screams

screams..
not so subtle.
screams,
struck out every hour.
the moans and tears
never felt real...

hands on a perishable thought,
fragile skin underneath the warmth of a thousand.
this moment
thoughts never felt real...

I hit you.
I hit you.

again and again in an emotionless rage.
tears are flowing I cannot find the reasoning
can barely stand.
can barely breathe.
my fist is covered in blood.
my ring is broken.
I fall to the ground.
tears are endless, still I cannot find a reason.

there is no burning hatred,
    only an innocent love.
there is no sadness,
    the tears are sweet.

words of rage
escape my mouth
useless words,
everyone void of meaning.
I can barely stand.
I can barely speak.

still I hit you.

and fall.
I fall.


wake in the evening my head bursting...