Submissions by Blood-Soaked-Angel (Emma)

I must like the pain,
I must like my heart breaking in two,
I stand here and take it,
Take it all from you.

I must like the pain,
I must like the tears I shed,
I have these tears every time,
Every time I remember the things you said.

I must like the pain,
I must like hurting inside,
I stand in full view and accept,
Rather than running to hide.

I do not like this image of me,
I do not like this mirrored image I see,
I hate this image of me,
I hate my mind for making me see.

Good evening,
My true friend,
My one friend,
Good evening,
My love,
I push your cold metal tip
To my temple…
My angel,
A shaky breath,
As I close my eyes.
Alone with you,
At last,
Hard and cold under my finger…
Hard and cold…
The way I should have lived my life,
But no regrets,
No feelings,
No emotions,
Just me.
And you.
I need you…
I need to touch you,
Feel you,
Squeeze you,
I push the metal down slowly.

My blood hits the floor
Leaving its own little stain
On the otherwise spotless carpet,
The stain grows slowly,
Bigger and bigger,
I watch the blood
Dancing beneath me,
Telling me to join in,
“Come and dance”
It sings to me,
“Come and play…”
So innocent, so sweet,
“Come and die…”
I sink…

I watch the tears fall from your eyes,
The despair in your face,
The pain rippling through your body…
I watch as you crumple onto the floor,
In a broken mess,
I watch all…
From my place in the sky,
I watch the blood…
Your blood…
My blood…
I watch it trickle from our veins,
I watch our life drain away,
Soon…
Soon it will be over,
Soon you will die,
And then you can join me,
In my place in the sky.