Best friends for never

It seems like
Hell exists
Without you this
Could never cause my bitterness
To burn brighter than a dark red glow

I want to go down to the lake
And pretend that we're still friends
I know you don't really like me being around
Because of my annoyance

I miss the
Good old days
When we were young
Talking bout girls
And trying to get drunk
I just wish things could be the same

But life's like a fragile glass
You keep pushing me away
And I wanna get smashed
I want to know why you're being such an ass

What did I do to deserve this
3 more months I'm still worthless
I feel like you don't miss me
It really hurts
Shit

There I go once again
Feeling sorry for myself for not having friends
I wish that this were a dream
Or at least pretend

But now its clear to me
That you can't be
A better friend to me
Even though I've always been by your side.