Very first love

My Beautiful Surprise

The last thing I expected
was to find a man like you.
But here you are,
sharing life with me,
waking up my heart
with your sweetness,
filling my world
with a love more tender
than I ever dreamed of.

Being with you brings
a sense of contentment
that only you can give.
And in return, all I can do
is promise to love you -
with all my heart,
the best way I can.

~For my first and only love ... Anthony <3

The first time that I fell in love
Was the only time; he was sent from above
Tall, quiet, with kissable lips
I was hooked from the moment he swung his hips

Proud to be by his side
I was in for the long ride
And I enjoyed every second of it
From the first look to the last minute

I didn’t realize what was happening at first or that it was because
He had asked his cousin who the brown-haired cutie was
His long beard was curly, soft, and shiny
He walked with a stride and could wiggle his flat hiney

After sitting a while, and giving me a wink
He moved right in; I didn’t have time to blink
Took me home, picked me up, and he sunk right in
The whole time that we were together, I was in heaven

Never having a steady beau before, he showered me with love
And gifts galore, artfully wrapped with a paper dove
Oh how I missed it when he left for work every day
But he left me his truck and gave me his pay

Brought him home to the family; my mother was smitten
She knew why I’d been hit by his charm, and was equally bitten
He was handsome, a smooth talker, and quite a bit older
While I was loud and out of control, a bit loose, bolder

Loving, he would wrap his entire self around me to calm me down
And I sank into his spell whenever he was around
We were great together, until people started to realize
That he was not the kind to settle down, and then, they told me, he shared his love like a prize

“I’m a lover, not a fighter” was his mantra back in those days
Eventually, he left, me and my life, with a quiet poof of haze
I cried for months, moved back home, an emotional wreck
I couldn’t eat, watched for his truck to come, every day, as I sat on the deck

We would never see each other again, though we lived minutes away
Never even a peek or a stare from afar; it was like it was meant that way, each every day
Keeping me from him, was better and I knew it, because of how much I hurt
And also by how long it took me to recover and rise up from under the dirt

Decades later, when I found out that he was dying
I decided to contact him; I’d give it my all, I decided, trying
We talked on the phone, but the drugs and a brain tumor kept him from remembering
His voice soft and familiar, I wanted to run to him; I was trembling

“Let’s meet, I loved you too, cutie, tell me the place…” he said sweetly from his bed
I knew he was playing with me, had IVs in his arms, and was being kept quiet waiting for the end
I so wanted to comfort him and return the feelings
I knew it was not meant to be and that I would soon be left reeling

I told him how much he broke my heart
And not to worry, that I’d found another in the years we’d been apart
I thanked him for the time that we had together; the call was short, brief, and sweet
I told him that I’d call back, with the time to meet, secretly fearing that he would be dead within days, I knew that we’d never meet

It took me a long time to move forward
My heart he took once again, and forever, he stole it like no one again had
The only time that I fell in love
Was the first time; he was sent from and returned to above

Duplicate, my mistake

~my love or my lover~

His name Caleb
The way he took my love
my heart
now we are so far apart
he didnt do anything
A text here a text there
i was in love
I have never been
So now I lay down
With him right there
next to me
And I wonder
Was this my very first love
or just a person...
I made love to