Past Tense Psycho

I have been killed
in a sense
everything I knew
is bullshit
its a lie
something shitty B movies
are made of

an absolute horror
in the only beauty
I have ever known
or will know,
its pretty fucking ugly

I thought things
and saw things
and felt them too
but alas....
it was more crap

I find myself
stabbing pictures of
fucked up fairy tales,  
evil lies spun by
masterful linguists

repulsion
on a deep level
is causing me
to purge my good sense
I'm dabbling in the black now

the death of a star
in a distant galaxy
has effected everything
even him,
my only....
my only fucking love