I used to know exactly what I wanted... Who I was What I believed What is right What is wrong I was confident and strong-willed My world was black and white Day and night Everything was so clear ...not today
Today, There is so much grey The night blends with day Can't seem to find my way Or keep this uncertainty at bay. What to do? What to say? What to feel? ...what is real?
What is there when your energy isn't positive or negative When your universe doesn't recognize you and there is no take or give Do you exist in limbo, trapped in the rift Or do you join the multiverse and open doorways within it's midst
To have seen the things that I have, can boggle the mind Totally destroying astrophysics, Einstein and the laws of Newton's design The many worlds where humans aren't the supreme beings You would be surprised by the peace that I've seen
Reptilians at peace with reptilians, but acknowledging all other species ...
As I watch a program of lost love through the death of one spouse, before becoming a spouse, I reflect back to the time when I became a widow. I watch this female look for the person who had shot her to be husband after 30 years. I reflect back to my own lost & it doesn’t help that I felt the anger just as she had moved on in life with children & 2 husbands just as I had with just 1 other.
She still needed closure on the fellow cop who she was to marry, had gotten killed by a drug addicted teen who was...
My meals, Should they appease my hunger, Taste lonely for some reason. I look in the mirror each dull morning To see my eyes glazed with fog And my skin faded With the frigid winter season. I feel cold When i sit here alone Hearing slight taps on my window Hypothermia Begging me to let the breeze in I fade away and listen to my breath, My sighing lungs Slowly breaking into tiny, glass pieces.