I Fucking Hate Loving You

I hate you. I hate seeing you,
I hate being by you, and I
Hate not being able to get
Away from you. I hate how
Much I love you and how
Many times I've bled because
Of you. I hate you. I hate you.
I hate you. I love you. I just
Can't get enough of you. I
Can't stop loving you, and I
Hate myself for it. I blame
The world for it. I just want
This all to go away. I want
To hate you more than I love
You but I can't. I can't control
Myself around you. I am
Helpless. I wish I could hate
You the way you hate me. I
Can't stand this pain. I can't
Stand living this way. When
Death suddenly becomes an
Option, you realize your life
Is really over. I have no hope
Left. I just want to go down,
Six feet underground, then
Further because even Hell
Would be a relief to what is
Happening to me right now.
I hate you. I hate you. I
Fucking hate just how much
I love you. You are the only
Thing I love that also tears
Me to fucking pieces. I want
To rip my veins into shreds
And bleed out. I want to
Finally detox you out of my
System. I never want to think
About you ever again. I want
To stop feeling. I want to be
Numb. I hate you. I hate you.
I hate loving you. I just want
To die, but I can't pull the
Fucking trigger because of
How much of a little bitch I
Am. I complain and complain,
And I don't do anything
About it. I just cut and cry
And hold it all inside because
That's the only way I can make
Myself get up in the morning.
I just want to never wake up.
I want it to be over. I hate you.
I hate you. I fucking love you.