mind, I worry
I cry for the relationships I've soiled
I'm still reckless and un-loyal
I understand the way they hurt
I say one day I'll be better, I know
I dream up a life of ease and fulfillment
I...
I wonder if anyone sees
I hear the cries of those so dear
I see their love for me
I want to conquer my inner turmoil
But I am reckless and un-loyal
I pretend to listen, I force a smile
But I feel like there's a sea around me
I touch the souls of a thousand creatures
But only in my mind, I worry
I cry for the relationships I've soiled
I'm still reckless and un-loyal
I understand the way they hurt
I say one day I'll be better, I know
I dream up a life of ease and fulfillment
I...
588 reads
5 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Jul 2017 11:33pm
4th Jul 2017 11:33pm
Baby Daddy
He is mine
At least during the time in which
His name makes the switch to Daddy
And I'm catty, I don't care
Baby girl doesn't share
My daddy is my king
My happiness, my heart
Some days he's the reason I don't fall apart
He's the cutest when he's excited and doesn't worry or fret
Its like sometimes he lets go of the stress
And he, well
He becomes my baby boy
And in this magical land, this fairytale place
We have one another, we lie face to face
And I get the pleasure to kiss him goodnight
To rock him to sleep, to hold...
At least during the time in which
His name makes the switch to Daddy
And I'm catty, I don't care
Baby girl doesn't share
My daddy is my king
My happiness, my heart
Some days he's the reason I don't fall apart
He's the cutest when he's excited and doesn't worry or fret
Its like sometimes he lets go of the stress
And he, well
He becomes my baby boy
And in this magical land, this fairytale place
We have one another, we lie face to face
And I get the pleasure to kiss him goodnight
To rock him to sleep, to hold...
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ANGER POEM
Published
26th Jun 2017 2:14am
26th Jun 2017 2:14am
Why?
I've never felt such strong remorse
Did you get a fucking award
For wasting my time
Destroying my life
I cant imagine any other reason why
Why you'd play with my heart?
Was tearing me apart you sole purpose
To start and enter my life, my world
Was it all a game meant to kill the fat girl
The homewrecking whore, the bitch
The slut
I gave you my all and it wasnt enough
You lied to my face, made me feel like a Queen
But the words thrusted upon me
You didnt mean
Why didnt I see?
Lord, how could I be
So blind and...
Did you get a fucking award
For wasting my time
Destroying my life
I cant imagine any other reason why
Why you'd play with my heart?
Was tearing me apart you sole purpose
To start and enter my life, my world
Was it all a game meant to kill the fat girl
The homewrecking whore, the bitch
The slut
I gave you my all and it wasnt enough
You lied to my face, made me feel like a Queen
But the words thrusted upon me
You didnt mean
Why didnt I see?
Lord, how could I be
So blind and...
550 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2017 7:21pm
23rd Jun 2017 7:21pm
Her Farewell
She wasn't made to be an adult
Not for real
Everyday tasks like cleaning made her feel
Empty
Angry with the world
How much of one girl can you ask?
Each night she lie in bed sobbing
Head throbbing
Heart pounding in her ears
Chest tightening in fear
That her best would never be
Quite enough
Life is tough when you're battling yourself
Add depression, anxiety, and everything else
You'll get a soul ready to depart
With such an airy heart
And a tilt to the bottle
One pill, ten pills, twenty pills
She's...
Not for real
Everyday tasks like cleaning made her feel
Empty
Angry with the world
How much of one girl can you ask?
Each night she lie in bed sobbing
Head throbbing
Heart pounding in her ears
Chest tightening in fear
That her best would never be
Quite enough
Life is tough when you're battling yourself
Add depression, anxiety, and everything else
You'll get a soul ready to depart
With such an airy heart
And a tilt to the bottle
One pill, ten pills, twenty pills
She's...
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