Nightmares

another night with the fear of closing my eyes
afraid of the images and my minds lies
i just lay here watching the clock glaring blue and red
wishing i were asleep, but without these images in my head
my eyes are sore
but of the nightmares i cant stand anymore
tossing from one side to the other
feel like i'm drowning in the cover
my heart beats steadily
but my body slow and moves heavily
i wish Ranna were here
what i wouldnt give to have him near
tears fill my eyes and hit the pillow
my hair spread out and i'm weeping like a willow
alone in my black world, the only lights from the clock
not making a sound, no tick, no tock.
tears roll down my cheek
how i wish i werent so weak
i miss him so
he kept the nightmares at bay
but i need to relearn how to fight my battles like i did before, my way
tears fall one by one
as my sanity slowly unravels and becomes undone
so here i lay
waiting for the dawn of the day
wondering what my friends will think of how tired i appear
or the sad look in my eyes because i'm always wishing my lover were near