Long Poems About Self Harm
#SelfHarm
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Footsteps
#sadness
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth
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I am
I am an alcoholic
I am an addict
In every possible way
I do not know how to live in moderation, I binge and abuse anything and everything
I do not know how to breathe in moderation, my therapist said that’s a panic attack.
I buy a bag or bottle/ whatever is available I’m not picky, it ends up being 8 grams in 3 days, 8 bottle in 3 days
I crash my car
I avoid getting a dui
I wake up wanting to go to rehab but never go to rehab it’s Father’s Day next week and it would break his heart my...
I am an addict
In every possible way
I do not know how to live in moderation, I binge and abuse anything and everything
I do not know how to breathe in moderation, my therapist said that’s a panic attack.
I buy a bag or bottle/ whatever is available I’m not picky, it ends up being 8 grams in 3 days, 8 bottle in 3 days
I crash my car
I avoid getting a dui
I wake up wanting to go to rehab but never go to rehab it’s Father’s Day next week and it would break his heart my...
#SelfHarm
#drugs
#addiction
#illness
#MentalHealth
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I killed myself last week.
#anger
#SelfHarm
#suicide #addiction
#suicide #addiction
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Depression
Dont know how to put these feelings into words anymore.
Everyone i ever loved just walked through the door.
I move from my bed
Am pacing the floor
I gave all of my heart and still they wanted more.
Am loosing my mind
I hate mankind
The way am feeling cannot be defined.
Am trying not to hear these voice in my head
And trying! but depression wants me dead.
Just one cut they say, the pain will all go away, just one pill, i cant keep still these stupid voices are forcing me to kill.
I am lost! and found by darkness
I am a mess...
Everyone i ever loved just walked through the door.
I move from my bed
Am pacing the floor
I gave all of my heart and still they wanted more.
Am loosing my mind
I hate mankind
The way am feeling cannot be defined.
Am trying not to hear these voice in my head
And trying! but depression wants me dead.
Just one cut they say, the pain will all go away, just one pill, i cant keep still these stupid voices are forcing me to kill.
I am lost! and found by darkness
I am a mess...
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm #MentalHealth
#SelfHarm #MentalHealth
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LIFE...interrupted
Well, here we are together again
Although we've never officially been introduced...
you feel like an old friend
We seem to meet when things fall apart
in the world, in my life, my heart
so many feelings tumbling all over each other...
don't know where to really start
Even the beginning was dimming
Survivor of a predator's sinning
Carried that shadow of burden for years
Didn't know how to shake the fears and good God the tears
I drew to what I knew
Education, writing, advanced learning
the only quench to this...
Although we've never officially been introduced...
you feel like an old friend
We seem to meet when things fall apart
in the world, in my life, my heart
so many feelings tumbling all over each other...
don't know where to really start
Even the beginning was dimming
Survivor of a predator's sinning
Carried that shadow of burden for years
Didn't know how to shake the fears and good God the tears
I drew to what I knew
Education, writing, advanced learning
the only quench to this...
#depression
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth #PTSD
#MentalHealth #PTSD
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Diary entry 05-03-2023 “We have changed again”
I’ve not been myself the last few months. I’m ….. different now. I changed again. Coping, defending, morphing, or was I going on the offence? So much pent up aggression, so much anger and rage storming through my mind right now. A short fused bomb ready to go off. The slightest misstep could ruin everything. I could destroy everything I ever believed in, everything I ever loved and cared for. I can’t control myself anymore, I’m at the mercy of others to fight for me. Because if I do, nothing will be left untouched, nothing or no one can stop me. Never mind how high the cost may grow, I cannot...
#anger
#depression
#identity
#SelfHarm
#confusion
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Diary entry 14-02-2023. Self Worth
I’ve been lost for a long time, not knowing who or what I was. Eternal conflict, unending torture. Follow the voices, hiding the truth, lying to myself. If it was even me who I was talking to. How to see the difference? Can you even see any difference? In the mirrors reflection, the same smirks and expressions. Each and every day they seem different but are still the same image. Is that who I am? Is this all I am? Or are we just what we are. Many in one, one body, many minds, one reflection, numerous copies of the same but all different. It’s getting harder to differentiate between all of...
#depression
#identity
#SelfHarm
#despair
#emptiness
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Stand up
#bullying
#SelfHarm
#suicide
#MentalHealth
#rap
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Electroconvulsive Therapy
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Electroconvulsive Therapy
Spying exits, I contemplate my escape
as my wheelchair winds its way from
the ICU to the fifth floor psych ward.
I'm promised three meals a day,
served on trays that bear my name (a name ostensibly Top Secret on this floor).
Next comes the forced sharing of painful memories with other imperfect strangers.
A game played if we hope win our release.
Yet, there's no percentage in this slow attrition. So I go "All In" for the Gold Standard Treatment,...
Electroconvulsive Therapy
Spying exits, I contemplate my escape
as my wheelchair winds its way from
the ICU to the fifth floor psych ward.
I'm promised three meals a day,
served on trays that bear my name (a name ostensibly Top Secret on this floor).
Next comes the forced sharing of painful memories with other imperfect strangers.
A game played if we hope win our release.
Yet, there's no percentage in this slow attrition. So I go "All In" for the Gold Standard Treatment,...
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm
#bipolar
#MentalHealth
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At the end of my rope (03-10-2022)
Again the pressure is building up inside my head. When am I going to snap? When will I reach my limit? I can’t hold this inside for much longer. My mind is racing, crashing against the walls I have built myself. Walls raised for protection, raised to appear normal, raised so I can function, strengthened by the knowledge of past borders I protected. Stretching the periods between outbursts. But knowing that it has been quite a while that it happened. The voices are driving me crazy. Getting louder each day and night. Unable to sleep properly, unable to think clear. Insomnia is driving me nuts....
#depression
#loneliness
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth
#FeelingLost
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Apologies
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so fucking sorry.
I....I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to turn out this way.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to worry.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to listen to my constant bitching.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to think about me.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about you.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about me.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about us.
I'm sorry. I didn't think you would worry.
I'm sorry. I didn't think I would worry. ...
I'm so sorry.
I'm so fucking sorry.
I....I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to turn out this way.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to worry.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to listen to my constant bitching.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean for you to have to think about me.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about you.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about me.
I'm sorry. I didn't think about us.
I'm sorry. I didn't think you would worry.
I'm sorry. I didn't think I would worry. ...
#anxiety
#depression
#SelfHarm #MentalHealth
#SelfHarm #MentalHealth
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BACK TO RETRO REVERSE INTROVERSION AGAIN (12:00am, 5-16-2022, Palm Springs, California)
ive so unsettlingly
noticed
increasingly
over these last
four or five years
and now
more than ever
it seems
that whenever
i find myself
in social gatherings
of almost any kind
where theres
more than
three or four
people
or even friends
ive known for years
at times
depending to some degree
at least
upon the situation
and the unpredictable mix
of egoic personalities ...
noticed
increasingly
over these last
four or five years
and now
more than ever
it seems
that whenever
i find myself
in social gatherings
of almost any kind
where theres
more than
three or four
people
or even friends
ive known for years
at times
depending to some degree
at least
upon the situation
and the unpredictable mix
of egoic personalities ...
#anxiety
#SelfHarm
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
#vulnerability
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