Can I lean against you?

can I lean on your shoulder?
because I am tired and feel like Atlas, the worlds holder
can I lean against you and close my eyes?
and have you not say anything? not truths nor lies?
can I just lean? or will you quietly turn me away
This time around I can't seem to stop the tears, my mind frays
I hope I can cry on your shoulder, to have someone here
Because I know how to weep without a sound
missing my home and my hound
I can't seem to stop them from falling
or the nightmares from calling
Would it be too much to ask if could you hold me?
hold me up so that I don't drown in this misery
can I rest my head on your chest
I promise that I'll do the best that I can...the best  
to stop these tears that betray me by crying
but please won't you hold me? cuz inside I'm dying
I know I should lay back down and try to sleep
but my pillow is wet from the tears I weep
I wish you were here to wipe them away
I wish you were here and not so far away
I'm so ashamed to admit that I need you now
to hold me while I try to make it somehow
where this pain comes from I don't understand
and the tears in my eyes feel so much like sand
I wish you were here because I need you to hold me
to save me from drowning in my tears, pain and misery
but even if you were to want to you're too far away
so I'll cry myself to sleep tonight where I lay
and even as I cry I hope you're sleeping well  
and I hope you'll never be able to tell