Submissions by Darkness_Fiend (Highest Dope Fiend)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
21st Jan 2024 8:57pm
21st Jan 2024 8:57pm
(18) A Girl From Work 12.06.23 @ 12:51am
She’s pretty like most of them;
She caught my eye like a deer in the headlights.
Eyes brighter than the stars up above.
Innocence so pure, I could sing.
Days afterwards, she crossed my mind.
She took my breath away, wishing I could rewind;
That memorable moment where my mind’s blown.
Truth is, this time I’m not stoned.
I’m truly amazed, mindblown.
To tell you the truth.
I thought I’d never see the day.
My eyes would lay set on my future wife.
My soul is screaming from the inside.
Inner voice going crazy, I’m...
She caught my eye like a deer in the headlights.
Eyes brighter than the stars up above.
Innocence so pure, I could sing.
Days afterwards, she crossed my mind.
She took my breath away, wishing I could rewind;
That memorable moment where my mind’s blown.
Truth is, this time I’m not stoned.
I’m truly amazed, mindblown.
To tell you the truth.
I thought I’d never see the day.
My eyes would lay set on my future wife.
My soul is screaming from the inside.
Inner voice going crazy, I’m...
#FallingInLove
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DARK POEM
Published
21st Jan 2024 8:54pm
21st Jan 2024 8:54pm
(17) Neverending Misery 12.05.23 @ 11:14pm
Suicide on my mind.
Wishing I could reverse time, rewind.
The day will come, I will no longer be here.
Life won’t be a problem anymore, nothing to fear.
If waking up in the morning isn’t a blessing, what is?
Anger and hatred go hand in hand, what’s this?
Life’s overrated, here’s my reality.
Love is dead, death by fatality.
It shouldn’t be like this, life on earth.
What’s the concept of life really worth?
I’m tired of pretending like everything’s alright.
Eyes glowing red as I’m running from the light.
When the time...
Wishing I could reverse time, rewind.
The day will come, I will no longer be here.
Life won’t be a problem anymore, nothing to fear.
If waking up in the morning isn’t a blessing, what is?
Anger and hatred go hand in hand, what’s this?
Life’s overrated, here’s my reality.
Love is dead, death by fatality.
It shouldn’t be like this, life on earth.
What’s the concept of life really worth?
I’m tired of pretending like everything’s alright.
Eyes glowing red as I’m running from the light.
When the time...
#depression
#dark
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Jan 2024 11:01am
7th Jan 2024 11:01am
(13) How It Goes 11.28.23 @ 8:13pm
Semi-automatic twelve gage;
Police pursuing me on this rampage.
Call it how you see it, I’m saying fuck it till I die;
It’s a thrill being on this dangerous ride.
It's after hours & I’m on the I-405
Pushing my speedometer to 145.
Adrenaline makes me feel so alive.
It’s an orgasmic kind of high.
No regards for any potential outcomes.
Recurring chest pain as I feel numb.
Still popping benzodiazepines by the round;
Blowing marijuana smoke by the pound.
I’m a California fiend & it’s tough.
I’m dying...
Police pursuing me on this rampage.
Call it how you see it, I’m saying fuck it till I die;
It’s a thrill being on this dangerous ride.
It's after hours & I’m on the I-405
Pushing my speedometer to 145.
Adrenaline makes me feel so alive.
It’s an orgasmic kind of high.
No regards for any potential outcomes.
Recurring chest pain as I feel numb.
Still popping benzodiazepines by the round;
Blowing marijuana smoke by the pound.
I’m a California fiend & it’s tough.
I’m dying...
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Jan 2024 10:55am
7th Jan 2024 10:55am
(12) Hopeless 11.27.23 @ 3:06am
Another day, getting high snorting dope.
Hopeless and fucking wreckless!
Life is something I don’t want to deal with.
Like the rest of us, I’m going through it.
I can’t take it anymore!
The pressure is killing my mental health.
The pressure is driving me insane!
My past haunts me in my everyday life.
I smile all the time, but my eyes tell another story.
Truth is, I’m tired of being a drug addict.
I’ve known for so long, thirteen years and counting.
It’s been on my mind, day and night.
I’ve been through so much; ...
Hopeless and fucking wreckless!
Life is something I don’t want to deal with.
Like the rest of us, I’m going through it.
I can’t take it anymore!
The pressure is killing my mental health.
The pressure is driving me insane!
My past haunts me in my everyday life.
I smile all the time, but my eyes tell another story.
Truth is, I’m tired of being a drug addict.
I’ve known for so long, thirteen years and counting.
It’s been on my mind, day and night.
I’ve been through so much; ...
#addiction
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
2nd Jan 2024 7:26am
2nd Jan 2024 7:26am
(11) Life In The Dark 11/26/23 @ 4:26am
My fucking lights burnt out!
Let me show you what my life is about.
Darkrooms, where my soul flies in capacity.
My spirit is gruesome.
Falling apart, disintegrating inside.
Sorrow is what fuels the tunes playing.
I stay alive long enough to make it through the night.
I’ll dig my grave 6 feet before I take a jail sentence.
Dark spirit’s stop by to visit night after night.
Cold and dark shadowed appearance.
Whispering, “Let’s get high homie!”
Taunting me with temptation.
Adrenaline and dopamine go hand in hand. ...
Let me show you what my life is about.
Darkrooms, where my soul flies in capacity.
My spirit is gruesome.
Falling apart, disintegrating inside.
Sorrow is what fuels the tunes playing.
I stay alive long enough to make it through the night.
I’ll dig my grave 6 feet before I take a jail sentence.
Dark spirit’s stop by to visit night after night.
Cold and dark shadowed appearance.
Whispering, “Let’s get high homie!”
Taunting me with temptation.
Adrenaline and dopamine go hand in hand. ...
#spiritual
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DRUGS POEM
Published
2nd Jan 2024 7:24am
2nd Jan 2024 7:24am
(10) Sobriety 09.09.2019 @ 5:50am
I’m cruising on a solo guilt trip.
Lonesome boulevard in my whip.
Homicidal hours for minimum wage.
My lair is in need of immediate sage.
Love is hopeless.
Childhood without bliss.
Gruesome details remain classified.
I’m igniting another high.
From a very young age.
I pursued substance abuse.
This youngin is clueless;
Oblivious to the consequences.
Cedars Sinai, I’m checked in.
Unconscious, reaper lurking within.
Overdosed, I had drawn my last breath;
I made it through, I’m blessed.
I can’t...
Lonesome boulevard in my whip.
Homicidal hours for minimum wage.
My lair is in need of immediate sage.
Love is hopeless.
Childhood without bliss.
Gruesome details remain classified.
I’m igniting another high.
From a very young age.
I pursued substance abuse.
This youngin is clueless;
Oblivious to the consequences.
Cedars Sinai, I’m checked in.
Unconscious, reaper lurking within.
Overdosed, I had drawn my last breath;
I made it through, I’m blessed.
I can’t...
#drugs
#addiction
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2023 9:24am
23rd Dec 2023 9:24am
(8) Darkness 11/24/23 @ 10:00pm
Snorting away these painful memories.
Contemplating suicide regularly, I’m fed up.
My mental switch is broken, my mind never stops.
I don’t exercise but my thoughts running.
This pain throbs in my head like a heartbeat.
I haven’t slept in days.
I’m going insane with what I’m seeing.
Dark figures whispering in my ear.
My intentions were questionable from the start.
The gates of hell awaits, who will jump first?
Look away, I don’t plan to hold on.
Downwards is the destined path for us all.
No matter how much I try, I...
Contemplating suicide regularly, I’m fed up.
My mental switch is broken, my mind never stops.
I don’t exercise but my thoughts running.
This pain throbs in my head like a heartbeat.
I haven’t slept in days.
I’m going insane with what I’m seeing.
Dark figures whispering in my ear.
My intentions were questionable from the start.
The gates of hell awaits, who will jump first?
Look away, I don’t plan to hold on.
Downwards is the destined path for us all.
No matter how much I try, I...
#dark
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2023 9:20am
23rd Dec 2023 9:20am
(7) Trapped Within 11.24.23 @ 9:00pm
Life behind xanax bars;
Secrets buried in my backyard.
The boys and I;
Remain ready for tequila sunrise.
Fear not repentance.
Cannabis smoke is relentless.
Chopping up the guilt from my past.
Snorting it by the eighth & having a blast.
Alprazolam as a chaser;
Hospital departure with a pacemaker.
The truth is I’m a lost soul.
I negotiated my serenity for dope.
Slowly disintegrating till cremation.
Mouth foaming from intoxication.
From Los Angeles county to probation.
I’m always getting high, fuck...
Secrets buried in my backyard.
The boys and I;
Remain ready for tequila sunrise.
Fear not repentance.
Cannabis smoke is relentless.
Chopping up the guilt from my past.
Snorting it by the eighth & having a blast.
Alprazolam as a chaser;
Hospital departure with a pacemaker.
The truth is I’m a lost soul.
I negotiated my serenity for dope.
Slowly disintegrating till cremation.
Mouth foaming from intoxication.
From Los Angeles county to probation.
I’m always getting high, fuck...
#misunderstood
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 3:53pm
22nd Dec 2023 3:53pm
(6) No Right Way (02.19.22 @ 12:22am)
Life has its price to be free.
I sleep knowing nobody can stand me.
I ride by lonesome on these cold ass streets.
Cops lurking near me, rolling deep.
There’s days, I fear for my life.
Catching cases left and right.
Ripping bongs by day, pill poppin’ by night.
It’s been years since I’ve seen light.
Certain days I fight to leave my door.
Addiction’s overwhelming, I’m tweaking on my floor.
These spirits within keep demanding for more.
I got enough stories to open up a bookstore.
Memories linger from my latest suicide...
I sleep knowing nobody can stand me.
I ride by lonesome on these cold ass streets.
Cops lurking near me, rolling deep.
There’s days, I fear for my life.
Catching cases left and right.
Ripping bongs by day, pill poppin’ by night.
It’s been years since I’ve seen light.
Certain days I fight to leave my door.
Addiction’s overwhelming, I’m tweaking on my floor.
These spirits within keep demanding for more.
I got enough stories to open up a bookstore.
Memories linger from my latest suicide...
#SelfReflection
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 3:51pm
22nd Dec 2023 3:51pm
(31) Struggling 12.21.23 @ 10:42pm
I’m tired of struggling.
I rather be drunk all the time, guzzling.
I’m not worried about my health, I’m gambling.
This isn’t a poetry piece, I’m rambling.
I haven’t healed my pain.
It’s more or less, I’m addicted to cocaine.
I can’t recall how I did it back in the day.
Before all this, things were okay.
Why can’t I stop thinking about it?
What is this desire to be lit?
I sniff blood worm lines until it hits.
Just when I think I had enough, I still don’t quit.
I find myself pathetic.
Reunited after many years, I...
I rather be drunk all the time, guzzling.
I’m not worried about my health, I’m gambling.
This isn’t a poetry piece, I’m rambling.
I haven’t healed my pain.
It’s more or less, I’m addicted to cocaine.
I can’t recall how I did it back in the day.
Before all this, things were okay.
Why can’t I stop thinking about it?
What is this desire to be lit?
I sniff blood worm lines until it hits.
Just when I think I had enough, I still don’t quit.
I find myself pathetic.
Reunited after many years, I...
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 4:54am
22nd Dec 2023 4:54am
(5) Lonely IV.XXIII.MMXX 11:10PM
Love hurts, I refuse to even try.
Rejection burns like acid to the eye.
It’d be easier for me to die;
Then it is not to cry every other night.
I’m fed up and tired of getting hurt;
I become distant when being treated like dirt.
For what it’s worth.
She’s dead to me, vanished from this earth.
I spent it all on her, I invested my dough.
Racks on racks on a greedy hoe.
She’ll always be insanely toxic.
Not to mention unstable & neurotic.
She was only fucking me for the money.
Reminiscing a particular memory; ...
Rejection burns like acid to the eye.
It’d be easier for me to die;
Then it is not to cry every other night.
I’m fed up and tired of getting hurt;
I become distant when being treated like dirt.
For what it’s worth.
She’s dead to me, vanished from this earth.
I spent it all on her, I invested my dough.
Racks on racks on a greedy hoe.
She’ll always be insanely toxic.
Not to mention unstable & neurotic.
She was only fucking me for the money.
Reminiscing a particular memory; ...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2023 4:52am
22nd Dec 2023 4:52am
(4) Losing it (08/08/2022 @ 5:19pm)
I abused my first substance at twelve years old;
Killing cancer sticks since I was thirteen years old.
Drinking to get fucked up since I was fourteen years old;
Stashing cash money since I was fifteen years old.
These days, I’m very aware of my surroundings.
Tunnel vision overrides me as my heart’s pounding;
She’s someone's daughter and it could be your lady.
This lifestyle cannot be lived by everyone, slim shady.
Don’t judge me for constantly getting drunk;
Three high percentage tall cans and a fat ol’ blunt.
Snorting cocaine...
Killing cancer sticks since I was thirteen years old.
Drinking to get fucked up since I was fourteen years old;
Stashing cash money since I was fifteen years old.
These days, I’m very aware of my surroundings.
Tunnel vision overrides me as my heart’s pounding;
She’s someone's daughter and it could be your lady.
This lifestyle cannot be lived by everyone, slim shady.
Don’t judge me for constantly getting drunk;
Three high percentage tall cans and a fat ol’ blunt.
Snorting cocaine...
#strength
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