Ashen Skies Inside A Lonely Mind

Yikes....
the lame heart
still bleeds

I find myself
lost in loathing
hating what is no more

useless shit
seems to be something
I'm good at

reminiscing
is lonely
and cold

stuck in that thought,
my psyche
is punishing me

I cared,
just refused to show it
knowing this would happen

expecting
the disappointment,
has never let me down

its my heart
tossing around the could've beens
I just play along

for now I will sink
with my broken thoughts
into the back alley of my mind

letting the gothic rainbow shroud me
in its darkest of memories,
knowing,I'll crawl out slowly, tomorrow