Submissions by Ambjr
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
been writin since I was a child…my writin is sloppy inconsistent raw and looks better on paper. but there’s deep love for the art there.
EROTIC POEM
Published
11th Apr 2025 7:43pm
11th Apr 2025 7:43pm
the way it burns
I pace thru shadows like a caged animal
breath ragged with unspoken violence
kickin the poolside chairs with each pass
each collision a temporary relief
to what rages thru me
the monster tears at my insides
chained behind locked doors
growin stronger with each curse
that slips thru gritted teeth
threatenin to consume what remains of control
she comes to me
eyes studyin the war on my face
and the tremors in my hands
the monster visible under my paper thin mask
her hands find my chest
meetin my chaos...
breath ragged with unspoken violence
kickin the poolside chairs with each pass
each collision a temporary relief
to what rages thru me
the monster tears at my insides
chained behind locked doors
growin stronger with each curse
that slips thru gritted teeth
threatenin to consume what remains of control
she comes to me
eyes studyin the war on my face
and the tremors in my hands
the monster visible under my paper thin mask
her hands find my chest
meetin my chaos...
#anger
#erotic
#sex
97 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Apr 2025 5:07pm
9th Apr 2025 5:07pm
residual
I was told to start over
to begin again
as if all of these memories
could be washed away with time
but I have a past you can't avoid
one that breathes beneath my skin
like a second pulse
followin me thru doorways
that I thought were closed
there in every room I enter
to begin again
as if all of these memories
could be washed away with time
but I have a past you can't avoid
one that breathes beneath my skin
like a second pulse
followin me thru doorways
that I thought were closed
there in every room I enter
#addiction
#memories
#StreamOfConsciousness
64 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Apr 2025 1:12pm
7th Apr 2025 1:12pm
burnin vessel
mornin breaks thru the sky
and I fracture open alongside it
barriers dissolvin
faster than I can name them
my blood runs wildfire fast
consumin. spreadin
coursin thru veins too narrow
to contain the sudden surge
of impossible light
each heartbeat a thunderclap
boom boom boom
echoin against fragile ribs
tryin to contain this symphony of percussion
I splinter and fracture into prisms
everythin burnin with overwhelmin intensity
every feelin equally demandin
pullin all my molecules into different...
and I fracture open alongside it
barriers dissolvin
faster than I can name them
my blood runs wildfire fast
consumin. spreadin
coursin thru veins too narrow
to contain the sudden surge
of impossible light
each heartbeat a thunderclap
boom boom boom
echoin against fragile ribs
tryin to contain this symphony of percussion
I splinter and fracture into prisms
everythin burnin with overwhelmin intensity
every feelin equally demandin
pullin all my molecules into different...
#StreamOfConsciousness
72 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Apr 2025 2:55am
7th Apr 2025 2:55am
uncertainty of breath
I don’t know if this is surrender or rebellion
beneath the crushin silence
the body learns to survive on less
shallow breaths
half a life
a quiet rhythm of endurance
moments where my lungs
remember their full capacity
allowin air to rush in
where only shadows dwelled before
a sudden clarity
both gift and question
liftin the fog
revealin the bright reach of sunlight
a path to…what?
I’m not sure if this is surrender or rebellion
when the voids depths...
beneath the crushin silence
the body learns to survive on less
shallow breaths
half a life
a quiet rhythm of endurance
moments where my lungs
remember their full capacity
allowin air to rush in
where only shadows dwelled before
a sudden clarity
both gift and question
liftin the fog
revealin the bright reach of sunlight
a path to…what?
I’m not sure if this is surrender or rebellion
when the voids depths...
#StreamOfConsciousness
67 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
5th Apr 2025 4:42pm
5th Apr 2025 4:42pm
mornin ramble
funeral day. it’s rainin. i love that for her. she hated the rain. “ruins my day.” as if her day was the universe’s problem. now she’s gettin soaked on her way outa this world. i really can’t help but find bit of poetry in all of that. but somedays i still find myself thinkin like a vindictive drunk. old habits. but this moment in my day isn’t bout her or not completely anyway. i went to bed early last night. slept whole four hours. we call that success round here. then i laid there with nietzsche pickin at my brain. weirdest shit always slips in when i’m not sleepin at 1am. amor fati. love...
#StreamOfConsciousness
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4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Apr 2025 2:12pm
4th Apr 2025 2:12pm
ode to mother
oh glorious matriarch
bearer of life
your legacy blooms like spring flowers
your nurturin hands
your sacrificial heart
how heaven’s eyes must roll
at your divine example
your generosity knew no bounds
so generous that you gave away your children
wrappin us tenderly in indifference
abandoned me to my father’s rage
then gifted my brother to me
creatin a family tradition
of handin over the unwanted
oh vessel of wisdom
overflowin fountain of care
your voice echoed when money was needed
your love a...
bearer of life
your legacy blooms like spring flowers
your nurturin hands
your sacrificial heart
how heaven’s eyes must roll
at your divine example
your generosity knew no bounds
so generous that you gave away your children
wrappin us tenderly in indifference
abandoned me to my father’s rage
then gifted my brother to me
creatin a family tradition
of handin over the unwanted
oh vessel of wisdom
overflowin fountain of care
your voice echoed when money was needed
your love a...
#death
#mother
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3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2025 5:46am
3rd Apr 2025 5:46am
a toast to no one
the call came today
you’re dead
finally
the universe took its sweet time
over and over
I’ve tried rebuildin
what you burned down
with that lighter fluid smile
over and over
I’ve tried to wash out
all of your venom
that pulses thru my veins
they’ll want me to weep
to forgive you
to speak of loss and motherly love
but what is there it mourn
when nothin I ever had has died?
the actress takes her final bow
no fuckin encore
those invisible strings
that you pulled so well ...
you’re dead
finally
the universe took its sweet time
over and over
I’ve tried rebuildin
what you burned down
with that lighter fluid smile
over and over
I’ve tried to wash out
all of your venom
that pulses thru my veins
they’ll want me to weep
to forgive you
to speak of loss and motherly love
but what is there it mourn
when nothin I ever had has died?
the actress takes her final bow
no fuckin encore
those invisible strings
that you pulled so well ...
#anger
#death
#mother
85 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
1st Apr 2025 8:45am
1st Apr 2025 8:45am
awake
I don’t sleep much these days
nightmares wait patiently
crouched in the corners of sleep
where I’m small again
beneath thunderous rage
cowerin from the shadow
that swallows everythin I am
I wake chokin on panic
that I’ve spent years swallowin down
heart thrashin in my chest
as terror outlasts my dreams
I don’t sleep much these days
music arrivin without warnin
midnight melodies spinnin circles in my mind
fingers twitch tied to strings
ivory key puppeteer beckonin me
down the...
nightmares wait patiently
crouched in the corners of sleep
where I’m small again
beneath thunderous rage
cowerin from the shadow
that swallows everythin I am
I wake chokin on panic
that I’ve spent years swallowin down
heart thrashin in my chest
as terror outlasts my dreams
I don’t sleep much these days
music arrivin without warnin
midnight melodies spinnin circles in my mind
fingers twitch tied to strings
ivory key puppeteer beckonin me
down the...
#StreamOfConsciousness
84 reads
6 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
1st Apr 2025 7:27am
1st Apr 2025 7:27am
owned
#dirty
#lover
#lust
#sex
#temptation
387 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Mar 2025 7:52pm
30th Mar 2025 7:52pm
mind your business
don’t try to fix me
look closer instead
at how these fractures catch light
in ways you can’t understand
transformin what you call brokenness
into somethin savage and luminous
I've watched your fingers
hover above my splintered edges
itchin to press them back together
as if I were shattered glass
waitin for your gentle restoration
who the hell told you I needed savin?
who gave you fuckin permission
to name what pulses thru my veins
to try to tame what rages in my mind?
your presence often...
look closer instead
at how these fractures catch light
in ways you can’t understand
transformin what you call brokenness
into somethin savage and luminous
I've watched your fingers
hover above my splintered edges
itchin to press them back together
as if I were shattered glass
waitin for your gentle restoration
who the hell told you I needed savin?
who gave you fuckin permission
to name what pulses thru my veins
to try to tame what rages in my mind?
your presence often...
#anger
98 reads
8 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
30th Mar 2025 3:08pm
30th Mar 2025 3:08pm
death’s siren call
follow me…I know a place
where we can be alone”
your winter breath against my ear
fingertips tracin the hollow of my throat
a trail of promise to fulfill my need
your lips hover near mine almost grazin
electric charge of unmet desire
causin my body to strain towards yours
while you leave me suspended in longin
your touch like ice across my skin
movin with deliberate slowness
palm restin on my chest
your pressure makin me yearn for stillness
my heart falterin beneath your cold caress
I’ve poured myself...
where we can be alone”
your winter breath against my ear
fingertips tracin the hollow of my throat
a trail of promise to fulfill my need
your lips hover near mine almost grazin
electric charge of unmet desire
causin my body to strain towards yours
while you leave me suspended in longin
your touch like ice across my skin
movin with deliberate slowness
palm restin on my chest
your pressure makin me yearn for stillness
my heart falterin beneath your cold caress
I’ve poured myself...
#death
#lover
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Mar 2025 4:59pm
27th Mar 2025 4:59pm
feedin the beast
shadows crawl beneath my skin
hunger prowlin behind my eyes
rampagin thru memories
reflectin pieces of who I was
he leans in with words like sandpaper
scrapin against my edges
pressin closer than this friendship allows
wearin down my last defense
sleepless nights breed bitter whispers
accountability’s weight is too heavy
causin my silence to grow teeth
animalistic and defensive
vengeance eruptin thru my veins
draggin her body between us
droppin my memories of her at his feet
pointin out the...
hunger prowlin behind my eyes
rampagin thru memories
reflectin pieces of who I was
he leans in with words like sandpaper
scrapin against my edges
pressin closer than this friendship allows
wearin down my last defense
sleepless nights breed bitter whispers
accountability’s weight is too heavy
causin my silence to grow teeth
animalistic and defensive
vengeance eruptin thru my veins
draggin her body between us
droppin my memories of her at his feet
pointin out the...
#anger
#friendship
#regret
97 reads
11 Comments
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