Wanting your lust has been a must if I can say . I wasn't capable of this imagination you were , Being with someone else , even though you broke my heart . It was just inevitable . This cold relentless feeling brewing inside of my aching body fighting to come out just cant . I hide it away . Every time you attack & strike at my heart . It stays hidden because I'd rather be hurt than to see my love hurt & broken in any way . But its not a mutual feeling I can see . You caused me to start a new lifestyle ,I have no emotions now just a bunch of feelings...