Submissions by IHate_BlackEye (Chuymonster)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I’ve lived through a few suicide attempts and I’m starting to think maybe I’m immortal, as a punishment for all I’ve done...and to all I’ve hurt.
SELF POEM
Published
20th Nov 2018 10:50pm
20th Nov 2018 10:50pm
Home lessons on Portland benches
Home is where the heart can rest and help the mind unwind from stress
My home lessons on bench’s taught me life’s least concern is chasing waterfalls and the love of falls inside a chest
In PDX winters moist with heavy gusts that soaked my cloths, shoes and most my toes, I grew blisters after walking 4 block every other hour because I awoke shivering and shaking like
Parkinson’s disease
Unfortunately over a dozen died asleep becoming so numb that by the time they awakened it’s to late, their fate is sealed paralyzing every muscle except the eyes to see...
My home lessons on bench’s taught me life’s least concern is chasing waterfalls and the love of falls inside a chest
In PDX winters moist with heavy gusts that soaked my cloths, shoes and most my toes, I grew blisters after walking 4 block every other hour because I awoke shivering and shaking like
Parkinson’s disease
Unfortunately over a dozen died asleep becoming so numb that by the time they awakened it’s to late, their fate is sealed paralyzing every muscle except the eyes to see...
#death
#LifeStruggles
#homelessness
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle
491 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
20th Nov 2018 6:33am
20th Nov 2018 6:33am
Dos y Dose, End Dances Alone
Sometimes honest and true people get rejected when tethering two souls together
Empty promises of love misspoken in the heat of moments petting pants of pleather
Please be weary when you say those fraises it may change the perfect weather
If your hopelessly romancing every broad from far away like me you’d wish to learn what’s better
Cups of liquid lust I’m liquored up, warm women up and lick them up with every kiss on both sets of smiling lips
I’m not allowed to live the loyal life is how it seems, no one...
Empty promises of love misspoken in the heat of moments petting pants of pleather
Please be weary when you say those fraises it may change the perfect weather
If your hopelessly romancing every broad from far away like me you’d wish to learn what’s better
Cups of liquid lust I’m liquored up, warm women up and lick them up with every kiss on both sets of smiling lips
I’m not allowed to live the loyal life is how it seems, no one...
#love
#lust
#heartbroken
#sex
#lover
611 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Nov 2018 2:29pm
11th Nov 2018 2:29pm
DubNeg “I’m not unavailable enough for her”
Thanks for the memories and all the birthmonth gifts
You’re someone worth remembering even if we were short lived
Countless nights under the sky in that classic bug you drive
Even though it’s over when I see a Volks you’ll always cross my mind
You’ve always got a spot inside my heart even if we don’t restart
This is from your guapo grosero, hermosa eres your my grosera
To me it’s a way of life, for you I only use it as a nickname
A hardcore kid with crowded thoughts and a punk who accidentally saved him
Here’s a...
You’re someone worth remembering even if we were short lived
Countless nights under the sky in that classic bug you drive
Even though it’s over when I see a Volks you’ll always cross my mind
You’ve always got a spot inside my heart even if we don’t restart
This is from your guapo grosero, hermosa eres your my grosera
To me it’s a way of life, for you I only use it as a nickname
A hardcore kid with crowded thoughts and a punk who accidentally saved him
Here’s a...
#love
#breakup
#LifeCycle
478 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
9th Sep 2018 3:59pm
9th Sep 2018 3:59pm
Sucksless without tyranny
Moved by my motives to help one another,
to make the life we’ve been given greater and less stressful.
I may or may not be with a loved one but I am happily married to all my past struggles.
I’ve lived through the tough times, learned to live without luxury, wealth, and a home of my own.
I hold tight to the friendships I have and the bonds that I’ve made with those good and most bad.
I network to find a way of life well lived and more deserving of someone like me, someone who holds tight the true meaning of being equal and...
to make the life we’ve been given greater and less stressful.
I may or may not be with a loved one but I am happily married to all my past struggles.
I’ve lived through the tough times, learned to live without luxury, wealth, and a home of my own.
I hold tight to the friendships I have and the bonds that I’ve made with those good and most bad.
I network to find a way of life well lived and more deserving of someone like me, someone who holds tight the true meaning of being equal and...
#relationships
#dreams
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle
#freedom
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Aug 2018 10:42pm
20th Aug 2018 10:42pm
Fame and fortune
I’m ready to sell
I’ll rock to the rhythm
Regardless of hell
Will I please be forgiven
I feared if I died and so I fell
Show me the way
The Sun and the Ray
I’ll rock to the rhythm
Regardless of hell
Will I please be forgiven
I feared if I died and so I fell
Show me the way
The Sun and the Ray
#forgiveness
#fate
#LifeChangingMoment #LifeCycle
#LifeChangingMoment #LifeCycle
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Aug 2018 10:24am
7th Aug 2018 10:24am
Dose, of the Dragon
Today marks the day of the end of my suffering
Today marks an end of my despair and drowning
Today is the day I begin my path down the dragon and accept what I’ve chosen with the fulfillment of magic
Tomorrow is far gone but with its passing I’ve fulfilled my wanting of suffering to further my wisdom and knowledge
Tomorrow might be miserable but I shall not fear its misery because today is today and it’s the only thing I can change in order to direct my own way
Follow me and enter this Dose of the dragon if you would please
Today marks an end of my despair and drowning
Today is the day I begin my path down the dragon and accept what I’ve chosen with the fulfillment of magic
Tomorrow is far gone but with its passing I’ve fulfilled my wanting of suffering to further my wisdom and knowledge
Tomorrow might be miserable but I shall not fear its misery because today is today and it’s the only thing I can change in order to direct my own way
Follow me and enter this Dose of the dragon if you would please
#LifeChangingMoment
#LifeCycle
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1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
30th Jul 2018 8:23pm
30th Jul 2018 8:23pm
iDose! The final toast
Hello again my friend your presence to me seems so seductive
Inhaling every scent till there’s nothing’s left I’m self destructive
The effect made life less painless I fell in love but grew dependent
I fill with hope as life loosens it’s grip and my mind begins descending
Regardless of the side effects it’s love I feel I’m certain to defend it
I’d rather live delusional, day dreaming I’ll feel out of touch to what is real
Zip and seal or tare and tie that dub or dime and if it doesn’t burn its going next in line
My brain might not recover but...
Inhaling every scent till there’s nothing’s left I’m self destructive
The effect made life less painless I fell in love but grew dependent
I fill with hope as life loosens it’s grip and my mind begins descending
Regardless of the side effects it’s love I feel I’m certain to defend it
I’d rather live delusional, day dreaming I’ll feel out of touch to what is real
Zip and seal or tare and tie that dub or dime and if it doesn’t burn its going next in line
My brain might not recover but...
#drugs
494 reads
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
22nd May 2018 9:36am
22nd May 2018 9:36am
The Rabid Luck Of The Hare Owen's foot
Oh my, how I never truly could understand why you would want to feel down on yourself
To me, it was all about feeling a little more of the pro's to things like getting ahead of your game
So why? Clouds should bring you up to level nine instead of descending into a money pit couch coffin wealth
Do me, like a Russian thats spun in a roulette of fun revolving around and mislead by voices so faint
Don't cry, over spilt clear powdered milk and raise hell instead of weeping for a fix underweighting as you grip tighter the belt ...
To me, it was all about feeling a little more of the pro's to things like getting ahead of your game
So why? Clouds should bring you up to level nine instead of descending into a money pit couch coffin wealth
Do me, like a Russian thats spun in a roulette of fun revolving around and mislead by voices so faint
Don't cry, over spilt clear powdered milk and raise hell instead of weeping for a fix underweighting as you grip tighter the belt ...
#drugs
#heroin
#addiction
573 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd May 2018 7:50am
22nd May 2018 7:50am
Passing Daze 6.28.16
Never felt this alone and destroyed. I've pulled myself together enough to start working again but I feel completely out of place. I wish this nightmare was over. All I feel is pain and suffering. My mind keeps rushing with thoughts of depression and reminiscent memories of relationships passed. Missing companionship in every way possible from mentally to emotionally. Fuck this life, and fuck my drug addiction....
Update: still drug addicted and care less about women. I guess you could say things are looking up..
Update: still drug addicted and care less about women. I guess you could say things are looking up..
#depression
420 reads
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
17th Mar 2018 8:51pm
17th Mar 2018 8:51pm
Another try to take my life
It was about 3:30-4:00 Friday March 16 when we walked through Harrison park and began to walk down the paved hiking trails. If you take the trail on left where it splits there’s two benches with a garbage can and that’s where Stone and his dog were sitting with 4 fourloco beers, I assume waiting for anyone to pass by and become a victim of his attack. He called us over and struck up a friendly conversation and with him he had a small orange dog named Chloe. The conversation mostly consisted of his past going in and out of prison, military service in Afghanistan, the Arian Brotherhood he was a...
#racism
535 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2018 10:31am
22nd Feb 2018 10:31am
Pristiq 6.27.16
The first few days of the pill really made me uncomfortable. My hands shook uncontrollably and my depression and anxiety became almost unbearable. I've got a little less than a week to figure out how I'm going to medicate or at least deal with the withdrawals.
For the most part I feel a little better. I'm having a huge lack of drive. And overall my depression has almost become nonexistent.
For the most part I feel a little better. I'm having a huge lack of drive. And overall my depression has almost become nonexistent.
#drugs
#mirror
#memories
#myself
#SelfReflection
477 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Feb 2018 5:39am
1st Feb 2018 5:39am
Pine Devine
Some of us come from the center
Some of us come from the western
We all just want to fit together
Like guitar strings tethered
To the leather
Not to be fake
Like pleather
We just want to fall together
Like leaves from a tree
We all won't last forever
But our reach is high
We are the pine tree Devine
Different in sharper way
Some of us come from the western
We all just want to fit together
Like guitar strings tethered
To the leather
Not to be fake
Like pleather
We just want to fall together
Like leaves from a tree
We all won't last forever
But our reach is high
We are the pine tree Devine
Different in sharper way
#happiness
#friendship
#identity
#home
#support
456 reads
1 Comment
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