Did I Really Go There?

My soul may be in torment
but my physical state knows no such constraint
the afternoon's amber glow
resolution of what was previously
a brain exchange

A scandal to my mind and soul
knowing that legally
we are guilty of an offense
could be interpreted as
a mock of societal custom

Am I destined to be enveloped in guilt
as the disrupter of the happy home
did the blind eye to repercussions
cast me out of all's good graces?

Did the vanity of going to that place
where the spouse could not go anymore
make me believe the fantasy
am I still deluded
Has she labeled me a facade?