Him

Do you even realize what you have left?
I'm glad your gone, it's been a long time coming.
You and I never had that "something".
Ever since I've been seventeen
I made believe that we were the dream.
That life everyone yearns for.
Now I know I'd rather catch on fire and burn for,
For the chance to be rid of you,
The one thing that has held me back my entire life.

Do you know me?
No love you don't even know me.
My intelligence, my beauty
My talents and inspirations
My goals, my views
Things that make me happy.

I hate you more everyday
Especially when you stare into my eyes
You say nothing
You don't see it
The uncontrollable urge to cry
You don't see my emptiness
How couldn't you?
You caused it
How do you shit all over your biggest fan
Truest love
Somebody who would kill for you
Lie for you
Die for you
Has cried for you

You did this!
You created this monster inside me
My hatred erupts from me onto you and all around me
You have made me love no one
Hate everyone
Lose faith in everything
MY OWN LIFE!

But you know what you didn't bet on babe?
Him!
The one who erases all that pain
Makes me feel....something
I can write now
I can enjoy now
I hate less now

Thank you
Your hatred has made me....
Love
Love me....
Love life....
Love him