The end

deep blue nothing
an astral symphony awaits me
the one man vessel had only enough fuel to get to the end
always new it was a one way ride anyway
i need no parachute
no last kiss or floral arrangements
no hovering or handing handkerchiefs
i spent the majority of my time in solitude
attempting to dispell sarcastic slander
why the fuck would people act like they give a shit now?
people don't pay respects at funerals
they tender each other's egos trying to sugarcoat how much shit they talked and how much of an asshole they were when you were still alive
nothing like a good coffin showing to bring the universally self absorbed out of the woodwork

I see myself covered in iris and roses
A thousand tears as the casket closes
A blue sky under a brilliant Sun
Nothing but praise knowing I have burned no one
Angels visible to the mortal eye
I become immortal as they all wave goodbye
I smile ascending into the unknown
Oceans of flowers from the seeds I have sewn
A soft breeze carries the scent of the Jasmine
Stories about the places I've been
The people I love
I watch now and guide as I look from above
MY life was too brief as is all of ours
Think of me when you look to the stars
And though I'm not with you we will never part
As I fall from the grace of a congestive heart

The blade is close
to coming in contact with
My already scarred skin
The trigger is close
to being pressed
And blowing out my brains
A smoke here and there
No one sees
No one caress
All that will be left of me
Is judgmental memories
A hole in the ground
With a tombstone above
Simply saying
A deserved death
Will anyone save me
From my worst enemy
A creature so cruel
A creature so mean
A creature that's name is
And always will be-
Me

Written by N.G

Being At The Wrong Place At The Wrong Time Turned Out For The Best

Oh the agony of it all
The final curtain call
There's no applause
Time just paused
For a brief second

I gasp for air
I wasn't prepared
To meet my demise
Flashing before my eyes
Moments of my life

Adulthood and teen years
Graduating amongst my peers
Even far back as the womb
Now I'll be resting in a tomb
Where I'll spend eternity

Dawn to sunset
My shirt dripping wet
With bloodstains galore
Such gruesome gore
Caused by a flying bullet

For me it wasn't meant
It was all just an accident
I wasn't the target
My spirit feels departed
Seperated from my vessel

I drop to my knees
Someone help me please
Quick dial 9-1-1
He fired a gun
I'm shot in my lung

My chest is smoking
My eyes are closing
Or is everything going black?
Wait come back
Don't leave me here to die

Tears start to stream
Feels too real to be a dream
Can't awake from this nightmare
I'm rapidly losing air
Get me to a hospital

Paramedics arrive
Trying to revive
Me from the brink
I can't even blink
Frozen by death's touch

I'm slipping deeper
I see the Grim Reaper
And the Crypt Keeper
Fighting with Saint Peter
For custody of my soul

I'm hearing bells
Fiery pits of hell
Or the golden gates
Which is my fate?
Worried about the outcome

From dark to luminescent
So I'm guessing
I'm dead right about now
This is heaven wow!
Free at last