someday

someday I wont feel dead someday I will wake up someday I will feel with my whole heart and someday I will be real someday maybe I will be loved I am torn conflicted confused not knowing what road to take which path to choose I have this bitter taste of the world and what family is it was always lies beatings abuse of every kind attempted murder before my eyes everyday questioning is daddy gonna kill us tonight?will he point a gun at us or beat us with an inch of our lives?FAMILY?The day I was born was the day I died and some how I'm alive and here lonely all through childhood and most of my adult life surrounded by people drowning suffocating pulling and prodding tearing me apart if that's what that was if that's what you call it CHILDHOOD? I don't know what that is;all I ever knew was pain and death now; I have a life with one person that's all I need and now I know what happiness is now I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS!Before those were just words to me.Now I know what a real friend is supposed to feel like now I know someday became ONE DAY and my dream my only real dream came true I found what I'd been looking for my entire life LOVE!I found my match.I resent my mother and  my brothers I hate you but I love you and my second brother well I wish the other wasn't in the ground and things will always try to piss me off and hurt me my father never will ever again he's dead to me!The end of the world is just the beginning for me.eight billion people on this planet and I always wanted to leave it. Now I will stay for the man that saved me. my match life will always hurt but now not as much I found one good thing and he shines with a halo of light my angel I always knew he was real and,with me I just had to find him I searched for so long I am with him now we were looking for each other trying to find one another everyday of our lives SOMEDAY ONE DAY TODAY TOMORROW FOREVER FOR REAL.Finally came.Now I know its never too late to feel to live and to love I needed saving and I now stand by my soul mate.The man with the halo.Today and for the rest of our lives.No more someday maybe one day The day has come and is here.The day I thought would never come.I have it.