The_Darkness_Insid
Poem Published
Yesterday 9:22pm
Yesterday 9:22pm
The Hate in the Darkness
When did I make this transition to a hater?
Dont know if I ever stopped to notice it before
But its clearly there lurking around in my mind
When I hear inspirational stories or read uplifting material
I feel animosity bubble up, like you would with a braggart
As if they're throwing it in my face how great their life is
Or how far they've come in their journey of betterment
Its like, yea fucking great for you. Im so happy for you
The power of positivity. The payoff of perseverence. ...
Dont know if I ever stopped to notice it before
But its clearly there lurking around in my mind
When I hear inspirational stories or read uplifting material
I feel animosity bubble up, like you would with a braggart
As if they're throwing it in my face how great their life is
Or how far they've come in their journey of betterment
Its like, yea fucking great for you. Im so happy for you
The power of positivity. The payoff of perseverence. ...
#confessional
#MentalHealth
#myself #secrets
#myself #secrets
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ClovenTongue34
Poem Published
11th Apr 2024 6:47am
11th Apr 2024 6:47am
My Heart Is A Bonfire
I voyage onward
Somewhere between the wreckage and the destination
Trying to decipher it all in the analytics of a fractured observation
Overshadowed by the light of days coinciding
The thunder of these moments, memories fighting
Trying to find my spotlight in the sun
Get me over my self
When the heart beat is heavy for ego driven reflections
In these broken record serenades of acceptance cravings for the damages of rejections
My thoughts betray me to heartache
Overdosing on overrated highs
There’s blood on my hands...
Somewhere between the wreckage and the destination
Trying to decipher it all in the analytics of a fractured observation
Overshadowed by the light of days coinciding
The thunder of these moments, memories fighting
Trying to find my spotlight in the sun
Get me over my self
When the heart beat is heavy for ego driven reflections
In these broken record serenades of acceptance cravings for the damages of rejections
My thoughts betray me to heartache
Overdosing on overrated highs
There’s blood on my hands...
#identity
#confessional
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
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Vision_of_insanity
Poem Published
9th Apr 2024 1:19pm
9th Apr 2024 1:19pm
The truth feels so f**king good
#women
#sex
#porn
#motivational
#confessional
154 reads
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
8th Apr 2024 4:01pm
8th Apr 2024 4:01pm
2 chonks & a granny
8 of 30
cat people tend to be the butt of jokes
you know the old saying...
...crazy cat lady...guilty as charged
let me tell you something though
these ladies saved me
when we entered isolation status
they were my only companions
my motivation to keep moving
Bella is the eldest...rolling into her 16th year
just starting to show signs of dementia
leaving the room & crying...as if to say
I can't remember where I left ya
she always calms when I call out
you'd never know it now...
but in her youth...
cat people tend to be the butt of jokes
you know the old saying...
...crazy cat lady...guilty as charged
let me tell you something though
these ladies saved me
when we entered isolation status
they were my only companions
my motivation to keep moving
Bella is the eldest...rolling into her 16th year
just starting to show signs of dementia
leaving the room & crying...as if to say
I can't remember where I left ya
she always calms when I call out
you'd never know it now...
but in her youth...
#cats
#confessional
#NaPoWriMo2024
79 reads
10 Comments
Vision_of_insanity
Poem Published
2nd Apr 2024 00:00am
2nd Apr 2024 00:00am
Confession
#wife
#murder
#confessional
73 reads
14 Comments
thepositivelydark
Poem Published
30th Mar 2024 6:18pm
30th Mar 2024 6:18pm
a case of you
The train has left –
The last clinks of our bottles of champagne,
Bottles of wine, still echoes in my head.
Like it was just last night,
Like the rest of the world wasn’t louder than
Whatever's in the godforsaken bubble.
It popped, like every bubble does.
Some might say it could just be my brain
Finally catching up
To whatever sickly, sickening throw-up of youth I had put on the pages,
Too young –
Too hungover
From the affections and attentions
And confections of a true blue connoisseur. ...
The last clinks of our bottles of champagne,
Bottles of wine, still echoes in my head.
Like it was just last night,
Like the rest of the world wasn’t louder than
Whatever's in the godforsaken bubble.
It popped, like every bubble does.
Some might say it could just be my brain
Finally catching up
To whatever sickly, sickening throw-up of youth I had put on the pages,
Too young –
Too hungover
From the affections and attentions
And confections of a true blue connoisseur. ...
#love
#confessional
#SelfDiscovery
#healing
#bittersweet
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Mrd
Poem Published
16th Mar 2024 10:57pm
16th Mar 2024 10:57pm
Journal Poem:16 March 2024
This has been my day:
Up at 1:39 pm
doing the breathing treatment
first thing
the meds half an hour later;
the bed made carefully,
everything balanced, aligned,
the blankets folded just so,
placed aesthetically just right
Last night I registered
for the NaPo 30-in-30,
feeling like a fraud
but pushing on through
the inner critics
because I know that some of you
actually do think that I am, ...
Up at 1:39 pm
doing the breathing treatment
first thing
the meds half an hour later;
the bed made carefully,
everything balanced, aligned,
the blankets folded just so,
placed aesthetically just right
Last night I registered
for the NaPo 30-in-30,
feeling like a fraud
but pushing on through
the inner critics
because I know that some of you
actually do think that I am, ...
#confessional
79 reads
6 Comments
WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
10th Mar 2024 2:25pm
10th Mar 2024 2:25pm
power of investment
he used to tell me...when it comes to love
the one least invested has the most power
I resented it at the time
it made me so angry...
...so hurt
guess that shows where I fell in our equation...
in the end...turns out he was right
truth is...love is only as real as we allow it
and not everyone has the same capacity
...translation...
...or the will
but my mushy heart will gleefully fall
regardless of how unlikely it may turn out
because I feel most alive when I'm giving
when the glow warms my entire...
the one least invested has the most power
I resented it at the time
it made me so angry...
...so hurt
guess that shows where I fell in our equation...
in the end...turns out he was right
truth is...love is only as real as we allow it
and not everyone has the same capacity
...translation...
...or the will
but my mushy heart will gleefully fall
regardless of how unlikely it may turn out
because I feel most alive when I'm giving
when the glow warms my entire...
#abuse
#confessional
#SelfReflection
#SelfWorth
#manipulation
168 reads
8 Comments
a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
5th Mar 2024 2:32pm
5th Mar 2024 2:32pm
Yes I want Darsi
Yes I want Darsi
What a cute mischievous creature
Its written in its face
I want art
It is an ancient attraction to it
I emerge into it
But some days
I just need a futile existence
I need to be nothing
Look at this monster
With the ugliest face on earth
Why do not they chase me away from this bar
Everybody is so friendly to me these times
And I smell
Art
I just can not resist that damn fuck.
Writing these verses on my phone
And there's been an earthquake in...
What a cute mischievous creature
Its written in its face
I want art
It is an ancient attraction to it
I emerge into it
But some days
I just need a futile existence
I need to be nothing
Look at this monster
With the ugliest face on earth
Why do not they chase me away from this bar
Everybody is so friendly to me these times
And I smell
Art
I just can not resist that damn fuck.
Writing these verses on my phone
And there's been an earthquake in...
#confessional
74 reads
2 Comments
Kou_Indigo
Poem Published
26th Feb 2024 1:12am
26th Feb 2024 1:12am
No Worship but Bliss
- No Worship but Bliss -
--- Being some personal musings and thoughts that I wrote down on Saturday, February 10, 2024
I stopped seeing my former therapist, her name was Gloria in case I never mentioned it, and our final session was at the beginning of last month. She set me up with a new psychotherapist named Megan. I was apprehensive about going in to see her this week, and on Wednesday when the appointment was at hand I actually was not planning on going in to see her, mostly because I was worried she was going to want me to talk about things I was unwilling or unprepared to...
--- Being some personal musings and thoughts that I wrote down on Saturday, February 10, 2024
I stopped seeing my former therapist, her name was Gloria in case I never mentioned it, and our final session was at the beginning of last month. She set me up with a new psychotherapist named Megan. I was apprehensive about going in to see her this week, and on Wednesday when the appointment was at hand I actually was not planning on going in to see her, mostly because I was worried she was going to want me to talk about things I was unwilling or unprepared to...
#relationships
#LifeStruggles
#spiritual
#confessional
#SelfReflection
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Ahavati
Poem Published
23rd Feb 2024 1:07am
23rd Feb 2024 1:07am
Justice is a nocturnal animal
always watching
unseen, from the shadows
its scales wavering
may take a while
to climb
those karmic steps
but you can be certain
of one thing—
corruption
is on borrowed time
before being dealt
the same fate
that is not demeaning
what we sow we reap
if not in this life
then the next
and those behind the scenes
in...
unseen, from the shadows
its scales wavering
may take a while
to climb
those karmic steps
but you can be certain
of one thing—
corruption
is on borrowed time
before being dealt
the same fate
that is not demeaning
what we sow we reap
if not in this life
then the next
and those behind the scenes
in...
#politics
#confessional
307 reads
17 Comments
WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
20th Feb 2024 4:33pm
20th Feb 2024 4:33pm
rearview reflections
funny how sometimes I look back at events in my life
it's like watching a movie on the big screen
thinking...shit...that was really me
it shouldn't be so surprising...
I was there...but was I really...
I guess that's up for debate
at the time I was so focused on survival
didn't occur to think of it as traumatic
flashes of the past blasting into my conscious
who even knows what caused it
standing in the parking lot of an old wig shop
a location chosen because it was so ridiculously random
suitcase at my feet & 4 year old...
it's like watching a movie on the big screen
thinking...shit...that was really me
it shouldn't be so surprising...
I was there...but was I really...
I guess that's up for debate
at the time I was so focused on survival
didn't occur to think of it as traumatic
flashes of the past blasting into my conscious
who even knows what caused it
standing in the parking lot of an old wig shop
a location chosen because it was so ridiculously random
suitcase at my feet & 4 year old...
#motherhood
#LifeStruggles
#confessional #memories
#confessional #memories
109 reads
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