Long Poems About Insomnia
#insomnia
LONG NIGHT EMPTY DREAMTIME SONGS (5-28-2001, 4:00am; Galveston Island Texas)
drifting
detached
adrift afloat again
neither awake nor sleeping
waiting through this
long night empty
for deeper restful sleep
to come
yet beyond behind
this late night s buzzing silence
still echoing through my head
some distant siren
faintly stirs
somewhere out there in the darkness
near night s whispering
ghostly brink
deep within beyond
my present hypnogogic state s
stuck in neutral
empty nothing
when suddenly
some remote inner beacon s
pin point spark...
detached
adrift afloat again
neither awake nor sleeping
waiting through this
long night empty
for deeper restful sleep
to come
yet beyond behind
this late night s buzzing silence
still echoing through my head
some distant siren
faintly stirs
somewhere out there in the darkness
near night s whispering
ghostly brink
deep within beyond
my present hypnogogic state s
stuck in neutral
empty nothing
when suddenly
some remote inner beacon s
pin point spark...
#night
#LifeAsAWriter
#insomnia
#WritingPoetry
#SelfReflection
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Insomnia
Today is day three of restless, sleepless nights
I’ve called out of work, can’t focus, called out twice
I’ve taken my pills, but they don’t help me sleep
I’m tossing in bed, now I’m starting to weep
I’m crying and shaking, I sit down outside
Can’t control my emotions, I’m empty inside
I feel like I’m lonely, feel sad and depressed
No sleep isn’t helping, it’s all ’cause of stress
But there’s nothing in life that’s bothering me
I don’t care about me, hold my breath, count to three
I don’t care that you left, you are better off now ...
I’ve called out of work, can’t focus, called out twice
I’ve taken my pills, but they don’t help me sleep
I’m tossing in bed, now I’m starting to weep
I’m crying and shaking, I sit down outside
Can’t control my emotions, I’m empty inside
I feel like I’m lonely, feel sad and depressed
No sleep isn’t helping, it’s all ’cause of stress
But there’s nothing in life that’s bothering me
I don’t care about me, hold my breath, count to three
I don’t care that you left, you are better off now ...
#depression
#alcohol
#insomnia
#addiction
#MentalHealth
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Restless
..The brush of your cheek
You stiffening against me
...You asleep on the floor
But not really
But I pretended with you
Baby
I know you remember
Slid my hand up your thigh
To wake you
Slow
Tender
A feigned arousal
'Hey
Sleep on the couch
It's more comfortable'
All day, working on this house
The attic heat
Is a right
Tight pit
"Hell"
Written on a piece of wood
Inside of it
All those weeks
You watched me
You didn't...
You stiffening against me
...You asleep on the floor
But not really
But I pretended with you
Baby
I know you remember
Slid my hand up your thigh
To wake you
Slow
Tender
A feigned arousal
'Hey
Sleep on the couch
It's more comfortable'
All day, working on this house
The attic heat
Is a right
Tight pit
"Hell"
Written on a piece of wood
Inside of it
All those weeks
You watched me
You didn't...
#love
#insomnia
#FallingInLove
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Insomnia
Today is day three, of restless, sleepless nights
I’ve called out of work, can’t focus, called out twice
I’ve taken my pills, but they don’t help me sleep
I’m tossing in bed, now I’m starting to weep
I’m crying and shaking, I sit down outside
Can’t control my emotions, I’m empty inside
I feel like I’m lonely, feel sad and depressed
No sleep isn’t helping, it’s all ’cause of stress
But there’s nothing in life, that’s bothering me
I don’t care...
I’ve called out of work, can’t focus, called out twice
I’ve taken my pills, but they don’t help me sleep
I’m tossing in bed, now I’m starting to weep
I’m crying and shaking, I sit down outside
Can’t control my emotions, I’m empty inside
I feel like I’m lonely, feel sad and depressed
No sleep isn’t helping, it’s all ’cause of stress
But there’s nothing in life, that’s bothering me
I don’t care...
#depression
#dark
#alcohol
#insomnia
#MentalHealth
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darkness breeds creativity
I can never tell when someone is joking
Especially if I haven't known them for long
Or if we don’t hang out a lot
It’s especially hard to know when they’re poking fun over the phone
If I can’t see their faces how will I ever know if they’re being serious or not?
I use the word stupid a lot
Maybe I'm just self projecting?
Maybe I'm not?
Stupid isn’t the only word I would use to describe myself
But it also wouldn’t be the word I would think of last
Flamboyant, bubbly,...
Especially if I haven't known them for long
Or if we don’t hang out a lot
It’s especially hard to know when they’re poking fun over the phone
If I can’t see their faces how will I ever know if they’re being serious or not?
I use the word stupid a lot
Maybe I'm just self projecting?
Maybe I'm not?
Stupid isn’t the only word I would use to describe myself
But it also wouldn’t be the word I would think of last
Flamboyant, bubbly,...
#LifeAsAWriter
#insomnia
#MyInspiration
#despair
#nightmares
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TOOTHLESS GATOR DANCE (10-14-2021, 12:00am, Palm Springs, California)
with my useless
post op
right arm
bound up
in this sling
for at least
another month
here at
the end
of another long day
as exhausted
as i am
so ready for bed
i still have
one more last
struggle ahead
before i can
for the usually
quick simple act
of getting out
of my pants
has recently become
a considerably
more daunting...
post op
right arm
bound up
in this sling
for at least
another month
here at
the end
of another long day
as exhausted
as i am
so ready for bed
i still have
one more last
struggle ahead
before i can
for the usually
quick simple act
of getting out
of my pants
has recently become
a considerably
more daunting...
#night
#monsters
#insomnia
#illness
#weakness
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sleep deprivation
Why do floorboards creak?
I know I can just google it, but I actually don't care
It's just a question I ask myself when it's 3 am and I go to the kitchen to eat peanut butter with jam
Sometimes I eat it with a spoon and sometimes with bread
I don't know why I do it. Probably because I can
I'm not scared of the dark or the things that lurk inside but sometimes when I lay in bed I feel like I'm being watched by a man
I'm not scared of the dark but I guess that sometimes I am
Why does time...
I know I can just google it, but I actually don't care
It's just a question I ask myself when it's 3 am and I go to the kitchen to eat peanut butter with jam
Sometimes I eat it with a spoon and sometimes with bread
I don't know why I do it. Probably because I can
I'm not scared of the dark or the things that lurk inside but sometimes when I lay in bed I feel like I'm being watched by a man
I'm not scared of the dark but I guess that sometimes I am
Why does time...
#suicide
#insomnia
#suffering
#nightmares
#FeelingTrapped
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If then I only knew what I now know, I'd said NO.
Around and around and down I go
When will I stop when I'm in the ground I'll know
It was never ours to begin with to hoard and withhold
Render unto Caesar what is Caesar's it is owed
Now within my own explosion I am ready to implode
As I think of all the spending spent with not a rod dam thing to show
Once you've bought it you're sold
Getting it back will take years more than four score
and cost more than seventy eleven fold
Slow is the hole made in your soul
there goes your whole glow
Wages paid promptly with dues in delinquency still...
When will I stop when I'm in the ground I'll know
It was never ours to begin with to hoard and withhold
Render unto Caesar what is Caesar's it is owed
Now within my own explosion I am ready to implode
As I think of all the spending spent with not a rod dam thing to show
Once you've bought it you're sold
Getting it back will take years more than four score
and cost more than seventy eleven fold
Slow is the hole made in your soul
there goes your whole glow
Wages paid promptly with dues in delinquency still...
#hope
#insomnia
#addiction
#meditation
#hurt
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streaming a blink of insomnia's consciousness.
did I set the alarm?
why wasn't I honest ?
i shoulda peed.
my whole body is sore.
::cramps::
i need to check the renter's insurance.
that was some ridiculously hot reading.
why didn't I get a text?
where is my patience?
my ass is too fat
::pillow flip::
Ahh cold pillow.
I hate Guy Fieri.
I'm hungry.
I wish I had fries or dark chocolate?
Both.
Fuck!
Repeat, my ass is too fat
I hope Biden kicks ass. ...
why wasn't I honest ?
i shoulda peed.
my whole body is sore.
::cramps::
i need to check the renter's insurance.
that was some ridiculously hot reading.
why didn't I get a text?
where is my patience?
my ass is too fat
::pillow flip::
Ahh cold pillow.
I hate Guy Fieri.
I'm hungry.
I wish I had fries or dark chocolate?
Both.
Fuck!
Repeat, my ass is too fat
I hope Biden kicks ass. ...
#insomnia
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RECURRENT NOXIOUS FLOWERS OF DESPAIR (9-1-1996, Galveston Island, Texas)
an atomic implosion
abruptly
bloomed forth
in the dark
pit
of all my
too long suppressed
subconscious
collective despair
effectively turning me
inside out
completely abandoned
alone and lost
in the suddenly
realized
no longer hidden
inner horrors
of my own
accumulatively inverted
now exposed
man made
now seemingly manifest
synaptically challenged
pseudo insanity ...
abruptly
bloomed forth
in the dark
pit
of all my
too long suppressed
subconscious
collective despair
effectively turning me
inside out
completely abandoned
alone and lost
in the suddenly
realized
no longer hidden
inner horrors
of my own
accumulatively inverted
now exposed
man made
now seemingly manifest
synaptically challenged
pseudo insanity ...
#anxiety
#insomnia
#illness
#MentalHealth
#disability
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Insomniac Mantra
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may...
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may i once again sleep.
Lord, may...
#dreams
#insomnia
#sleep
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Ode To The Over Thinking Insomniaddict
One-sheep-two-sheep-three sheet whore
Black sheep-lost sheep-six feet no more
It's highly pastime to cast away stones
So a hardened heart will soften
If we let bygones be gone bye bye Just a tad little bit more often
Found left alone in my own wake
At my own wake
Waking up coughing in my coffin
So that's the bed I got to lie in
A dirt nap is what their talking
Well I ain't made that flower bed yet
For now I'm just a dead man sleepwalking
Shadowy shapeless sights by candle the light
From the wax and the wick is relentless like...
Black sheep-lost sheep-six feet no more
It's highly pastime to cast away stones
So a hardened heart will soften
If we let bygones be gone bye bye Just a tad little bit more often
Found left alone in my own wake
At my own wake
Waking up coughing in my coffin
So that's the bed I got to lie in
A dirt nap is what their talking
Well I ain't made that flower bed yet
For now I'm just a dead man sleepwalking
Shadowy shapeless sights by candle the light
From the wax and the wick is relentless like...
#regret
#heartbroken
#insomnia
#addiction
#IMissYou
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