the first astral plan parenthood session in purgatory as told by the wanna be something

an older edited piece........
 
the superglue on my seat seems to have solidified
she keeps me captivated with witty convo yet bitter eyes
my enemies have come to dig my bones
should never carve your real name in stone
the breathless silence brings about violence
and devotion
i'll ride this bitch right to hell
a single kiss a light smell
i am the worst one to pull the trigger
the vanity gun
calamity has 1
a depo provera shot to chemically prevent feeling anything
internal
anymore
her panties soiled her legs and my eyes are soar
a pair of pennies to get me to the shore
everyone loses their composure and needs closure
         sympathy and synchopy have taken over
for this 1 leaf left clover
 
 
all this pain like i really need it
this belly is freezin
i am again the fetus
purplish veins bulging through undeveloped eyes
final destination why are you so surprised
death can fuck off i am still alive but with an obituary smile
 
 
destination unknown
the hypodermic pierces the hypothermic right down to the tachycardic bone
  and heart
she wants to call him alabastor from the start
before they turn this bastard into a real bastard
and bastard a la cart
where will we go?
the solitary courting phase
infinity to pre empt memory and create a systematic way of falling down
i thought about you before i even started drinking today
but thought about starting drinking well before i thought of you
believe me it's a compliment
another continent
over and over,all in all, all we are is just plain desperate
just a man in a place preying to catatonia
preying for california
to just slip and fall away
just until i get there someday
so i know there is nothing left beautiful in the states
i'm holding my breath again and closing my eyes in hopes that when i wake
   this will all be empty space
 
 
all the pain like i really need it
this belly is freezing
i am again the fetus
purplish veins bulging through undeveloped eyes
final destination why are you so surprised
death can fuck off
i am still alive but with an obituary smile
 
 
 
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