Submissions by MortCrusia
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Writing has been a way to share my soul...
Do you see me?
When you lay down at the end of another day
do the silence have a voice
whispering in your ear?
Can you hear me screaming, crying, begging?
Or do you hear nothing,
not sparing one thought to me.
Why can't you hear me?
Why can't you hear me...
When you get up in to the light of a new day,
what do you see?
Do you even see me?
I'm hiding all this pain behind a
pretense of normalcy.
Or do you just start rushing around.
Seems you're needed everywhere.
Everywhere but here with me.
I'm not invisible, why can't you see me?
...
do the silence have a voice
whispering in your ear?
Can you hear me screaming, crying, begging?
Or do you hear nothing,
not sparing one thought to me.
Why can't you hear me?
Why can't you hear me...
When you get up in to the light of a new day,
what do you see?
Do you even see me?
I'm hiding all this pain behind a
pretense of normalcy.
Or do you just start rushing around.
Seems you're needed everywhere.
Everywhere but here with me.
I'm not invisible, why can't you see me?
...
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Lost Love
All our photographs
of happy times
new love found
our souls meeting
becoming one
we were invincible
it was you and me
against the world
nothing could harm us
we needed nothing for
in each other we found
everything...
now I only see happy
faces of a dream that
I will never be able to touch again
shattered and unreal
A mockery of what
I thought our life
should have been
could have been...
I gave you everything
and it was not enough
I was not enough
you needed more than
what I could...
of happy times
new love found
our souls meeting
becoming one
we were invincible
it was you and me
against the world
nothing could harm us
we needed nothing for
in each other we found
everything...
now I only see happy
faces of a dream that
I will never be able to touch again
shattered and unreal
A mockery of what
I thought our life
should have been
could have been...
I gave you everything
and it was not enough
I was not enough
you needed more than
what I could...
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Thoughts of you
Nothing to notice the first time
No butterflies,
no sign
no emotion.
Mention of your name woke nothing
Somehow you became intriguing
Still struggling to find the words’ meaning
Since you left something I can’t understand behind
Those words never rolled off my back, let alone out of my mind
Wish I can see through you,
Like you, my feelings are a mystery too
Wish you could see
There is more, than a common interest, to me
When thoughts of you take over
I can hardly think sober
Feel like I’m losing again
Thoughts of...
No butterflies,
no sign
no emotion.
Mention of your name woke nothing
Somehow you became intriguing
Still struggling to find the words’ meaning
Since you left something I can’t understand behind
Those words never rolled off my back, let alone out of my mind
Wish I can see through you,
Like you, my feelings are a mystery too
Wish you could see
There is more, than a common interest, to me
When thoughts of you take over
I can hardly think sober
Feel like I’m losing again
Thoughts of...
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I'm fine
You only put one foot in front of the other,
not for progress but to find a better place to weep.
This is rock bottom.
It’s not predictable, the darkness appears when you least expect it.
In the middle of a smile or
halfway through enjoying the company of a good friend
and suddenly - there it is.
The rush of despair,
always brushing it off as something else.
Anything else.
When the truth is that you are in denial,
you repeat you mantra over and over
trying to convince yourself
“I am fine, I am not depressed”
If you can convince your...
not for progress but to find a better place to weep.
This is rock bottom.
It’s not predictable, the darkness appears when you least expect it.
In the middle of a smile or
halfway through enjoying the company of a good friend
and suddenly - there it is.
The rush of despair,
always brushing it off as something else.
Anything else.
When the truth is that you are in denial,
you repeat you mantra over and over
trying to convince yourself
“I am fine, I am not depressed”
If you can convince your...
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The flip side
I feel,
like I am violating your space when I reveal too much.
A deranged animal, unstable, unhinged,
And guess what? Im ok with that,
that’s why no-one understands me,
even though all the “ yous’ ” would like to believe that you do.
There must be 10 billion parallel dimensions,
everyone is living within his own alter planet,
sadistically linked, not by choice.
Enlightenment comes when you give a shit the least,
no wonder everyone lives in a protective bubble,
because everyone is vial, and filthy and fucked up inside,
deep...
like I am violating your space when I reveal too much.
A deranged animal, unstable, unhinged,
And guess what? Im ok with that,
that’s why no-one understands me,
even though all the “ yous’ ” would like to believe that you do.
There must be 10 billion parallel dimensions,
everyone is living within his own alter planet,
sadistically linked, not by choice.
Enlightenment comes when you give a shit the least,
no wonder everyone lives in a protective bubble,
because everyone is vial, and filthy and fucked up inside,
deep...
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The shape of your lips...
Will you be there to count the tears that fall from my eyes’
after it is all said and done?
Will you capture the splattered pieces of my soul
pierce me back together and fill the stolen pieces to make me whole?
Guide me, sometimes I lose my way.
Hold me, sometimes I feel so alone.
Break my fall, sometimes I stumble.
A blind visage,
it always feels different every-time, the first time, yet it is always the same.
Tiny spaces within, hidden from view, nourished and cultivated by you
sometimes I let you in, sometimes I don’t need to...
after it is all said and done?
Will you capture the splattered pieces of my soul
pierce me back together and fill the stolen pieces to make me whole?
Guide me, sometimes I lose my way.
Hold me, sometimes I feel so alone.
Break my fall, sometimes I stumble.
A blind visage,
it always feels different every-time, the first time, yet it is always the same.
Tiny spaces within, hidden from view, nourished and cultivated by you
sometimes I let you in, sometimes I don’t need to...
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I am outside...
Release and closure, simultaneously.
Unopened Prozac is salvaged by the dustbin.
I peel out my skin, smile,
as blood drenched in emotion
scribe red words on bleak paper.
Secret, quiet thoughts jump out alive,
I want to stick my tongue out and lick them,
perhaps for retention,
perhaps to avoid inner peace.
always finding comfort in sadness.
Rage, defeat, insecurity, carnal wants, primitive desires...
entranced I stare, as my soul possesses the pen gliding across the page.
Quiet, savage, lust-fulled, ecstasy is...
Unopened Prozac is salvaged by the dustbin.
I peel out my skin, smile,
as blood drenched in emotion
scribe red words on bleak paper.
Secret, quiet thoughts jump out alive,
I want to stick my tongue out and lick them,
perhaps for retention,
perhaps to avoid inner peace.
always finding comfort in sadness.
Rage, defeat, insecurity, carnal wants, primitive desires...
entranced I stare, as my soul possesses the pen gliding across the page.
Quiet, savage, lust-fulled, ecstasy is...
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Dragon Love
My love for you is not unlike this dragon.
No tangible proof of its existence,
and no reasonable explanations for its fame.
It grew from myth into so much more
but its still not quite reality.
Everyone knows what it looks like
Yet no one've ever seen one
It is something that defies logic
and common sense
Its bigger than me
or you...
Yet my mind, and heart, always comes back
to the everyday smaller things
like,
lying awake just to watch you sleep
leaving the bedroom door open
just to hear your voice
closing my eyes...
No tangible proof of its existence,
and no reasonable explanations for its fame.
It grew from myth into so much more
but its still not quite reality.
Everyone knows what it looks like
Yet no one've ever seen one
It is something that defies logic
and common sense
Its bigger than me
or you...
Yet my mind, and heart, always comes back
to the everyday smaller things
like,
lying awake just to watch you sleep
leaving the bedroom door open
just to hear your voice
closing my eyes...
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Living in a dream
I don't know if you really love me,
How am I supposed to know?
I don't live in the same world as others
because I am a dreamer
and I’ve dreamt myself into this dream
of an even stronger shelter
where we are so inseparably entwined
that I no longer know where you end
and I begin…
Where I wake mornings
with the taste of your lips on my tongue
the vibration of your hand
on the hollow of my still sleeping back
the rhythmic beating of your heart
under my cheek...
a...
How am I supposed to know?
I don't live in the same world as others
because I am a dreamer
and I’ve dreamt myself into this dream
of an even stronger shelter
where we are so inseparably entwined
that I no longer know where you end
and I begin…
Where I wake mornings
with the taste of your lips on my tongue
the vibration of your hand
on the hollow of my still sleeping back
the rhythmic beating of your heart
under my cheek...
a...
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Beautiful Soul
you give me
the sultry summer
of your mouth
feed me your words
tasting of spring
born from a sweet membrane
between body and soul
through which I
can hazily see
the pulsating pool
of your beautiful soul;
twirling
the sultry summer
of your mouth
feed me your words
tasting of spring
born from a sweet membrane
between body and soul
through which I
can hazily see
the pulsating pool
of your beautiful soul;
twirling
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The Meeting
It all came down to this
here and now,
the confrontation (or friendly meeting)
this moment in time...
You deceived and betrayed me
You murdered my soul
You took everything I was and
Destroyed it in a blink of your eye
I did not matter
I was nothing to you or her
Except in the way
But somehow I survived
Don't know how
Or why
I had my share of tries
Trying to escape this life.
But I woke up each time
Thinking that I succeeded and
this is hell I woke up in,
only to realise that this is reality…
...
here and now,
the confrontation (or friendly meeting)
this moment in time...
You deceived and betrayed me
You murdered my soul
You took everything I was and
Destroyed it in a blink of your eye
I did not matter
I was nothing to you or her
Except in the way
But somehow I survived
Don't know how
Or why
I had my share of tries
Trying to escape this life.
But I woke up each time
Thinking that I succeeded and
this is hell I woke up in,
only to realise that this is reality…
...
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Perfect Moment
we lie together,
face to face
as close as possible
arms and legs entwined
pressing together every
inch of skin we can manage
simultaneously
clinging to each other
two sinners who hold
redemption for the other
like we're drowning and
each is a life line to the other
you kiss me,
slowly,
deeply...
I am part of you and
you are part of me
forming the essence
of each other
we complete one another
I can feel myself drifting
falling asleep
from your breathing I...
face to face
as close as possible
arms and legs entwined
pressing together every
inch of skin we can manage
simultaneously
clinging to each other
two sinners who hold
redemption for the other
like we're drowning and
each is a life line to the other
you kiss me,
slowly,
deeply...
I am part of you and
you are part of me
forming the essence
of each other
we complete one another
I can feel myself drifting
falling asleep
from your breathing I...
827 reads
2 Comments
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