Submissions by LadyAli (alli)

in blue throes of near despair,

she tries not to dare to hope-

for no one has,

no one wants-

to give what she seeks most.



a selfishness-

a stupidity-

nonetheless,

a need:



"write me a poem of love-

one meant just for me.



"speak of my sparkling beauty,

of desire burning for only me.

pen my depth of heart,

intelligence,

and the mystery that is me...



"write of how i change you-

of any...

The way you smell
like fresh clean soap
The way you look
through eyes of hope

The way you feel
dark warm intense
The way you talk
such fine nonsense

The way you care
altered stupid
The way you don't
fully lucid

How I love you
dignity ceding
How I hate you
shattered heart bleeding

How we too often talk-
covering what's real...
How do you sleep
with the pain I conceal?


originally published under the pen name m3andermynd

where do we go from here?
you've come back again
we talked for hours
in sex-full negotiation

you kindle such passion
i think i could melt with you
but your thoughts sometimes scare me
i fight to calm me and listen on through

i haven't touched you
you haven't been with me
i do want your love for me
wanting only you is my dishonesty

i love you; i loathe you-
you can be so mean
i want you; i need you
in scarlet intensity

and today i am numb
from some things you shared ...