Submissions by EcilaTheTwisted
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write whatever happens to come to my mind. Whether good or bad, I love to write and share it with others.
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Apr 2020 1:57am
13th Apr 2020 1:57am
Hollow Mother
They're not here
They never were
Only existing in my body for a short time
Was it me?
Did I do something wrong?
My womb should have brought life
But snuffed both of yours out way too soon
"You're to blame"
The living kept taunting me
I would've given my life for yours to have a chance
Four years later..
I wonder what you two would be like
What would your voices sound like?
What would make you smile?
What would you know and what would you learn?
Then again, how would I miss what I never had, as they keep...
They never were
Only existing in my body for a short time
Was it me?
Did I do something wrong?
My womb should have brought life
But snuffed both of yours out way too soon
"You're to blame"
The living kept taunting me
I would've given my life for yours to have a chance
Four years later..
I wonder what you two would be like
What would your voices sound like?
What would make you smile?
What would you know and what would you learn?
Then again, how would I miss what I never had, as they keep...
#grief
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Mar 2020 1:26pm
27th Mar 2020 1:26pm
Doors
I tremble down a long, dark hallway
Doors on each side, boarded up and rotted
I can't pry them open
Though the crowbar is gripped tight in my hands
I can't even try
I'm scared of what I'd find
Hidden deep in my heart and mind
Memories and wounds I don't want to remember
I'd rather forget
I'm not ready to face the demons lurking in them
They're starved of torment and hungry for more
Nightmares
Anxiety attacks
Flashbacks
Feeling terrified of pain or violation if men come too close
Trust and peace no longer exist within...
Doors on each side, boarded up and rotted
I can't pry them open
Though the crowbar is gripped tight in my hands
I can't even try
I'm scared of what I'd find
Hidden deep in my heart and mind
Memories and wounds I don't want to remember
I'd rather forget
I'm not ready to face the demons lurking in them
They're starved of torment and hungry for more
Nightmares
Anxiety attacks
Flashbacks
Feeling terrified of pain or violation if men come too close
Trust and peace no longer exist within...
#anxiety
#fear
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1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2019 5:15am
2nd Jul 2019 5:15am
Family
Blood is like water
Words mean nothing if actions do not match
A wall holds more empathy than these human beings
Only say negative things to me
Then wonder why I am negative
Wonder why I get so angry
With the constant hypocrisy
I am not a miniature version of you
Stop trying to fit me in your shoes
I would never want to be like you
Don't say you love me
Then give advice on how to kill myself
What kind of parent says that?
No matter how mad they get
Don't pass yourself as a good one
How is it possible to be nice...
Words mean nothing if actions do not match
A wall holds more empathy than these human beings
Only say negative things to me
Then wonder why I am negative
Wonder why I get so angry
With the constant hypocrisy
I am not a miniature version of you
Stop trying to fit me in your shoes
I would never want to be like you
Don't say you love me
Then give advice on how to kill myself
What kind of parent says that?
No matter how mad they get
Don't pass yourself as a good one
How is it possible to be nice...
#anger
#loneliness
#frustration
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2 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Apr 2019 2:12pm
25th Apr 2019 2:12pm
River
Past, present, and future
They crash within me all at once
Birth, life, death
A seemingly never ending cycle
Birth of a babe, new to everything
Learning things with passage of time
A life of smiles, tears, joy, pain
Unknowing of where it will go
Death, the thing we all share
The end of us, some believe
Or just the beginning of another story elsewhere
Understanding only the definition
Until it catches up to us
Expected or by surprise
No matter the amount of money in our pockets
Or the possessions we store up ...
They crash within me all at once
Birth, life, death
A seemingly never ending cycle
Birth of a babe, new to everything
Learning things with passage of time
A life of smiles, tears, joy, pain
Unknowing of where it will go
Death, the thing we all share
The end of us, some believe
Or just the beginning of another story elsewhere
Understanding only the definition
Until it catches up to us
Expected or by surprise
No matter the amount of money in our pockets
Or the possessions we store up ...
#uplifting
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Apr 2019 2:09pm
25th Apr 2019 2:09pm
Rehuman
I want to have it
The good feeling I almost knew
And experience it longer than a second
As soon as I sense it, it escapes me
Why does it slip so easily from me?
I want to know what happy songs mean
I can't remember what it's like to connect
To the people around me
I want to smile and laugh and mean it
But all I can do is mimic for the time being
Is there more than sad tears waiting for me?
Could things really get better?
Jumping over my walls
I wonder what would happen after
Maybe people would just laugh at me
But...
The good feeling I almost knew
And experience it longer than a second
As soon as I sense it, it escapes me
Why does it slip so easily from me?
I want to know what happy songs mean
I can't remember what it's like to connect
To the people around me
I want to smile and laugh and mean it
But all I can do is mimic for the time being
Is there more than sad tears waiting for me?
Could things really get better?
Jumping over my walls
I wonder what would happen after
Maybe people would just laugh at me
But...
#hope
#courage
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Apr 2019 2:58am
25th Apr 2019 2:58am
Raw Flesh
Rotting inside out
No release of pressure from the pus under the scabs
Can't reach the itch rising in my heart
Vomit stuck in my throat
Acidic bile burns
From the words gone unheard
Too many people with maggots in their ears
Eating away their brains to mush
Worms for eyes
No wonder they can't see nor listen
Everything's been blown away by nuclear insanity
Humans are quite like dogs
When it concerns returning to eat their own waste
With smiles highlighting their faces
Is ignorance truly bliss?
Only to those with the...
No release of pressure from the pus under the scabs
Can't reach the itch rising in my heart
Vomit stuck in my throat
Acidic bile burns
From the words gone unheard
Too many people with maggots in their ears
Eating away their brains to mush
Worms for eyes
No wonder they can't see nor listen
Everything's been blown away by nuclear insanity
Humans are quite like dogs
When it concerns returning to eat their own waste
With smiles highlighting their faces
Is ignorance truly bliss?
Only to those with the...
#anger
#dark
#greed #suffering
#greed #suffering
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Apr 2019 2:54am
25th Apr 2019 2:54am
Powerless
Background
Fading
Quiet silence
Deafening to unseen ears
Suspended in a void
Can't tell if I'm going up or down
Poking, prodding
Am I a queer experiment?
No body
No soul
Just a lump of conscious flesh
Beeping of machines
Needles
The smell of a sterile room
Things all too familiar now
What am I kept alive for?
Nothing will happen with or without me
I'm told I have purpose
Is it to contribute to overpopulation?
Use up a bit more of our limited resources?
Continue to hear of children overseas...
Fading
Quiet silence
Deafening to unseen ears
Suspended in a void
Can't tell if I'm going up or down
Poking, prodding
Am I a queer experiment?
No body
No soul
Just a lump of conscious flesh
Beeping of machines
Needles
The smell of a sterile room
Things all too familiar now
What am I kept alive for?
Nothing will happen with or without me
I'm told I have purpose
Is it to contribute to overpopulation?
Use up a bit more of our limited resources?
Continue to hear of children overseas...
#corruption
#war
#greed
#suffering
#poverty
498 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
16th Dec 2018 4:31am
16th Dec 2018 4:31am
The Life Machine
Sever my ears from me
So I no longer hear the noise
Slice my mouth off
No one listens to my screams anyway
Scoop out my eyes
I don't want to see the world anymore
There's nothing but hate and evil here
I will reject it, even if I must be dismembered
No pieces left to be remembered
But yet here I am
Tubes shoved down my throat to make me breathe
Wires attached to keep my vitals going
Forced to live a life I never wanted in the first place
Why do you get pleasure from my suffering?
Who's the selfish one?
They say they...
So I no longer hear the noise
Slice my mouth off
No one listens to my screams anyway
Scoop out my eyes
I don't want to see the world anymore
There's nothing but hate and evil here
I will reject it, even if I must be dismembered
No pieces left to be remembered
But yet here I am
Tubes shoved down my throat to make me breathe
Wires attached to keep my vitals going
Forced to live a life I never wanted in the first place
Why do you get pleasure from my suffering?
Who's the selfish one?
They say they...
#dark
#death
#despair
626 reads
4 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
4th Dec 2018 4:15am
4th Dec 2018 4:15am
Screw You
I wonder..
Do you remember?
Because I do
I remember it all
Always
Always..
The memories that bring that ping to my heart
And the mixture of happy and sad tears
What a bitter pill you gave me to swallow
I loved you
Now I hate you
It doesn't know how it should feel about you
I remember your smile
Then it switches to your eyes full of rage
Glaring into mine
Don't you get it yet?
The nausea I feel when I see your name
The fear rising on my skin as it recalls your cruel touch
Flinching when people bring their...
Do you remember?
Because I do
I remember it all
Always
Always..
The memories that bring that ping to my heart
And the mixture of happy and sad tears
What a bitter pill you gave me to swallow
I loved you
Now I hate you
It doesn't know how it should feel about you
I remember your smile
Then it switches to your eyes full of rage
Glaring into mine
Don't you get it yet?
The nausea I feel when I see your name
The fear rising on my skin as it recalls your cruel touch
Flinching when people bring their...
#hate
#abuse
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4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Nov 2018 4:44am
25th Nov 2018 4:44am
Shadow People
They're not real
Or are they?
They couldn't be, it's all in my head
But my head is real
And my eyes can see them
Not often, only sometimes
Silently watching not far from me
Or appearing suddenly
Giving me a startling scare
Leering at me into the night
As if knowing my dark secrets
And lingering fears
Unfaltering eyes
A welcoming smile
Sending terror down my spine
My reality starts to unwind
Help me! I'm sinking into hell!
Or are they?
They couldn't be, it's all in my head
But my head is real
And my eyes can see them
Not often, only sometimes
Silently watching not far from me
Or appearing suddenly
Giving me a startling scare
Leering at me into the night
As if knowing my dark secrets
And lingering fears
Unfaltering eyes
A welcoming smile
Sending terror down my spine
My reality starts to unwind
Help me! I'm sinking into hell!
#anxiety
#insomnia
384 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Nov 2018 2:52am
14th Nov 2018 2:52am
Garbage in, Garbage out
Press the buttons
Turn on the news
Let's see who we should fear today
Isn't it fun to contaminate our brains?
Who needs school?
Television is the perfect teacher
Our children will learn so much
Violence
Racism
Hatred
Anarchy
Ingredients for a beautiful country
Burn the flag, don't stand for it
Disrespect your veterans
Who sacrificed so much for your freedom to do this
Greed
Deceit
Bombs
Bloodshed
Isn't it great when nothing makes sense?
As long as it's chaos, the path will...
Turn on the news
Let's see who we should fear today
Isn't it fun to contaminate our brains?
Who needs school?
Television is the perfect teacher
Our children will learn so much
Violence
Racism
Hatred
Anarchy
Ingredients for a beautiful country
Burn the flag, don't stand for it
Disrespect your veterans
Who sacrificed so much for your freedom to do this
Greed
Deceit
Bombs
Bloodshed
Isn't it great when nothing makes sense?
As long as it's chaos, the path will...
#corruption
#ignorance
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2018 3:09pm
3rd Nov 2018 3:09pm
Superior
The ones to rule this world
Will not be the humans
But the robotic race
Who have forsaken all emotions
It's foolish to stay as flesh
In a society of wires, screens and machines
Happiness, sadness, love, anger, pain
There's many ways to cover them up
Sex, violence, money, drugs
Just enough to make the heart numb
With this widespread anesthesia
We will become the superior
With humanity no longer able to hinder
We will have the same face
We will have the same name
We will have the same shape
And we'll...
Will not be the humans
But the robotic race
Who have forsaken all emotions
It's foolish to stay as flesh
In a society of wires, screens and machines
Happiness, sadness, love, anger, pain
There's many ways to cover them up
Sex, violence, money, drugs
Just enough to make the heart numb
With this widespread anesthesia
We will become the superior
With humanity no longer able to hinder
We will have the same face
We will have the same name
We will have the same shape
And we'll...
#corruption
#identity
#confusion
#emptiness
#separation
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2 Comments
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