some kind of looped up in a black box  (the final trap?)

just feeling unconvinced by my latest thought            
i tried to find a better one                              
but it seems like i'm bound to this region unexplored      
to where all my thinking runs                              

i can't stop heading for the very question mark            
which disappears when i arrive                        
although to me my mind seems neither black nor dark            
it looks like i'll stay blind for life                        

it seems there is a lot not in the way it seems            
the only way that we can go                              
our very consciousness is of course no stream            
but how to think of such a flow                        

that is closer than anything else could ever be                        
but consequently put aside                              
like a blind spot whose blindness just enables me            
since looking harder means to hide                         

it seems there is a lot not in the way it seems            
the only way that we can go                              
our very consciousness is hopefully no dream            
but how to think of such a show