Submissions by Jezebel (Jamie-Leigh)

The opinions people have of me doesn't have 2 become my reality but do they know what their negative remarks does 2 the inner-being?

Overwhelmed with the feeling of insecurity, afraid im not go0d en0ugh for anything again because of the effect negative opinions has on my esteem...

For 17 years i tried 2 be the person people expected me 2 be, ignoring my dreams, my goals & most importantly my visions... But now i ask myself: Does anything i do or say make a difference? It probably doesnt but il pretend it does, just 4 piece of mind.

So 2 everyone that lo0ks down...

This life at present seems so dark and empty.
I'm desperate for changing.
I've got a hunger for passion given unto me from someone who genuinely loves me...
But thinking about it makes me wonder if thats asking for too much.

Days and nights go by where i consider death as a way out but then images of a bright and happy future plays like a slideshow in my head.

What is expected of me? Why do i even care? Those are two of the many questions i ask myself but the answers remain a mystery... Will the truth ever be known?

They say it's all in my head, that...

I said, 'god, i'm hurt'. And g0d said, 'i kn0w'. I said, 'g0d i cry al0t'. And god said, 'that is why i gave u tears'. I said, 'god, i get so depressed'. And god said, 'that is why i gave u sunshine'. I said, 'g0d, life is so hard'. And god said, 'thats why i gave u l0ved ones'. I said, 'god my loved one is dead'. And god said, 'i watched mine nailed 2 the cross'. I said, 'god your loved one lives'. And god said, 'so does urz'. I said, 'god where are they?' and god said, 'mine is on ur right, and yourz is in the light'. I said, 'god it hurt'. And god said, 'i kn0w'.