Photographs.

Even though I'm hurting inside.
Dying without your love.
I still put on a smile.
For the camera.
Just so you think I'm fine.
That I didn't even need you at all.
Even though we smile in so many photographs.
We think, were we really happy then?
Or were we just wearing a fake smile.
My life was crashing down before your gorgeous eye's.
Somethings you say.
Really get inside my skin.
Making me feel like I'm insane and that I need help?
Screw that, I'm just fine.
Pretending life is great.
Which it will be one day.
Just not right now.
Maybe I don't need you after all.
Maybe I never really and truly loved you.
Maybe it was just a big stupid lie.
Ha, maybe...
Baby, forever...
What does forever mean anyways?
Do you even know yourself?
When you throw it around like it's nothing.
Never known anyone, who thinks everything will never end like you do.
You don't think that far ahead do you.
Things always change.
People are always changing.
Nothing will ever be the same...
But pictures.... will always be the same...
Photographs of you and your new boyfriend.
That's what I get...
Ha, it kills me!
It really does...But you'll never know.
Because in photographs.
In the pictures you see of me.
I'll always be wearing a smile.
Until one day, I really mean that smile on my face.
And you know what the best part about it.
Is that my smile.
The smile that lights up my whole face...

Won't be for YOU!  

I've slowly learnt to hate you...