Submissions by Addi82 (Addi)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I have been writing as long as i can remember. Most of the time it is the only way i can express myself. Its a form of therapy for me.
SELF POEM
Published
20th Dec 2019 1:44am
20th Dec 2019 1:44am
Work in Progress
What can I say?
I've made a million mistakes,
I always mess up at the end of the day.
Wish I could just give in
let whatever be just be,
but I will fight until the end.
No.. I'm not perfect.
From it, I'm a far cry,
at times I'm a junkie and always an addict.
I'm a procrastinator.
I'm never on time,
I'm a shit starter and an instigator.
I'm antisocial at best.
I love my people,
but feel like fuck the rest!
I can't hold a conversation.
I wanna open up,
but scared of any new relations.
I'm still a work in...
I've made a million mistakes,
I always mess up at the end of the day.
Wish I could just give in
let whatever be just be,
but I will fight until the end.
No.. I'm not perfect.
From it, I'm a far cry,
at times I'm a junkie and always an addict.
I'm a procrastinator.
I'm never on time,
I'm a shit starter and an instigator.
I'm antisocial at best.
I love my people,
but feel like fuck the rest!
I can't hold a conversation.
I wanna open up,
but scared of any new relations.
I'm still a work in...
#strength
#hope
#motivational
#inspirational
#redemption
439 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Dec 2019 00:41am
12th Dec 2019 00:41am
woe is me
i hate to always be
down in the dumps, feeling sad
looking like woe is me
instead i just force a grin
keep it plastered on my face
til maybe one day it will be real again
but on the inside
there's so much pain
at times its hard to hide
a pillar of strength
is what they say i am
they must be on a different wavelength
cause its all a lie
i'm broken and weak
i hurt and yes, i cry
i do it in the dark
behind closed doors
to hide whats really in my heart
a tear in solitude ...
down in the dumps, feeling sad
looking like woe is me
instead i just force a grin
keep it plastered on my face
til maybe one day it will be real again
but on the inside
there's so much pain
at times its hard to hide
a pillar of strength
is what they say i am
they must be on a different wavelength
cause its all a lie
i'm broken and weak
i hurt and yes, i cry
i do it in the dark
behind closed doors
to hide whats really in my heart
a tear in solitude ...
#heartbroken
#confusion
#despair #emptiness
#despair #emptiness
591 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2019 6:43am
23rd Nov 2019 6:43am
numb
here I go again
making a fool of myself
eyes drooping, words slurring
everyone knows what I am
I'm so high though
I just don't give a damn
liquor, uppers, weeds or pills
makes no difference to me
only care how they make me feel
distant and cold
void and cold-hearted
I started young but now I'm old
me and my high have never parted
I sit here comfortably numb
wondering if it matters
pondering life and looking dumb
constant failures. one after another
maybe I will reach out for help
maybe...
making a fool of myself
eyes drooping, words slurring
everyone knows what I am
I'm so high though
I just don't give a damn
liquor, uppers, weeds or pills
makes no difference to me
only care how they make me feel
distant and cold
void and cold-hearted
I started young but now I'm old
me and my high have never parted
I sit here comfortably numb
wondering if it matters
pondering life and looking dumb
constant failures. one after another
maybe I will reach out for help
maybe...
#shame
#emptiness
692 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2019 6:37am
23rd Nov 2019 6:37am
used and using
I'm losing patience fast
sick of coming in second place
tired of being chosen last
is there something wrong with me
what seems to be the problem
what could it be
everyone wants me
but only for one night
then Im left sad and lonely
They only love me for my sex
use me up
then move on to the next
is it something i say
or maybe something i do
i am me, i can be no other way
do i need to lose weight
am i just not pretty enough
am i too old, is it too late
should i just give...
sick of coming in second place
tired of being chosen last
is there something wrong with me
what seems to be the problem
what could it be
everyone wants me
but only for one night
then Im left sad and lonely
They only love me for my sex
use me up
then move on to the next
is it something i say
or maybe something i do
i am me, i can be no other way
do i need to lose weight
am i just not pretty enough
am i too old, is it too late
should i just give...
#loneliness
431 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Sep 2019 2:08pm
23rd Sep 2019 2:08pm
Finally Free
Today the sun shone once again
I can finally breathe
and let the next chapter begin
I don't feel that dull ache
The one I felt in my chest
since you caused my heart to break
I surprised myself when I smiled today
not the fake one I force & keep plastered on
but a genuine one, that's here to stay
I felt true joy and excitement
Forgot all about you
I actually felt somewhat content
I know I will be ok,
I am going to make it
I was not sure of that until today
Who knew this heart could heal
I once again have hope ...
I can finally breathe
and let the next chapter begin
I don't feel that dull ache
The one I felt in my chest
since you caused my heart to break
I surprised myself when I smiled today
not the fake one I force & keep plastered on
but a genuine one, that's here to stay
I felt true joy and excitement
Forgot all about you
I actually felt somewhat content
I know I will be ok,
I am going to make it
I was not sure of that until today
Who knew this heart could heal
I once again have hope ...
#TimeHeals
#MovingOn
#disappointment #separation
#disappointment #separation
721 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
21st Sep 2019 10:28pm
21st Sep 2019 10:28pm
Take Me Home
Is that you, my dear?
My sweet angel of death?
Goosebumps start to rise as you draw near,
so close I can feel the warmth of your breath!
Is it my time?
has it finally begun?
I will not fight you,
for you have already won!
I will not beg,
nor will I plead!
I only ask for your mercy,
as you do the deed.
I will abide,
and give you sweet surrender.
Wrap me in your arms so tight,
embrace me ever so tender.
I can imagine my smile as I slip under
I have waited so long
for your eternal slumber.
Please...
My sweet angel of death?
Goosebumps start to rise as you draw near,
so close I can feel the warmth of your breath!
Is it my time?
has it finally begun?
I will not fight you,
for you have already won!
I will not beg,
nor will I plead!
I only ask for your mercy,
as you do the deed.
I will abide,
and give you sweet surrender.
Wrap me in your arms so tight,
embrace me ever so tender.
I can imagine my smile as I slip under
I have waited so long
for your eternal slumber.
Please...
#sadness
#loneliness
#heartbroken #despair
#heartbroken #despair
578 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
21st Sep 2019 8:53am
21st Sep 2019 8:53am
My isolation
I hear them so clearly,
the voices are never-ending!
They are so hateful,
always condescending.
Are they telling the truth,
are they even real?
To me they are,
and the way they make me feel!
Am I crazy,
plum damn insane?
They want me to suffer,
to cause me pain!
All alone in my room,
I sit and I cry.
Pleading with God,
to make it stop or just let me die!
No one ever Knows,
cause I keep a smile on my face.
But I suffer alone,
trapped in this dark miserable place.
Who do I turn to,
when...
the voices are never-ending!
They are so hateful,
always condescending.
Are they telling the truth,
are they even real?
To me they are,
and the way they make me feel!
Am I crazy,
plum damn insane?
They want me to suffer,
to cause me pain!
All alone in my room,
I sit and I cry.
Pleading with God,
to make it stop or just let me die!
No one ever Knows,
cause I keep a smile on my face.
But I suffer alone,
trapped in this dark miserable place.
Who do I turn to,
when...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness #emptiness
#loneliness #emptiness
717 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Sep 2019 7:24am
7th Sep 2019 7:24am
my wrath
You don't know what i will do
Maybe you think I'm incapable
You just have no clue
I'm more than willing and able
To release my wrath
Rain down some horror
Some real fire n brimstone type shit
Like Sodom and Gomorrah
Who do you think you are
Treating me this way
You finally pushed me too far
I think I may snap
Finally do something foolish
Like lure you into a trap
Then cause you such pain
Teach you a lesson
So you never hurt me like this again
Make you sorry for your neglect
Listen as you cry out for...
Maybe you think I'm incapable
You just have no clue
I'm more than willing and able
To release my wrath
Rain down some horror
Some real fire n brimstone type shit
Like Sodom and Gomorrah
Who do you think you are
Treating me this way
You finally pushed me too far
I think I may snap
Finally do something foolish
Like lure you into a trap
Then cause you such pain
Teach you a lesson
So you never hurt me like this again
Make you sorry for your neglect
Listen as you cry out for...
#sadness
#anger
#heartbroken
#betrayal
#revenge
460 reads
0 Comments
SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
2nd Sep 2019 6:49pm
2nd Sep 2019 6:49pm
My lovely Darkness
My lovely darkness
Tis the witching hours,
dark and full of gloom.
They call to me,
like the full moon.
Devils dancing in the penumbrae,
a feeling of comfort that pleads me to stay.
Night is the only time i am free
to let my demons out,
show the real me
Come dance round the fire.
Come as u are
no need for fancy attire.
Let the dark consume,
lifting your spirit,
lifting your broom.
Speaking in rhyme.
Calling out for help,
bending and stopping time.
Chanting our way into obscurity. ...
Tis the witching hours,
dark and full of gloom.
They call to me,
like the full moon.
Devils dancing in the penumbrae,
a feeling of comfort that pleads me to stay.
Night is the only time i am free
to let my demons out,
show the real me
Come dance round the fire.
Come as u are
no need for fancy attire.
Let the dark consume,
lifting your spirit,
lifting your broom.
Speaking in rhyme.
Calling out for help,
bending and stopping time.
Chanting our way into obscurity. ...
#spiritual
#pagan
#redemption #magic
#redemption #magic
619 reads
6 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Sep 2019 2:23am
2nd Sep 2019 2:23am
Sounds of Summer
I sit and reminisce
of all the memories made,
in a state of sorrow
as summer starts to fade.
So many things I'm going to miss
I don't know where to begin,
it's a few short month of happiness
that i wish would never end.
It has its own rhythm
its own kind of beat,
the sound of children laughing
running in their bare feet.
Shorts so short
tan skins all aglow,
its the season of sin
in case you didn't know.
The heat consumes you
u lose all inhibitions,
on a blanket under the stars
with...
of all the memories made,
in a state of sorrow
as summer starts to fade.
So many things I'm going to miss
I don't know where to begin,
it's a few short month of happiness
that i wish would never end.
It has its own rhythm
its own kind of beat,
the sound of children laughing
running in their bare feet.
Shorts so short
tan skins all aglow,
its the season of sin
in case you didn't know.
The heat consumes you
u lose all inhibitions,
on a blanket under the stars
with...
#summer
581 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
1st Sep 2019 8:37pm
1st Sep 2019 8:37pm
incapable
Sick n tired of ur bullshit.
I've tried n tried,
but god damn i just wanna quit.
Finally give up.
Throw in the towel,
no longer give a fuck.
There was a time i thought you were sent from above.
Really your straight outta hell,
incapable of appreciating real love.
You tore me apart.
Left me in pieces,
destroyed my heart.
Where are my emotions?
I'm in a state of confusion,
feel like I'm just floatin.
I don"t really care anymore,
Live or die, whatever,
as long as I'm not one of your whores!
Fuck this, fuck...
I've tried n tried,
but god damn i just wanna quit.
Finally give up.
Throw in the towel,
no longer give a fuck.
There was a time i thought you were sent from above.
Really your straight outta hell,
incapable of appreciating real love.
You tore me apart.
Left me in pieces,
destroyed my heart.
Where are my emotions?
I'm in a state of confusion,
feel like I'm just floatin.
I don"t really care anymore,
Live or die, whatever,
as long as I'm not one of your whores!
Fuck this, fuck...
#sadness
#heartbroken
#lies
#betrayal
#disappointment
743 reads
7 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Aug 2019 8:21pm
9th Aug 2019 8:21pm
contradictions
Forever was a lie
Yet I believed it when u spoke
when I looked into your eyes
I missed that something u were trying to hide
I neglected to see that you're full of arrogance self riotousness and pride
yet still I welcomed your invasion
my soul and my body
accepted u on every occasion
why must I seek acceptance
why can't I just be alone
I'm stuck in this state of ambivalence
no one should have this power
my soul was up for the taking
I left it out for u to devour
try as I may, try as I might
this is a...
Yet I believed it when u spoke
when I looked into your eyes
I missed that something u were trying to hide
I neglected to see that you're full of arrogance self riotousness and pride
yet still I welcomed your invasion
my soul and my body
accepted u on every occasion
why must I seek acceptance
why can't I just be alone
I'm stuck in this state of ambivalence
no one should have this power
my soul was up for the taking
I left it out for u to devour
try as I may, try as I might
this is a...
#love
#boyfriend
679 reads
2 Comments
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