Submissions by Koulouri
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just like writing.
Strawberry ice cream
woke up this morning
with your heart in my pocket
took you for granted
didn't notice I lost it
dragged you around
by the ties on your shoes
I thought you were with me
But I had left you behind
you ran away from me
called me crazy
but i just loved you
and i thought you loved me too
i found you again
hiding behind the bins
in the basement
i dragged you away
you called me insane
crazy
h
ow funny
bUt I'm NOT
crazy
I just love you dear
and I will ...
with your heart in my pocket
took you for granted
didn't notice I lost it
dragged you around
by the ties on your shoes
I thought you were with me
But I had left you behind
you ran away from me
called me crazy
but i just loved you
and i thought you loved me too
i found you again
hiding behind the bins
in the basement
i dragged you away
you called me insane
crazy
h
ow funny
bUt I'm NOT
crazy
I just love you dear
and I will ...
#love
#bittersweet
#emotions
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They kissed me
It burned like a thousand suns,
It turned my insides out-
It made my heart heal and break
Heal
And break all over again.
Their chest against mine,
They knew me.
They truly knew me.
This love felt like the collapse of a star,
Big and bright.
Then a quiet warmth,
Till the star bursts open once more.
I look up from the page-
Heart fluttering,
Head spinning,
And I remember that none of it was real.
It turned my insides out-
It made my heart heal and break
Heal
And break all over again.
Their chest against mine,
They knew me.
They truly knew me.
This love felt like the collapse of a star,
Big and bright.
Then a quiet warmth,
Till the star bursts open once more.
I look up from the page-
Heart fluttering,
Head spinning,
And I remember that none of it was real.
#love
#disappointment
#emotions
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The Sleep
His eyes are glass
His hair blows gently
Like grass in the wind
Out of focus
Out of this world
He is somewhere far
But he is here
He sits in his chair
Never moving
Never speaking
Then he wakes up
And everything around him
Pushes his off his chair
Off his world
He is no longer asleep
His eyes are clear
The time seems to have flown by
Where did I go?
How did I get here?
To this chair?
This chair in the middle of nowhere?
Where did the time go
I feel it coming...
His hair blows gently
Like grass in the wind
Out of focus
Out of this world
He is somewhere far
But he is here
He sits in his chair
Never moving
Never speaking
Then he wakes up
And everything around him
Pushes his off his chair
Off his world
He is no longer asleep
His eyes are clear
The time seems to have flown by
Where did I go?
How did I get here?
To this chair?
This chair in the middle of nowhere?
Where did the time go
I feel it coming...
#depression
#bipolar
#humankind #bittersweet
#humankind #bittersweet
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The edge of my seat
The weight of my breath
Heavy on my tongue
Almost enough to tip
Me
off
the
edge
of
my
seat
But I stop
And everything falls back
Four legs on the ground
Till I get tempted once more
To tip
Tip
Tip
Heavy on my tongue
Almost enough to tip
Me
off
the
edge
of
my
seat
But I stop
And everything falls back
Four legs on the ground
Till I get tempted once more
To tip
Tip
Tip
#temptation
#emotions
#fear
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My mind is playing tricks on me
I hear your voice,
A voice I’ve adored for so long yet,
I am filled with dread.
My mind is playing tricks on me, my dear.
I feel that I need you yet,
I feel like I hate you.
I do not know what is real anymore, my dear.
And I fear I may lose you to a me that isn’t
Me.
A voice I’ve adored for so long yet,
I am filled with dread.
My mind is playing tricks on me, my dear.
I feel that I need you yet,
I feel like I hate you.
I do not know what is real anymore, my dear.
And I fear I may lose you to a me that isn’t
Me.
#ImSorry
#bipolar
#shame
#confusion
#manipulation
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They told me I’d be ok
They said all I had to do was listen to them
And everything would be ok
But it’s not ok
I don’t feel
Ok
I took the pills
And I felt nothing
I took therapy
And I felt nothing
Nothing
All this nothing
It’s like I’m searching
Searching for something
But all I can ever find
Is nothing
And they tell me that all I have to do is listen
And if that doesn’t work then I need to listen harder
Cause god forbid if they do something wrong
No the problem must lie with me
I am the problem ...
And everything would be ok
But it’s not ok
I don’t feel
Ok
I took the pills
And I felt nothing
I took therapy
And I felt nothing
Nothing
All this nothing
It’s like I’m searching
Searching for something
But all I can ever find
Is nothing
And they tell me that all I have to do is listen
And if that doesn’t work then I need to listen harder
Cause god forbid if they do something wrong
No the problem must lie with me
I am the problem ...
#anger
#suicide
#despair
#emptiness
#manipulation
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Alone.
I shovel food down my throat
Cry’s invading my lungs
Tears hugging the skin
On my back
Burns from the radiant sun
In my mind are the shadows
Hollowing whispers telling me
Telling me
Telling me
You’re no good
Swiftly names are shouted around me
Glistening with the hope of recognition
I turn to follow their sound
Only to be forsaken with the ever long
Ideals that I am truly, alone.
Cry’s invading my lungs
Tears hugging the skin
On my back
Burns from the radiant sun
In my mind are the shadows
Hollowing whispers telling me
Telling me
Telling me
You’re no good
Swiftly names are shouted around me
Glistening with the hope of recognition
I turn to follow their sound
Only to be forsaken with the ever long
Ideals that I am truly, alone.
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#despair
#emptiness
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Hole in my neocortex
Reading
Reading
Reading
So I can feel something
The pages weld their thoughts into my brain
The words seeping into my blood
I can’t feel anything
I can feel everything
The crisp moldy closet of my heart aches with the pain left anew
Awakening my skull
Tearing open my veins and rupturing the water falling
Falling
Falling
Forever seeking refuge among the pages
That hold me tight in the deepest of nights
That tear me apart limb from limb
That build me again in a new world
Reading
Reading
So I can feel something
The pages weld their thoughts into my brain
The words seeping into my blood
I can’t feel anything
I can feel everything
The crisp moldy closet of my heart aches with the pain left anew
Awakening my skull
Tearing open my veins and rupturing the water falling
Falling
Falling
Forever seeking refuge among the pages
That hold me tight in the deepest of nights
That tear me apart limb from limb
That build me again in a new world
#happiness
#beauty
#emptiness #emotions
#emptiness #emotions
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Dear Diary
I’m always thinking, of everyone. Yet I think of no one. I think, how would this person feel about this? But then I also think, this is funny, and then I say it. And people get mad. And I don’t mean to offend anyone. But I always seem to make someone upset. And I hate it. I don’t want people to hate me, but sometimes I do. Sometimes I want people to hate me. People would probably be like “oh you should see someone cause you seem depressed and stufffff” but sometimes you just need someone to hate you. I think. Sometimes I need someone to be mad at me. Because sometimes being mad at yourself...
#nonfiction
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My Fictional Reality
It's really hard to read when you don't want to.
I'm sure plenty of people have written essays or looked up quick summaries from things they didn't want to read. I know I have.
School always liked to make us read about slavery and the holocaust.
Both are terrible, terrible subjects.
My head also comes with excessive empathy. Anything I read, feels like I am experiencing.
This makes some books really difficult.
In my head, I've died thousands of times.
I've been tortured in ways one can only imagine because it is one's imagination that creates these...
I'm sure plenty of people have written essays or looked up quick summaries from things they didn't want to read. I know I have.
School always liked to make us read about slavery and the holocaust.
Both are terrible, terrible subjects.
My head also comes with excessive empathy. Anything I read, feels like I am experiencing.
This makes some books really difficult.
In my head, I've died thousands of times.
I've been tortured in ways one can only imagine because it is one's imagination that creates these...
#anxiety
#hate
#grief
#frustration
#bittersweet
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The Girl on the Screen
I stare at the screen as it eats me whole. My head is spinning, my mind is running, what is this feeling? I can’t think. I can’t see. The screen is blurring in my face. I’m falling. Falling. Falling. She’s with someone else. I wish she was mine. She will be mine.
I’ve got her. She is mine. All mine. I don’t need the screen to see her anymore. She is in the other room. She won’t leave me now. She can’t. She’s all mine.
I’ve got her. She is mine. All mine. I don’t need the screen to see her anymore. She is in the other room. She won’t leave me now. She can’t. She’s all mine.
#jealousy
#dark
#UnrequitedLove #ForbiddenLove
#UnrequitedLove #ForbiddenLove
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Kitchen Fork

#anger
#jealousy
#dark
#apathy
#bittersweet
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