a_methyste
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hlightdroid
Poem Published
23rd Apr 2024 12:22pm
23rd Apr 2024 12:22pm
Excquisite fur
A white cat
with exquisite fur
I got the habit of licking myself every day.
I write poetry
And I cleanse up.
with exquisite fur
I got the habit of licking myself every day.
I write poetry
And I cleanse up.
#confessional
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
23rd Apr 2024 7:52am
23rd Apr 2024 7:52am
ignition is just a spark
23 of 30
I wonder how many times I reached for the fire
already knowing I was going to get burnt
it's not something I ever acknowledged
...in the moment
like a child with a fistful of candy
I only knew I wanted it
never mind the pain that would be waiting
indulging my longing
...if only to feel alive
because what makes blood pump stronger than love...or passion
always understanding...of course...
though they might come in tandem
...they're not one & the same
but did it register before I leapt into the flame...
I wonder how many times I reached for the fire
already knowing I was going to get burnt
it's not something I ever acknowledged
...in the moment
like a child with a fistful of candy
I only knew I wanted it
never mind the pain that would be waiting
indulging my longing
...if only to feel alive
because what makes blood pump stronger than love...or passion
always understanding...of course...
though they might come in tandem
...they're not one & the same
but did it register before I leapt into the flame...
#confessional
#honesty
#love #NaPoWriMo2024
#love #NaPoWriMo2024
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a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
22nd Apr 2024 8:25pm
22nd Apr 2024 8:25pm
Snapshot
Advice is like a non smoking cigarette for me
I am a compulsive smoker
A sentence is too much for me
Leave alone these fleeting electrons
A novel a nightmare.
I live in the land of
I took a snapshot of psychedelic
Now it is gone.
I am a compulsive smoker
A sentence is too much for me
Leave alone these fleeting electrons
A novel a nightmare.
I live in the land of
I took a snapshot of psychedelic
Now it is gone.
#confessional
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
21st Apr 2024 7:26pm
21st Apr 2024 7:26pm
the process
21 of 30
I jot a thought & save it
hoping to complete it later
sometimes it works
others...not so much
& I'm left with a buncha scraps of this & that
no idea where I was originally heading
so I set them aside
again...for eventual retrieval
I think my muse has a prickly personality
obstinate to a fault
refusing my attempts to channel our thinking
she clearly has other ideas
{apparently mine are too boring}
I'd appreciate it if she'd share her own musings
{pun intended...}
give me a...
I jot a thought & save it
hoping to complete it later
sometimes it works
others...not so much
& I'm left with a buncha scraps of this & that
no idea where I was originally heading
so I set them aside
again...for eventual retrieval
I think my muse has a prickly personality
obstinate to a fault
refusing my attempts to channel our thinking
she clearly has other ideas
{apparently mine are too boring}
I'd appreciate it if she'd share her own musings
{pun intended...}
give me a...
#confessional
#myself
#WritingPoetry
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a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
20th Apr 2024 5:45pm
20th Apr 2024 5:45pm
Wounds
Hand to hand with these physical constraints
It is unbearable I whisper to myself
I have fucked everyone in my head
There are no fucks left
Bitter
Resentful
I lick my wounds
It is unbearable I whisper to myself
I have fucked everyone in my head
There are no fucks left
Bitter
Resentful
I lick my wounds
#confessional
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
19th Apr 2024 12:23pm
19th Apr 2024 12:23pm
authentic me
19 of 30
would you think more of me...or less...
if I confessed...
I am incapable of loving...
...half-heartedly
standing at the edge of love's cliff...
staring down into the deep unknown
my heart falls...hard
whether I will it or no
even knowing...
...I step off alone
what does this speak of me
that I'm willing to live...
...unrequited
without trying to deny it
at any rate...it's a moot point
I'm a terrible liar
see...it's my eyes...
give me away everytime
causing me...
would you think more of me...or less...
if I confessed...
I am incapable of loving...
...half-heartedly
standing at the edge of love's cliff...
staring down into the deep unknown
my heart falls...hard
whether I will it or no
even knowing...
...I step off alone
what does this speak of me
that I'm willing to live...
...unrequited
without trying to deny it
at any rate...it's a moot point
I'm a terrible liar
see...it's my eyes...
give me away everytime
causing me...
#confessional
#love
#NaPoWriMo2024
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a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
18th Apr 2024 8:30pm
18th Apr 2024 8:30pm
Carousel
I write poetry for my boyfriend
who writes poetry about his boyfriend
The more I write poetry about him
The more he does for his boyfriend.
Sometimes I pause and stop
He does not keep his breath and keeps on writing about him.
I asked him will you write something for me someday.
Just for spite.
He said it is a comic circle baby and you are a carousel.
who writes poetry about his boyfriend
The more I write poetry about him
The more he does for his boyfriend.
Sometimes I pause and stop
He does not keep his breath and keeps on writing about him.
I asked him will you write something for me someday.
Just for spite.
He said it is a comic circle baby and you are a carousel.
#confessional
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
18th Apr 2024 12:15pm
18th Apr 2024 12:15pm
labyrinth
18 of 30
I've been exploring the labyrinthine maze of my soul
following each path to see where it goes
yeah...there's a lot of tragic crap in my past
but a lot more than that went into my forming
pain is just a fragment of what made me who I am
but I need to know all my facets
the beauty as well as the ugly
how they developed & if they're potentially cracking
which tears eroded into deep trenches
what fuel does it take to ignite my passionate sparks
keeping my feet in a forwardly direction
I move along...
I've been exploring the labyrinthine maze of my soul
following each path to see where it goes
yeah...there's a lot of tragic crap in my past
but a lot more than that went into my forming
pain is just a fragment of what made me who I am
but I need to know all my facets
the beauty as well as the ugly
how they developed & if they're potentially cracking
which tears eroded into deep trenches
what fuel does it take to ignite my passionate sparks
keeping my feet in a forwardly direction
I move along...
#confessional
#NaPoWriMo2024
#SelfReflection
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Her
Poem Published
17th Apr 2024 4:26pm
17th Apr 2024 4:26pm
Disorganized Attachment and BPD, the Beast Within
Intensely craving
What I’m viscerally
Afraid of
Your offered safety
Becomes a threat
Distrust
Idealization
Sabotage
Fear of abandonment
Impulsivity
Chronic emptiness
Shifting identity
Learning balance
Has been a long
Process
I’m not a quiet storm
My love and anger
Intensely passionate
Often misplaced
I’ve blamed life, others
For the things
I’m afraid of
When what I feared most
Was myself
What I’m viscerally
Afraid of
Your offered safety
Becomes a threat
Distrust
Idealization
Sabotage
Fear of abandonment
Impulsivity
Chronic emptiness
Shifting identity
Learning balance
Has been a long
Process
I’m not a quiet storm
My love and anger
Intensely passionate
Often misplaced
I’ve blamed life, others
For the things
I’m afraid of
When what I feared most
Was myself
#confessional
#MentalHealth
#acceptance #fear
#acceptance #fear
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WillowsWhimsies
Poem Published
17th Apr 2024 1:21pm
17th Apr 2024 1:21pm
Russian roulette
17 of 30
it's never been my immediate go-to
drowning my emotions in the contents of a bottle
not much point...
when it takes so little to knock me on my ass
& when I do...it's equal odds...
it might distance me from the haunting...
...or it could cause me to wallow
no way to be sure
still...
I load that weapon with a single shot
take my chances & spin the chamber
just on the off chance I might escape the pain
then reel off toward whichever death it leads me
if...even for a minute...there's any hope to be...
it's never been my immediate go-to
drowning my emotions in the contents of a bottle
not much point...
when it takes so little to knock me on my ass
& when I do...it's equal odds...
it might distance me from the haunting...
...or it could cause me to wallow
no way to be sure
still...
I load that weapon with a single shot
take my chances & spin the chamber
just on the off chance I might escape the pain
then reel off toward whichever death it leads me
if...even for a minute...there's any hope to be...
#alcohol
#confessional
#escape #NaPoWriMo2024
#escape #NaPoWriMo2024
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a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
17th Apr 2024 10:39am
17th Apr 2024 10:39am
Ants affairs
An ant with long
And strong legs
Has taken me slave in its nest.
I can not get out.
My legs are thin and brittle.
I ask it what he does want.
It does not know.
And strong legs
Has taken me slave in its nest.
I can not get out.
My legs are thin and brittle.
I ask it what he does want.
It does not know.
#confessional
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a_methyste
hlightdroid
hlightdroid
Poem Published
16th Apr 2024 12:29pm
16th Apr 2024 12:29pm
Fluctuating walls
I have entered a house i do not understand
I try to touch the walls but they fluctuate
The floor moans
A silly cat says I love you
Then scratches
What do cats know about love anyway.
I speak to the cupboard
I speak to the bed
I speak to the drawer
And they reply things I do not understand at all
I am in a strange house
That is so hostile to me now
And then good
Then unfriendly
And refined
I am in a strange house
Where are the humans
There is no one around
Just a bin with beers ...
I try to touch the walls but they fluctuate
The floor moans
A silly cat says I love you
Then scratches
What do cats know about love anyway.
I speak to the cupboard
I speak to the bed
I speak to the drawer
And they reply things I do not understand at all
I am in a strange house
That is so hostile to me now
And then good
Then unfriendly
And refined
I am in a strange house
Where are the humans
There is no one around
Just a bin with beers ...
#confessional
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