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An Op'Ed Letter to a Dear Friend
yo, ms.T,
i'preciate th' heart doctor post, & i'm not going to take right/wrong 'side' on these issues of health 'opinion'...it's all so convoluted...wee get so enmeshed in this compulsion to 'side' wit 'knowers' of whatever variety - all stemming from fear of mortality & some primal urge to solve the 'threat' of non-existence. wee been falling all over OurSelfs to find the 'correct' methods to forestall non-existence.....okay, obviously that's a big part of our 'nature' (as per Human Disnature)....................anyways, all i'know is that since me surgery in 2000, i have had None of the common variety 'ailments' of which y'hear people 'complain' of every blessed day, (of which I was every bit as 'prone' to in the 20th century). i've not had a 'cold', flu,'allergy',& 15 yrs'worth of chronic (2,3,4x/yr) bronchitis have disappeared...I take no meticulous, nor calculated 'precaution' against these ailments...regarding 'climate', i'm ridiculously adaptive to what people consider 'extreme' cold/hot....every doc i been to since has said that, with exception of the scar on my chest, a normal cursory non-invasive exam wouldn't render a hint of what i'd 'gone thru' in matters-of-the-heart....my 'diet' is instinctive & certainly non-meticulous, tho, by 'common standards' would be considered relatively hyper-healthy.......i have not desire to mess with my medications....they've caused no gross side effects & knowing that 'withdrawal' from any such can cause internal trauma well beyond the 'discomfort' of kicking..... tho the literality to which wee attach to our cliches is silly, I'm "on borrowed time" as it is........most bypass patients have had recurrences of some noticeable decline much sooner than this 12yrs of 'mine'......this (ego-centered) compulsion we have to "be pro'active" re: all these 'important' issues of eXistence's polarities/dualities probably is a cause of more distress/conflict than we dare imagine....all because our individual AND collective Ego is so skewed, full of catch22s, & the very 'nature' of ego is to insure a 'blindness' to it's own agendi & myriad of sub-agendi to 'conquer' the 'threat' of non-eXistence(OF ego).....so, it's like almost that my braindamage has left me blessedly 'disabled' from any 'literal' side-taking or or adopting (or creating) any methodology for the illusions of 'improvement'.......i don't "want" to die...i don't 'like' the idear of nonXisting, (tho at times the flailing to avoid it gets so wearisome that it's like 'just get It over with already')....neither am i 'fearless' regarding death, even tho i feel an illusion of already having 'died'....it's all relative to the "belief" we ascribe to our illusions, (which are probably the sole 'essence' of what our brain creates), turning them (illusions) into blindly selfdestructive delusions leading to an ever combative collective eXistence of 7 billion egos claiming True Reality, each precious one 'individually twisted'.....even 'mine'----- go figger /
LOVe, dopey danny
i'preciate th' heart doctor post, & i'm not going to take right/wrong 'side' on these issues of health 'opinion'...it's all so convoluted...wee get so enmeshed in this compulsion to 'side' wit 'knowers' of whatever variety - all stemming from fear of mortality & some primal urge to solve the 'threat' of non-existence. wee been falling all over OurSelfs to find the 'correct' methods to forestall non-existence.....okay, obviously that's a big part of our 'nature' (as per Human Disnature)....................anyways, all i'know is that since me surgery in 2000, i have had None of the common variety 'ailments' of which y'hear people 'complain' of every blessed day, (of which I was every bit as 'prone' to in the 20th century). i've not had a 'cold', flu,'allergy',& 15 yrs'worth of chronic (2,3,4x/yr) bronchitis have disappeared...I take no meticulous, nor calculated 'precaution' against these ailments...regarding 'climate', i'm ridiculously adaptive to what people consider 'extreme' cold/hot....every doc i been to since has said that, with exception of the scar on my chest, a normal cursory non-invasive exam wouldn't render a hint of what i'd 'gone thru' in matters-of-the-heart....my 'diet' is instinctive & certainly non-meticulous, tho, by 'common standards' would be considered relatively hyper-healthy.......i have not desire to mess with my medications....they've caused no gross side effects & knowing that 'withdrawal' from any such can cause internal trauma well beyond the 'discomfort' of kicking..... tho the literality to which wee attach to our cliches is silly, I'm "on borrowed time" as it is........most bypass patients have had recurrences of some noticeable decline much sooner than this 12yrs of 'mine'......this (ego-centered) compulsion we have to "be pro'active" re: all these 'important' issues of eXistence's polarities/dualities probably is a cause of more distress/conflict than we dare imagine....all because our individual AND collective Ego is so skewed, full of catch22s, & the very 'nature' of ego is to insure a 'blindness' to it's own agendi & myriad of sub-agendi to 'conquer' the 'threat' of non-eXistence(OF ego).....so, it's like almost that my braindamage has left me blessedly 'disabled' from any 'literal' side-taking or or adopting (or creating) any methodology for the illusions of 'improvement'.......i don't "want" to die...i don't 'like' the idear of nonXisting, (tho at times the flailing to avoid it gets so wearisome that it's like 'just get It over with already')....neither am i 'fearless' regarding death, even tho i feel an illusion of already having 'died'....it's all relative to the "belief" we ascribe to our illusions, (which are probably the sole 'essence' of what our brain creates), turning them (illusions) into blindly selfdestructive delusions leading to an ever combative collective eXistence of 7 billion egos claiming True Reality, each precious one 'individually twisted'.....even 'mine'----- go figger /
LOVe, dopey danny
Published 16th Jan 2013
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