Submissions by Louisamay (JaneyBean)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Apr 2023 6:22pm
18th Apr 2023 6:22pm
I see you
I see you now
How you hid your cheating heart
Behind a flurry of complicated syndromes
Convinced me that you were ill, damaged, wretched,
But it was a ruse, a cover
So you could dilly dally with all the pretty things that came your way
So you could take that power trip without hurdles,
Have your fragile ego stroked
While I sat and waited and loved from afar
And cared about how damaged you were
And sympathized how your life had molded you
What an awful hand in life you had been dealt
That I was lucky to...
How you hid your cheating heart
Behind a flurry of complicated syndromes
Convinced me that you were ill, damaged, wretched,
But it was a ruse, a cover
So you could dilly dally with all the pretty things that came your way
So you could take that power trip without hurdles,
Have your fragile ego stroked
While I sat and waited and loved from afar
And cared about how damaged you were
And sympathized how your life had molded you
What an awful hand in life you had been dealt
That I was lucky to...
#betrayal
#MovingOn
#acceptance
#healing
#deception
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Apr 2023 7:15pm
15th Apr 2023 7:15pm
Reflection
The stars were all present
When I looked to the sky
Watching the world
From their place up high
And so I thought and I reflected on all that has been
I want only good things said about me
That I was kind and helpful
A true friend in need
That I didn’t act selfishly
Or try to deceive
To those who meant most to me
I was loyal and true
I didn’t gossip unduly
Or divert from my path
Which was to love and protect you
From all that was unfair
From the evil in the shadows
And the ugly...
When I looked to the sky
Watching the world
From their place up high
And so I thought and I reflected on all that has been
I want only good things said about me
That I was kind and helpful
A true friend in need
That I didn’t act selfishly
Or try to deceive
To those who meant most to me
I was loyal and true
I didn’t gossip unduly
Or divert from my path
Which was to love and protect you
From all that was unfair
From the evil in the shadows
And the ugly...
#myself
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Apr 2023 5:05pm
11th Apr 2023 5:05pm
Doing it for the likes
The art of listening
Is a skill I’m working on
The talent of painting my life
To show vivid colors instead of drab hues, ongoing
I’m improving, I’m growing
Always self critiquing
Working on lowering my heart rate, my glucose levels
Trying to stay alive
Hoping to be the very best version
Not accepting failure
But enduring it all the same
It’s complicated, I’m confused
Do I do it for the likes?
No that doesn’t matter
But I’m shallow as hell
I need approval
I want to read a book again
But I’m obsessed...
Is a skill I’m working on
The talent of painting my life
To show vivid colors instead of drab hues, ongoing
I’m improving, I’m growing
Always self critiquing
Working on lowering my heart rate, my glucose levels
Trying to stay alive
Hoping to be the very best version
Not accepting failure
But enduring it all the same
It’s complicated, I’m confused
Do I do it for the likes?
No that doesn’t matter
But I’m shallow as hell
I need approval
I want to read a book again
But I’m obsessed...
#anxiety
#identity
#peace
#SelfReflection
#obsession
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Apr 2023 3:14pm
9th Apr 2023 3:14pm
Remember me
Remember how we used to be,
In love, happy so carefree
But behind the scenes you were discontent
I never knew how deep that went
Until that day you blindsided me
You took my future, no more were we
And now I scrabble for the bits you give
That’s no life, no way to live
So leave me please,walk away
I beg you do this for me pray
I need your strength to begin to heal
Not your pity that’s no deal
But the final thing I plea,
Is one day you remember me
Fondly, kindly, lovingly
As the one who got away
In love, happy so carefree
But behind the scenes you were discontent
I never knew how deep that went
Until that day you blindsided me
You took my future, no more were we
And now I scrabble for the bits you give
That’s no life, no way to live
So leave me please,walk away
I beg you do this for me pray
I need your strength to begin to heal
Not your pity that’s no deal
But the final thing I plea,
Is one day you remember me
Fondly, kindly, lovingly
As the one who got away
#love
#breakup
#hurt
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Apr 2023 6:16pm
4th Apr 2023 6:16pm
Change
I quite like me
I’m rounded at the edges
I’m Imperfect and a little messy
I talk too loudly and too much
I love too hard, maybe I’m needy
You want me but not this version
And I love you so much I’m trying
But the me that’s left won’t really be me
It will look like me and talk like me
But the persona I become will be hollow and false
A pretty vessel that’s lost it’s way
Other people love me why can’t you
I quite like me why can’t you?
I’m rounded at the edges
I’m Imperfect and a little messy
I talk too loudly and too much
I love too hard, maybe I’m needy
You want me but not this version
And I love you so much I’m trying
But the me that’s left won’t really be me
It will look like me and talk like me
But the persona I become will be hollow and false
A pretty vessel that’s lost it’s way
Other people love me why can’t you
I quite like me why can’t you?
#love
#relationships
#conflict #confusion
#conflict #confusion
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2023 3:20pm
23rd Mar 2023 3:20pm
The Goodbye
I’m here to tell you goodbye
It’s been so hard for me to accept
I’ve clung to the hope of us
Our love has made this so difficult
Our calmness in this storm so confusing
But I want a life of emotion
I want to feel deeply, not skim the surface
I want to risk, to experience, to live
I want to love hard
I want to love securely
I’m here for the ride of my life
Not a gentle amble
I don’t want a safety net
So it’s best we go now and heal
Separately and begin to forget
Meet new people eventually and fall in love again ...
It’s been so hard for me to accept
I’ve clung to the hope of us
Our love has made this so difficult
Our calmness in this storm so confusing
But I want a life of emotion
I want to feel deeply, not skim the surface
I want to risk, to experience, to live
I want to love hard
I want to love securely
I’m here for the ride of my life
Not a gentle amble
I don’t want a safety net
So it’s best we go now and heal
Separately and begin to forget
Meet new people eventually and fall in love again ...
#relationships
#heartbroken
#breakup
#TimeHeals
#acceptance
356 reads
3 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
22nd Mar 2023 3:53pm
22nd Mar 2023 3:53pm
Happiness
I have heard it said ‘happiness is only real when it’s shared’
What a wonderful mantra for my life
Never again to worry about the objects I have accumulated
Not to fret about getting the borrowed book back
To become excited about the experiences we will have together
To not be concerned about my precious independence anymore
Or mentally calculate if I can afford a potential separation
For the memories I will make are indeed priceless
The laughter together and even the tears
The grief we will share together, a prop for our souls
Happiness...
What a wonderful mantra for my life
Never again to worry about the objects I have accumulated
Not to fret about getting the borrowed book back
To become excited about the experiences we will have together
To not be concerned about my precious independence anymore
Or mentally calculate if I can afford a potential separation
For the memories I will make are indeed priceless
The laughter together and even the tears
The grief we will share together, a prop for our souls
Happiness...
#happiness
#love
#strength
#uplifting
#philosophical
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Mar 2023 6:33pm
17th Mar 2023 6:33pm
Life
A soft wind to cool your brow
A delicate hum to calm your emotions
The green color plate of the new season
Promises to soothe your troubled mind
Why do the doves coo so melodically
When the silence of overwhelming is approaching
I will ride the oncoming storm
But will I emerge whole
Or will I be a fragmented version
Wiser, damaged, broken
A glitch of what I was
A moment a memory
Waiting to blossom once again
The seasons are inevitable
I welcome and fear
Until all is dust again
A delicate hum to calm your emotions
The green color plate of the new season
Promises to soothe your troubled mind
Why do the doves coo so melodically
When the silence of overwhelming is approaching
I will ride the oncoming storm
But will I emerge whole
Or will I be a fragmented version
Wiser, damaged, broken
A glitch of what I was
A moment a memory
Waiting to blossom once again
The seasons are inevitable
I welcome and fear
Until all is dust again
#depression
#MentalHealth
#LifeCycle #SelfReflection
#LifeCycle #SelfReflection
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Mar 2023 8:52pm
12th Mar 2023 8:52pm
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for the life you were given
My sorrow for the pain you endured
Yet your angel wings bravely flutter
Against the chains that anchor them firmly
Your spirit never fails to rally
Your body valiantly performs
Yet your mind was so damaged
That ordinary tasks are so hard
The challenges you encounter
Leave you exhausted each day
But you try for me
And I fight for you
We can do it baby
Let’s hold hands and conquer your fears
Build our family, build a new reality for you
I’m sorry
My sorrow for the pain you endured
Yet your angel wings bravely flutter
Against the chains that anchor them firmly
Your spirit never fails to rally
Your body valiantly performs
Yet your mind was so damaged
That ordinary tasks are so hard
The challenges you encounter
Leave you exhausted each day
But you try for me
And I fight for you
We can do it baby
Let’s hold hands and conquer your fears
Build our family, build a new reality for you
I’m sorry
#anxiety
#love
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
9th Mar 2023 4:30pm
9th Mar 2023 4:30pm
Musings
I’ve come to realize
With the passing of years
That many of my beliefs
Were nothing more than dust piles
Take religion, a pointless exercise
In being controlled or dictated to
By morally deficit white men
I say no to religion
Take life long friendships
They often wane and stagnate
When only one puts in effort
Take health, the expectation of invincibility
That the young feel is their secret
It disappears in random bursts
When it’s most missed and least expected
Take power and prestige
I never bought into...
With the passing of years
That many of my beliefs
Were nothing more than dust piles
Take religion, a pointless exercise
In being controlled or dictated to
By morally deficit white men
I say no to religion
Take life long friendships
They often wane and stagnate
When only one puts in effort
Take health, the expectation of invincibility
That the young feel is their secret
It disappears in random bursts
When it’s most missed and least expected
Take power and prestige
I never bought into...
#religion
#spiritual
#myself
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ANGER POEM
Published
6th Mar 2023 4:05pm
6th Mar 2023 4:05pm
My wishes for you
So you think it was normal to act that way?
To lead me on and watch me fall
Did you have to wait until the stakes were so high
And I was so deliriously happy
So now that I am collecting myself
I would like to give you something in return
I have some wishes for you my dear friend
I hope someday someone breaks you
Not just your heart but your mind and soul too
I hope someday you will be empty
And tell everyone about ‘the one who got away’
I hope future relationships live in my shadow
Wondering if their fate is the same as mine ...
To lead me on and watch me fall
Did you have to wait until the stakes were so high
And I was so deliriously happy
So now that I am collecting myself
I would like to give you something in return
I have some wishes for you my dear friend
I hope someday someone breaks you
Not just your heart but your mind and soul too
I hope someday you will be empty
And tell everyone about ‘the one who got away’
I hope future relationships live in my shadow
Wondering if their fate is the same as mine ...
#anger
#loneliness
#breakup #emotions
#breakup #emotions
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
5th Mar 2023 7:56pm
5th Mar 2023 7:56pm
Red Robin
When will I see you again ?
Will we ever have this connection again
or is it lost forever?
We spent a lifetime together
You nurtured me I was a part of you
Perhaps we will connect in memories
Maybe I will see you in the wind,
The stars or the ocean
I’m going to be looking for you everywhere
The Red Robin will signal to me
The white feather will flutter to the ground
But will I know?
When will I see you again ?
Will we ever have this connection again
or is it lost forever?
We spent a lifetime together
You nurtured me I was a part of you
Perhaps we will connect in memories
Maybe I will see you in the wind,
The stars or the ocean
I’m going to be looking for you everywhere
The Red Robin will signal to me
The white feather will flutter to the ground
But will I know?
When will I see you again ?
#grief
#mother
#family
#death
#heaven
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