so what is it?

You don’t know what I want,
I don’t know what I want,
But what I don’t want,
Is to feel desire,
But then,
Desire is what I want.


Looking and standing in a new light,
I want to shine,
Not for the people, but for me,
Not a big home, not a fancy car,
I don’t know what I want,
Can you tell me what I want?

I stand here, I sit there,
Yet I feel confused,
I waver,
While my mood swings,
I doubt,
While the cage bird sings,
I shout,
While somewhere,
My soul is still,
But yet I don’t know what I want,
Do you?

The stars shine,
While I collide,
With me,
I know what I want,
I want to feel safe,
I want silent days,
I don’t want the content in my mind,
Shaping my ways,
But yet I die, each day,
Each day, I feel,
Not in control,
But what I want to know is what controls,
I don’t know what I want,
Do you think I just,
Want to feel safe?