Submissions by EllesPsychoB-tch

It's forbidden
It's wrong
I know this
But I don't stop
I can't
Its addictive
You don't understand
No one does
You don't get it
What its like to be me
To know what I know
If you knew
Maybe you'd understand
Why I do it
That's what I think
That's what I hope
When I lay there bleeding
But as I look at my scars
I know you wouldn't
So I stay quiet
Im broken
Lost in the darkness
You're my crack of sunlight
It's beautiful
You're beautiful
It's too much
I went too deep
I knew I wouldn't survive...

The blood pouring down my arms
Are the tears I cannot cry
I cant believe its gone this far
What has happened to me?

I carve all the lies I told you into my skin
Hoping one day you'll hear my silent cries
You'll see past my smiles
And see the pain within.

My arm stings but I like it
My fingers coated with blood
I trace patterns onto my skin
Without realising I spelt your name.

I'm fine, I really am
Not that you care
I'll always be just that girl you used to know
The one you thought hadn't a care in the world.
...

Tears fall from my eyes
Wetting the paper
Smudging the words.

I scrawl excuses
Explanations, apologies
Its not enough.

I scribble over mistakes
I can't find the right words
How do I tell you?

It's not your fault
You didn't know
Don't blame yourself.

I won't say I'm sorry
I won't lie to you
Can you forgive me?

This silver blade in my hand
Glinting in the moonlight
Stained with blood.

The mask I hid behind
Is broken
Gone is the me you thought you knew.

I do not scream
I do...

Is it so wrong to wish for death
When you feel you've nothing to live for?
I can't keep living like this
To live is an painful, endless chore.

Life holds no meaning
When hate fear and pain
Are seething inside you
With no good to gain.

My body is covered with bruises, cuts and scars
An insight to all the pain I hide
It was the first time blood was spilled
That a part of me died.

I wish for an escape, a way out
I dream of the day I'm finally free
I voice my wishes, my dreams as I cut my skin
To think I could end it so...