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Using this as a soundoff
Totally lost my shit recently
Was institutionalized
Took too many bars
Just wanted to feel nothing
Writing has always come from a dark place
No happy endings here
Trying to document my journey
Back to feeling
Maybe I want too much. Maybe I'm too hopeful. I believe that there is still so so much good in the world. I believe we are imperfect. I myself am made of flaws entirely. I think all the time, Even more than I talk. I talk too much, or not enough. I talk about things nobody cares about except for me. I don't always say the right things. I'm weird and I'm awkward. I'm too honest, and I'm too passionate. Im never have good timing. I could've prevented horrible things that happened. I shouldn't even be alive today. I regret things that happened more often than not. I made bad choices, again, more often than not.
But I certainly do care. I care more about certain things, and more importantly, certain people in just one moment than most people will in a lifetime. I will walk, more than to the ends of the earth, I would make the trek a thousand times over for those who are loyal to me and who show me that they are worth it. I care about birthdays, and successes, wins and losses, no matter how small. I care about small victories, and I'll be there for large or small losses. I care about how somebody's day went. I care about what they think about everything, no matter how small or how big. I care about everything they think or believe, whether I agree or disagree with it; because all of this makes up the person I care about.
All I ask in return, is that those people show me that they prize me half as much as a prize them. I dont ask much. I ask for affection now and then. I ask for effort to know that I matter, And I ask to have unwavering honesty; without lies or deceit.
I just want to know, to be shown, that at the end of the day, the people I care about, care about me too.
Because even though every day I think about giving up, I don't, and I just don't want to be given up on, even though just about everything about me is all wrong.
Totally lost my shit recently
Was institutionalized
Took too many bars
Just wanted to feel nothing
Writing has always come from a dark place
No happy endings here
Trying to document my journey
Back to feeling
Maybe I want too much. Maybe I'm too hopeful. I believe that there is still so so much good in the world. I believe we are imperfect. I myself am made of flaws entirely. I think all the time, Even more than I talk. I talk too much, or not enough. I talk about things nobody cares about except for me. I don't always say the right things. I'm weird and I'm awkward. I'm too honest, and I'm too passionate. Im never have good timing. I could've prevented horrible things that happened. I shouldn't even be alive today. I regret things that happened more often than not. I made bad choices, again, more often than not.
But I certainly do care. I care more about certain things, and more importantly, certain people in just one moment than most people will in a lifetime. I will walk, more than to the ends of the earth, I would make the trek a thousand times over for those who are loyal to me and who show me that they are worth it. I care about birthdays, and successes, wins and losses, no matter how small. I care about small victories, and I'll be there for large or small losses. I care about how somebody's day went. I care about what they think about everything, no matter how small or how big. I care about everything they think or believe, whether I agree or disagree with it; because all of this makes up the person I care about.
All I ask in return, is that those people show me that they prize me half as much as a prize them. I dont ask much. I ask for affection now and then. I ask for effort to know that I matter, And I ask to have unwavering honesty; without lies or deceit.
I just want to know, to be shown, that at the end of the day, the people I care about, care about me too.
Because even though every day I think about giving up, I don't, and I just don't want to be given up on, even though just about everything about me is all wrong.
Alxh07
Strange Creature