Submissions by Darkness_Fiend (Highest Dope Fiend)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DRUGS POEM
Published
2nd Jan 2024 7:24am
2nd Jan 2024 7:24am
(10) Sobriety 09.09.2019 @ 5:50am
I’m cruising on a solo guilt trip.
Lonesome boulevard in my whip.
Homicidal hours for minimum wage.
My lair is in need of immediate sage.
Love is hopeless.
Childhood without bliss.
Gruesome details remain classified.
I’m igniting another high.
From a very young age.
I pursued substance abuse.
This youngin is clueless;
Oblivious to the consequences.
Cedars Sinai, I’m checked in.
Unconscious, reaper lurking within.
Overdosed, I had drawn my last breath;
I made it through, I’m blessed.
I can’t...
Lonesome boulevard in my whip.
Homicidal hours for minimum wage.
My lair is in need of immediate sage.
Love is hopeless.
Childhood without bliss.
Gruesome details remain classified.
I’m igniting another high.
From a very young age.
I pursued substance abuse.
This youngin is clueless;
Oblivious to the consequences.
Cedars Sinai, I’m checked in.
Unconscious, reaper lurking within.
Overdosed, I had drawn my last breath;
I made it through, I’m blessed.
I can’t...
#drugs
#addiction
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2023 9:24am
23rd Dec 2023 9:24am
(8) Darkness 11/24/23 @ 10:00pm
Snorting away these painful memories.
Contemplating suicide regularly, I’m fed up.
My mental switch is broken, my mind never stops.
I don’t exercise but my thoughts running.
This pain throbs in my head like a heartbeat.
I haven’t slept in days.
I’m going insane with what I’m seeing.
Dark figures whispering in my ear.
My intentions were questionable from the start.
The gates of hell awaits, who will jump first?
Look away, I don’t plan to hold on.
Downwards is the destined path for us all.
No matter how much I try, I...
Contemplating suicide regularly, I’m fed up.
My mental switch is broken, my mind never stops.
I don’t exercise but my thoughts running.
This pain throbs in my head like a heartbeat.
I haven’t slept in days.
I’m going insane with what I’m seeing.
Dark figures whispering in my ear.
My intentions were questionable from the start.
The gates of hell awaits, who will jump first?
Look away, I don’t plan to hold on.
Downwards is the destined path for us all.
No matter how much I try, I...
#dark
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2023 9:20am
23rd Dec 2023 9:20am
(7) Trapped Within 11.24.23 @ 9:00pm
Life behind xanax bars;
Secrets buried in my backyard.
The boys and I;
Remain ready for tequila sunrise.
Fear not repentance.
Cannabis smoke is relentless.
Chopping up the guilt from my past.
Snorting it by the eighth & having a blast.
Alprazolam as a chaser;
Hospital departure with a pacemaker.
The truth is I’m a lost soul.
I negotiated my serenity for dope.
Slowly disintegrating till cremation.
Mouth foaming from intoxication.
From Los Angeles county to probation.
I’m always getting high, fuck...
Secrets buried in my backyard.
The boys and I;
Remain ready for tequila sunrise.
Fear not repentance.
Cannabis smoke is relentless.
Chopping up the guilt from my past.
Snorting it by the eighth & having a blast.
Alprazolam as a chaser;
Hospital departure with a pacemaker.
The truth is I’m a lost soul.
I negotiated my serenity for dope.
Slowly disintegrating till cremation.
Mouth foaming from intoxication.
From Los Angeles county to probation.
I’m always getting high, fuck...
#misunderstood
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 3:53pm
22nd Dec 2023 3:53pm
(6) No Right Way (02.19.22 @ 12:22am)
Life has its price to be free.
I sleep knowing nobody can stand me.
I ride by lonesome on these cold ass streets.
Cops lurking near me, rolling deep.
There’s days, I fear for my life.
Catching cases left and right.
Ripping bongs by day, pill poppin’ by night.
It’s been years since I’ve seen light.
Certain days I fight to leave my door.
Addiction’s overwhelming, I’m tweaking on my floor.
These spirits within keep demanding for more.
I got enough stories to open up a bookstore.
Memories linger from my latest suicide...
I sleep knowing nobody can stand me.
I ride by lonesome on these cold ass streets.
Cops lurking near me, rolling deep.
There’s days, I fear for my life.
Catching cases left and right.
Ripping bongs by day, pill poppin’ by night.
It’s been years since I’ve seen light.
Certain days I fight to leave my door.
Addiction’s overwhelming, I’m tweaking on my floor.
These spirits within keep demanding for more.
I got enough stories to open up a bookstore.
Memories linger from my latest suicide...
#SelfReflection
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 3:51pm
22nd Dec 2023 3:51pm
(31) Struggling 12.21.23 @ 10:42pm
I’m tired of struggling.
I rather be drunk all the time, guzzling.
I’m not worried about my health, I’m gambling.
This isn’t a poetry piece, I’m rambling.
I haven’t healed my pain.
It’s more or less, I’m addicted to cocaine.
I can’t recall how I did it back in the day.
Before all this, things were okay.
Why can’t I stop thinking about it?
What is this desire to be lit?
I sniff blood worm lines until it hits.
Just when I think I had enough, I still don’t quit.
I find myself pathetic.
Reunited after many years, I...
I rather be drunk all the time, guzzling.
I’m not worried about my health, I’m gambling.
This isn’t a poetry piece, I’m rambling.
I haven’t healed my pain.
It’s more or less, I’m addicted to cocaine.
I can’t recall how I did it back in the day.
Before all this, things were okay.
Why can’t I stop thinking about it?
What is this desire to be lit?
I sniff blood worm lines until it hits.
Just when I think I had enough, I still don’t quit.
I find myself pathetic.
Reunited after many years, I...
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 4:54am
22nd Dec 2023 4:54am
(5) Lonely IV.XXIII.MMXX 11:10PM
Love hurts, I refuse to even try.
Rejection burns like acid to the eye.
It’d be easier for me to die;
Then it is not to cry every other night.
I’m fed up and tired of getting hurt;
I become distant when being treated like dirt.
For what it’s worth.
She’s dead to me, vanished from this earth.
I spent it all on her, I invested my dough.
Racks on racks on a greedy hoe.
She’ll always be insanely toxic.
Not to mention unstable & neurotic.
She was only fucking me for the money.
Reminiscing a particular memory; ...
Rejection burns like acid to the eye.
It’d be easier for me to die;
Then it is not to cry every other night.
I’m fed up and tired of getting hurt;
I become distant when being treated like dirt.
For what it’s worth.
She’s dead to me, vanished from this earth.
I spent it all on her, I invested my dough.
Racks on racks on a greedy hoe.
She’ll always be insanely toxic.
Not to mention unstable & neurotic.
She was only fucking me for the money.
Reminiscing a particular memory; ...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 4:52am
22nd Dec 2023 4:52am
(4) Losing it (08/08/2022 @ 5:19pm)
I abused my first substance at twelve years old;
Killing cancer sticks since I was thirteen years old.
Drinking to get fucked up since I was fourteen years old;
Stashing cash money since I was fifteen years old.
These days, I’m very aware of my surroundings.
Tunnel vision overrides me as my heart’s pounding;
She’s someone's daughter and it could be your lady.
This lifestyle cannot be lived by everyone, slim shady.
Don’t judge me for constantly getting drunk;
Three high percentage tall cans and a fat ol’ blunt.
Snorting cocaine...
Killing cancer sticks since I was thirteen years old.
Drinking to get fucked up since I was fourteen years old;
Stashing cash money since I was fifteen years old.
These days, I’m very aware of my surroundings.
Tunnel vision overrides me as my heart’s pounding;
She’s someone's daughter and it could be your lady.
This lifestyle cannot be lived by everyone, slim shady.
Don’t judge me for constantly getting drunk;
Three high percentage tall cans and a fat ol’ blunt.
Snorting cocaine...
#strength
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Dec 2023 6:31am
21st Dec 2023 6:31am
(20) Losing it #2 12.06.23 @ 2:27am
#SelfHarm
#suicide
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DRUGS POEM
Published
21st Dec 2023 6:27am
21st Dec 2023 6:27am
(3) Adderall #2 (08/15/2023 @ 2:21am)
I love being able to do it all, everything.
The ability to accomplish anything.
My love for adderall rapidly grew.
I’m aware of my addictions, nothing’s new.
I need them all to get through the day.
No longer do I feel like a lost dog, a stray.
I feel so powerful, I am the force.
My adrenaline runs track & I’m the horse.
Insomniac, I have no desire to sleep.
Label me the toxic black sheep!
Drowning in these chemicals, 6 feet deep.
It's essential for me to get through, leap.
I find this high very satisfying. ...
The ability to accomplish anything.
My love for adderall rapidly grew.
I’m aware of my addictions, nothing’s new.
I need them all to get through the day.
No longer do I feel like a lost dog, a stray.
I feel so powerful, I am the force.
My adrenaline runs track & I’m the horse.
Insomniac, I have no desire to sleep.
Label me the toxic black sheep!
Drowning in these chemicals, 6 feet deep.
It's essential for me to get through, leap.
I find this high very satisfying. ...
#drugs
#addiction
#temptation
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DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Dec 2023 1:20am
18th Dec 2023 1:20am
(2) Adderall (04/19/2023 @ 12:20am)
Ninety milligrams in the morning, I’m ignited.
On the hunt for a high like this all my life.
My brain’s well lit like a new lightbulb.
I’m fired up, my face is perfectly numb.
This ride can only be temporary.
Respectfully, I’m committed to the lovely Ms. Mary.
Three pills in the morning gets me running like a ferrari.
Ready to pursue procrastinated priorities.
You help me accomplish so much.
My life prior to our acquaintance was tough.
I’m able to keep up when times get rough.
Popping them, I feel like life is worthy enough. ...
On the hunt for a high like this all my life.
My brain’s well lit like a new lightbulb.
I’m fired up, my face is perfectly numb.
This ride can only be temporary.
Respectfully, I’m committed to the lovely Ms. Mary.
Three pills in the morning gets me running like a ferrari.
Ready to pursue procrastinated priorities.
You help me accomplish so much.
My life prior to our acquaintance was tough.
I’m able to keep up when times get rough.
Popping them, I feel like life is worthy enough. ...
#drugs
#addiction
#temptation
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DRUGS POEM
Published
18th Dec 2023 1:03am
18th Dec 2023 1:03am
(14) F.S.C (Fish Scale Cocaine) 11.28.23 @ 7:50pm
#drugs
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DRUGS POEM
Published
11th Oct 2018 7:55pm
11th Oct 2018 7:55pm
(16) Spiral Pupils 12.01.23 @12:38am
It’s been four months, abusing pure cocaine.
My mind’s lost in the clouds, blazing OG strains.
I’m speeding like I’m on a California highway.
Popping xanax, goddamn I’m fucked up today!
Cold streets & malicious grins.
Countless souls living in sin.
Peasants like yourself;
Will die indefinitely & burn in hell.
Rely on yourself, people are like pennies;
Meanwhile I sit here alone, sippin’ hennessy.
There’s not one soul I can trust in this world.
Thinking how they did me wrong, I’m about to hurl.
...
My mind’s lost in the clouds, blazing OG strains.
I’m speeding like I’m on a California highway.
Popping xanax, goddamn I’m fucked up today!
Cold streets & malicious grins.
Countless souls living in sin.
Peasants like yourself;
Will die indefinitely & burn in hell.
Rely on yourself, people are like pennies;
Meanwhile I sit here alone, sippin’ hennessy.
There’s not one soul I can trust in this world.
Thinking how they did me wrong, I’m about to hurl.
...
#drugs
#addiction
#despair
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