Submissions by Holly1419
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
sometimes wordy, lengthy, joyful, honest...
SELF POEM
Published
15th May 2016 1:32am
15th May 2016 1:32am
Procrastinator's Land
Worry worry worry worry-- thought leads to thought lead to thought and I am exhausted.
Whirring brain, under strain
and I am ashamed
one credit course in three days about the history of oppression,
I don't know if I can make it on time
damn procrastination
have all the final exams above 80, time crunch, running out of time
writing to calm my nerves
writing explicit details of my current predicament to somehow take some power out
evacuate some of the terror and the viciousness of the crunch
Mind racing from anti-semitism, to racism, to various types of...
Whirring brain, under strain
and I am ashamed
one credit course in three days about the history of oppression,
I don't know if I can make it on time
damn procrastination
have all the final exams above 80, time crunch, running out of time
writing to calm my nerves
writing explicit details of my current predicament to somehow take some power out
evacuate some of the terror and the viciousness of the crunch
Mind racing from anti-semitism, to racism, to various types of...
541 reads
1 Comment
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th May 2016 3:34am
12th May 2016 3:34am
untitled 2
It's funny how we don't get to be "young people" til we get old enough. I spent my whole life waiting to become a young person, a twenty something, the age where your heartache is real, the age where they finally take you seriously, although not too seriously and especially if you're a millennial...
Finally there is farmers markets and free neighborhood exchange libraries that look like bird houses, and book clubs, and employment, and bikes and cars, and unemployment and musings of grad school and people teetering between following their dreams and making a buck and waging...
Finally there is farmers markets and free neighborhood exchange libraries that look like bird houses, and book clubs, and employment, and bikes and cars, and unemployment and musings of grad school and people teetering between following their dreams and making a buck and waging...
521 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th May 2016 00:16am
10th May 2016 00:16am
MOST ACUTELY HUMAN
I was timid and alone, unaware of my intensity, and then I fell,
You beckoned gently; I bowed in response
and then I dove
I dove hard and I dove fast
Daring you not to catch me
But you did
And you let me dangle and thrash in my own world
and you always came back
You taught object permanence to my soul
Taught my constricting pumping vessels to endlessly swell
I was tiny, broken, and devoted
And in your expansiveness, you scooped me up
the air was heavy and thick that you and I shared--
Your eyes were...
You beckoned gently; I bowed in response
and then I dove
I dove hard and I dove fast
Daring you not to catch me
But you did
And you let me dangle and thrash in my own world
and you always came back
You taught object permanence to my soul
Taught my constricting pumping vessels to endlessly swell
I was tiny, broken, and devoted
And in your expansiveness, you scooped me up
the air was heavy and thick that you and I shared--
Your eyes were...
595 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
5th May 2016 4:37pm
5th May 2016 4:37pm
Untitled 1
I don’t know how it keeps happening
It’s like a fog
And also not
No metaphor can correctly approximate
Waking up in the morning with sharp panic gripping my back
Exercising, working out,
Yea that’s what they always tell you to do when you’re distressed
Like righteousness before the gods of self help
Could exercise those thoughts
The term “demons” is a common trope
I’ve used it
Because it does feel like being possessed…
How many times I’ve emerged, flummoxed….
Sometimes you’re completely submerged in those waters...
It’s like a fog
And also not
No metaphor can correctly approximate
Waking up in the morning with sharp panic gripping my back
Exercising, working out,
Yea that’s what they always tell you to do when you’re distressed
Like righteousness before the gods of self help
Could exercise those thoughts
The term “demons” is a common trope
I’ve used it
Because it does feel like being possessed…
How many times I’ve emerged, flummoxed….
Sometimes you’re completely submerged in those waters...
514 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
2nd May 2016 8:56am
2nd May 2016 8:56am
HIPSTERS GALORE
We pack vodka in a mason jar and a whole lemon with a butter knife
I’m not kidding.
Leslie picks us up with her new girl Lily
And we listen to hypnotic beats and we smoke weed
We get there-- Hipsters galore!
Except I don’t even know what a hipster is these days, anymore
Blue hair, long hair, half shaved, half dyed,
We bust out the lemon and it’s a hit
No big deal, but we know the bassist…
The band plays, music that will fill you up
Lily and I bond, I’m getting more and more fucked up
Kendyll says she’s so...
I’m not kidding.
Leslie picks us up with her new girl Lily
And we listen to hypnotic beats and we smoke weed
We get there-- Hipsters galore!
Except I don’t even know what a hipster is these days, anymore
Blue hair, long hair, half shaved, half dyed,
We bust out the lemon and it’s a hit
No big deal, but we know the bassist…
The band plays, music that will fill you up
Lily and I bond, I’m getting more and more fucked up
Kendyll says she’s so...
491 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
2nd May 2016 5:45am
2nd May 2016 5:45am
I LIKE/YOU LIKE
I LIKE/YOU LIKE
I wear shoes or not, when I feel like it
You leave your shoes outside the door
I like to kiss with tongue
you like to kiss with lip to avoid the germs
I like to sit on public toilets when I take a crap
you like to tell me the names of all the bacteria I could be getting
I like to wash my hands after something germy or messy
You like to wash your hands after everything
and then sanitize if you happen to touch anything
I like to shower with you
you, well, you like that too
because you get to clean me to your...
I wear shoes or not, when I feel like it
You leave your shoes outside the door
I like to kiss with tongue
you like to kiss with lip to avoid the germs
I like to sit on public toilets when I take a crap
you like to tell me the names of all the bacteria I could be getting
I like to wash my hands after something germy or messy
You like to wash your hands after everything
and then sanitize if you happen to touch anything
I like to shower with you
you, well, you like that too
because you get to clean me to your...
671 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
29th Apr 2016 5:42pm
29th Apr 2016 5:42pm
WITHOUT A COAT
Years ago I stepped outside into the cold without a coat
Because I wanted to feel something,
I wanted some hardship, when everything felt painfully, agonizingly easy, and I didn’t know if I fit
in this cosmos
Listening to “written in the stars” from Aida the broadway musical
On the bus, on the way back from community college
Where I was an alien creature
As I thought about what would happen if I stepped into the train track, and shivered,
“is it written in the stars,
are we paying for some crime,
is this all that we are...
Because I wanted to feel something,
I wanted some hardship, when everything felt painfully, agonizingly easy, and I didn’t know if I fit
in this cosmos
Listening to “written in the stars” from Aida the broadway musical
On the bus, on the way back from community college
Where I was an alien creature
As I thought about what would happen if I stepped into the train track, and shivered,
“is it written in the stars,
are we paying for some crime,
is this all that we are...
510 reads
1 Comment
EROTIC POEM
Published
29th Apr 2016 8:33am
29th Apr 2016 8:33am
REVELATION
You were the one who taught me how to come.....
You don't know this
I played it cool
(though not while in the throes of it, then I LOST control)
But I like you thinking I'm more normal than I am
That I'm a prize
You think YOU'RE the weird one!
Hah!
I act like I'm the expert
on rubbing one out...
and well, I am, now,
after nine months of furious practice!
once a day, twice a day, three times...
But it was you who taught me one night, that night after I went with you to buy weed from "your boy"
and...
You don't know this
I played it cool
(though not while in the throes of it, then I LOST control)
But I like you thinking I'm more normal than I am
That I'm a prize
You think YOU'RE the weird one!
Hah!
I act like I'm the expert
on rubbing one out...
and well, I am, now,
after nine months of furious practice!
once a day, twice a day, three times...
But it was you who taught me one night, that night after I went with you to buy weed from "your boy"
and...
671 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
27th Apr 2016 7:25pm
27th Apr 2016 7:25pm
Gratitude Letter
I’m doing okay. I’m doing real good. I guess that’s why you’ve stopped talking to me. I don’t need you anymore you’ve decided, and I guess you’re right.
I wish I could write and tell you how well I’m doing. Or ask you about my career. I wish you could be my mentor… But sometimes the person who saves you when you’re most down can’t be the one to go the distance with you. I know I guess I can’t have you for life. That’s the nature of the beast. You were my emergency intimacy. My lifeline when I had nothing else to hold onto. But that doesn’t translate back into the world of the...
I wish I could write and tell you how well I’m doing. Or ask you about my career. I wish you could be my mentor… But sometimes the person who saves you when you’re most down can’t be the one to go the distance with you. I know I guess I can’t have you for life. That’s the nature of the beast. You were my emergency intimacy. My lifeline when I had nothing else to hold onto. But that doesn’t translate back into the world of the...
648 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2016 2:27pm
22nd Apr 2016 2:27pm
NOW, NOT THEN!
Woke up with a terrible feeling that I've had before
But that is NOT my life anymore,
I am not in trauma
I am not in panic
I just ran into a statistical problem involving excel
that I I couldn't solve
THAT'S ALL
I'll just do it by hand....
I'm smart enough
It's okay
I'm here, it's now, not then
It will never be then again
holy shit, how amazing is that?!
It will never ever be then again....
I'm here, I'm here, I'm so so grateful to be here, and I will be here forever, endlessly...
But that is NOT my life anymore,
I am not in trauma
I am not in panic
I just ran into a statistical problem involving excel
that I I couldn't solve
THAT'S ALL
I'll just do it by hand....
I'm smart enough
It's okay
I'm here, it's now, not then
It will never be then again
holy shit, how amazing is that?!
It will never ever be then again....
I'm here, I'm here, I'm so so grateful to be here, and I will be here forever, endlessly...
525 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Apr 2016 6:51am
19th Apr 2016 6:51am
MUSSELS IN MY ROOM
Ana I'm so sorry, for how I did you wrong
but then again you started it
I tried to get out
but you weren't having it
You said you were persuasive
Well wasn’t that the truth
made me mussels after we broke up
had us eat them in my room
And tried to fuck
Later you were sorry
Your last night in town
We lay in your bed and watched TV,
even though it was over,
you wanted your whole last night with me.
I have to say I was touched.
...
but then again you started it
I tried to get out
but you weren't having it
You said you were persuasive
Well wasn’t that the truth
made me mussels after we broke up
had us eat them in my room
And tried to fuck
Later you were sorry
Your last night in town
We lay in your bed and watched TV,
even though it was over,
you wanted your whole last night with me.
I have to say I was touched.
...
522 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Apr 2016 3:07am
19th Apr 2016 3:07am
f**ked up, a love poem:
I got fucked up
And I thought about you
And my heart swelled up
all peaceful and true :-)
As they say "it runneth over"
(that small human cup)
and the result is that I feel
even more fucked up!
And I thought about you
And my heart swelled up
all peaceful and true :-)
As they say "it runneth over"
(that small human cup)
and the result is that I feel
even more fucked up!
524 reads
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