nightbirdblue
enbyblue
enbyblue
Poem Published
8th Apr 2024 7:04pm
8th Apr 2024 7:04pm
Uninspired
Today, I don’t feel like writing
because I feel like a ghost.
I’ve been floating around all day,
suspended in air as I haunt
the hallways with a hollow stare.
I’m frustrated with myself because
I haven’t been able to take care
of my fading mental health.
It feels like my legs are barely moving
and my feet are on wheels,
gliding over the floor with liquid motion.
I am permeable, one with the air around me.
Today’s theme song sounds like
yesterday’s news - overplayed,
understimulated, recycled...
because I feel like a ghost.
I’ve been floating around all day,
suspended in air as I haunt
the hallways with a hollow stare.
I’m frustrated with myself because
I haven’t been able to take care
of my fading mental health.
It feels like my legs are barely moving
and my feet are on wheels,
gliding over the floor with liquid motion.
I am permeable, one with the air around me.
Today’s theme song sounds like
yesterday’s news - overplayed,
understimulated, recycled...
#depression
#ghosts
#WritersBlock
#WritingPoetry
#NaPoWriMo2024
91 reads
12 Comments
cityoflullabies
Wrath
Wrath
Poem Published
7th Apr 2024 1:01am
7th Apr 2024 1:01am
My Name Is Acceptance
My name is Acceptance ; not as in tolerance ; not as in compassion ; not as in live and let live. Acceptance ; as in ; any breath could be the last and that's okay ; as in ; you're gone but I guess I'll make due ; acceptance ; as in ; tonight might be the night I drive my car directly into the ocean and make myself at home, I just haven't decided yet ; acceptance as in life can be defined as one crippling loss after another ; I cannot remember a time when I didn't wake up grieving
#depression
#grief
#death #suicide
#death #suicide
165 reads
1 Comment
aTones05
Poem Published
6th Apr 2024 6:56pm
6th Apr 2024 6:56pm
The Last Day
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
42 reads
2 Comments
tell_me_wy
Poem Published
6th Apr 2024 5:21am
6th Apr 2024 5:21am
Waste
I fell in
Again
Halfway down
A bottle of bliss
Wasted the day
And now I’m pissed
And all I hear
Inside my ear
Is the reprimand
For my error
And then I see
It so clear
Facing me
In the mirror
Again
Halfway down
A bottle of bliss
Wasted the day
And now I’m pissed
And all I hear
Inside my ear
Is the reprimand
For my error
And then I see
It so clear
Facing me
In the mirror
#depression
#regret
#alcohol #disappointment
#alcohol #disappointment
79 reads
4 Comments
Diaryofabasketcase
Poem Published
3rd Apr 2024 10:41pm
3rd Apr 2024 10:41pm
The Invisible Illness
The Invisible Illness
This illness, you can’t see it
You can’t feel it
You can’t tell
It’s chronic and it’s painful
And the truth is I’m not well
I have dark thoughts
A constant urge
To cry and beg forgiveness
But I have done no wrong you see
Depression is the illness
I don’t think that I deal well
Cause it won’t go away
The meds I take, they should sedate
Should make me wanna stay
Instead they cause a side effect
My outside it has changed
I’ve lost some hair
Have weight...
This illness, you can’t see it
You can’t feel it
You can’t tell
It’s chronic and it’s painful
And the truth is I’m not well
I have dark thoughts
A constant urge
To cry and beg forgiveness
But I have done no wrong you see
Depression is the illness
I don’t think that I deal well
Cause it won’t go away
The meds I take, they should sedate
Should make me wanna stay
Instead they cause a side effect
My outside it has changed
I’ve lost some hair
Have weight...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
#MentalHealth
#suffering
70 reads
5 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
3rd Apr 2024 5:08pm
3rd Apr 2024 5:08pm
Across Thin Ice
wake up
this heart attack
is on steroids
melancholy skips across thin ice
as paranoia's cocoon tightens
like a plastic bag over your face
mouth agape
desperately sucking for air
no sound of screaming
it's hard faking life
grasping all those hopes
while watching fingers lose grip
great falls always hurt
drowning inside questions
rolling among barbed wire
answers are never easy
burnt wings won't fly
lost angels collect ashes
leaving us charred souls behind
so nothing grows here ...
this heart attack
is on steroids
melancholy skips across thin ice
as paranoia's cocoon tightens
like a plastic bag over your face
mouth agape
desperately sucking for air
no sound of screaming
it's hard faking life
grasping all those hopes
while watching fingers lose grip
great falls always hurt
drowning inside questions
rolling among barbed wire
answers are never easy
burnt wings won't fly
lost angels collect ashes
leaving us charred souls behind
so nothing grows here ...
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth #NaPoWriMo2024
#MentalHealth #NaPoWriMo2024
66 reads
1 Comment
Diaryofabasketcase
Poem Published
2nd Apr 2024 5:35pm
2nd Apr 2024 5:35pm
A Little Bit Less
A Little Bit Less
I wish I weighed a little bit less
Then maybe I would see
It doesn’t matter what I weigh
It really won’t change me
There’s a notion in my mind
It would cure all of my woes
But you wouldn’t love me less
And you wouldn’t love me more
I wish I was a little less sad
That the tears would one day stop
The depression that takes over me
It controls my mind, my thoughts
I’m done looking for a reason
I just welcome it upon me
I’m used to it, my dark cloud
It’s become...
I wish I weighed a little bit less
Then maybe I would see
It doesn’t matter what I weigh
It really won’t change me
There’s a notion in my mind
It would cure all of my woes
But you wouldn’t love me less
And you wouldn’t love me more
I wish I was a little less sad
That the tears would one day stop
The depression that takes over me
It controls my mind, my thoughts
I’m done looking for a reason
I just welcome it upon me
I’m used to it, my dark cloud
It’s become...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
#shame
#MentalHealth
97 reads
2 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
2nd Apr 2024 9:59am
2nd Apr 2024 9:59am
Patchwork Saniry
lips sttched
together tightly
gloriously gagged
from speach
can no longer
vomit
sharp resolution
of darkness
its all a facade
i don't really
exist here
eeyes bulging
out sockets
hallucinations
finely tuned
screw slowly
turns tighter
worry knows
my frequency
that song plays
so violently
seems on
permanent repeat
name has been
taken again
identity worthless
digitally deleted
deflated like
useless currency
who's to blame ...
together tightly
gloriously gagged
from speach
can no longer
vomit
sharp resolution
of darkness
its all a facade
i don't really
exist here
eeyes bulging
out sockets
hallucinations
finely tuned
screw slowly
turns tighter
worry knows
my frequency
that song plays
so violently
seems on
permanent repeat
name has been
taken again
identity worthless
digitally deleted
deflated like
useless currency
who's to blame ...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#NaPoWriMo2024
71 reads
6 Comments
theblackbird
Poem Published
30th Mar 2024 3:29pm
30th Mar 2024 3:29pm
always was, always will be
It always was, it always will be.
Who am I now?
Much different than the girl
Back there?
Isn’t that part of the fear –
To find I’d barely changed, barely grown
Despite the years, and the tears –
Stagnant.
Dead at whatever.
Go back, Carole King,
Florence and The Machine - “how could anything bad ever happen to you?”
Indeed, Selene, what the fuck, Selene –
Baby Selene, Teen Selene and her
Florence and The Machine,
I’m so sorry, darling.
Twirl around in your dreams,...
Who am I now?
Much different than the girl
Back there?
Isn’t that part of the fear –
To find I’d barely changed, barely grown
Despite the years, and the tears –
Stagnant.
Dead at whatever.
Go back, Carole King,
Florence and The Machine - “how could anything bad ever happen to you?”
Indeed, Selene, what the fuck, Selene –
Baby Selene, Teen Selene and her
Florence and The Machine,
I’m so sorry, darling.
Twirl around in your dreams,...
#depression
#identity
#confessional
#memories
#SelfReflection
133 reads
7 Comments
scalesofascorpion
Poem Published
28th Mar 2024 12:07pm
28th Mar 2024 12:07pm
masquerade
nothing is ever what it seems
perception shifting reality
can I trust you with your back to me?
I refuse to look
once upon a time, I could close my eyes
and all the scary things were just inside a book
I lie awake at night with my chest so tight
I need to feel you breathing
I've been waiting my whole life
to feel those teeth sink into me
(sink into me)
I don't know that it will be alright
hold me close, show me your darkest side
(I want to see)
mesmerizing, you hypnotize me
I wish to follow where you...
perception shifting reality
can I trust you with your back to me?
I refuse to look
once upon a time, I could close my eyes
and all the scary things were just inside a book
I lie awake at night with my chest so tight
I need to feel you breathing
I've been waiting my whole life
to feel those teeth sink into me
(sink into me)
I don't know that it will be alright
hold me close, show me your darkest side
(I want to see)
mesmerizing, you hypnotize me
I wish to follow where you...
#anxiety
#depression
#healing #hurt
#healing #hurt
97 reads
0 Comments
scalesofascorpion
Poem Published
28th Mar 2024 11:54am
28th Mar 2024 11:54am
mirrors
pull me in, hallucination
I see you vividly in my dreams
much more than just imagination
you give me life, you make me weep
longing, I reach for nothing tangible
sorrowed lullabies swirl around my mind
I believe I know much more than planned
you're ruined like me
you are nothing and everything
the epitome of my desire
slip through the mirror with me
the ocean is not the deepest water
there's a grave in me and I think you know
that love is not the safest harbor
I believe you know much more than planned ...
I see you vividly in my dreams
much more than just imagination
you give me life, you make me weep
longing, I reach for nothing tangible
sorrowed lullabies swirl around my mind
I believe I know much more than planned
you're ruined like me
you are nothing and everything
the epitome of my desire
slip through the mirror with me
the ocean is not the deepest water
there's a grave in me and I think you know
that love is not the safest harbor
I believe you know much more than planned ...
#depression
#dark
#mirror
#misunderstood
#vulnerability
96 reads
0 Comments
Diaryofabasketcase
Poem Published
27th Mar 2024 10:32pm
27th Mar 2024 10:32pm
Reasons
A shot to clear my mind
A smoke to ease the thoughts
A thunderstorm surrounds me
Crying with me cause I’m lost
A prayer to give me hope
A meal to survive
A coffee that keeps me awake
To write my pain at night
A husband that I lean on
A child to make it clear
There’s more to life than I expect
Although at times not clear
A heart that is no longer mine
I had to give away
I know he would care for it more
Than I would anyway
A smile to mask the grieving
A laughter made of lies ...
A smoke to ease the thoughts
A thunderstorm surrounds me
Crying with me cause I’m lost
A prayer to give me hope
A meal to survive
A coffee that keeps me awake
To write my pain at night
A husband that I lean on
A child to make it clear
There’s more to life than I expect
Although at times not clear
A heart that is no longer mine
I had to give away
I know he would care for it more
Than I would anyway
A smile to mask the grieving
A laughter made of lies ...
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#emptiness
130 reads
0 Comments
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